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oh — i’m like a dog. oh i’m like a dog.

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i keep buying satsumas and tangerines and clementines and every time i dig my nails into one i cant help but wish i were peeling it for someone else. i pull apart the slices - first in half to pick the pith from the center and then gently the crescents one by one. the smell of citrus lingers on my hands and in my room. i cant help but wish there were fingers to intertwine my own orange-stained ones with. i cant help but wish oranges peeled only for myself tasted just as sweet.

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oh - im like a dog. oh i’m like a dog. at your doorstep. at your heel. ears pricked ; waiting ; call me call me call me. lick your wounds. hope between my teeth. want me want me want me

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would it be different if i was pretty would it be different if i was pretty would it be different if i was pretty

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is being pretty something i can learn to do? can i teach myself to be something someone might desire? ill carve myself into something entirely different if that’s what it takes!

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had a dream u looked at me that kinda way now i’m clocking in to my job at the yearning factory to yearn so hard my stomach hurts yay

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:(

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waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting

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*me, literally sick with want* whatever

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born to have a secret digital diary

cursed to fill it with crappy poetry

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every time anyone likes or interacts w anything i post on here imagine i am giving u a little kiss on the forehead and also shedding a little happy tear . this is becoming the little corner of the internet where i try to make sense of the things in my brain and heart by putting them into words and art and it makes me so happy when someone else enjoys them <3

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one day it will find me one day i wont have to ache for it one day i will love less like the moon and more like the stars but oh im tired of waiting of stargazing of aching of loving like the moon i wish i didnt ache for this as much as i do

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i just wish i’d kept my mouth shut. this will rot me from the inside out anyway, so what difference does it make? maybe then i could’ve at least kept pretending you might want me.

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ive rolled the words over my tongue so much they’ve rubbed sores into my mouth. want me want me want me let me give everything let me want and be wanted in the same way. want me want me want me. ill let the words keep rubbing my mouth raw.

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i need it to be spring so i can stop feeling like im living my life completely wrong. im sure ill feel less lost when i can see the sun!

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wish i’d kept my mouth shut. wish i’d been better at pretending. wish you’d kiss me again, even if it didn’t mean anything. wish i didn’t always have to spill my guts to breathe.

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another version of this before i overdid it a little w the colors :,D

LET ME BE THE SUN