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Yuna's Decision Illustrator: Yuu Fujiki

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“Find things beautiful as much as you can, most people find too little beautiful.”

— Vincent Van Gogh

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Last week I spent time in the mountains with my aunt! It was beautiful. I love the woods and the mountains. We did some shopping and ate good food. It was just nice to see her.

The view from our hotel room wasn’t really much..

But the next morning I went out for a nicer view!

I had a smoothie that was SUPER thick and made a dog friend.

Then we went to another town and went to a honey shop where they had a hive in the store!

Was very fun tasting different types of honey!

I would really like to go back in the fall to see the leaves changing.

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Sunday was spent at the flea market, walking in 93F heat and not carrying my water with me. Was definitely hot and my knees hurt, but I got my steps in and had a good time overall! I only purchased one thing, but I got my tan back. Luckily I’m Hispanic, so I didn’t sunburn because OUGH.

This was my good (and only) find!

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you will live and you will say the wrong things and make mistakes and people will love you anyways.

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I had a great night at karaoke with family. It was wonderful to get out of the house, face my anxiety and have fun. However, I am DEAD TIRED. But I saw a rainbow today, so even the racist BI T CH at the store won't stop me. It's all good.

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Why’s my ice like that?

Why is it erect?

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I AM NO LONGER PREDIABETIC. I HAD A GREAT DAY AT THE GYM. I AM HAVING A GREAT TIME RIGHT NOW.

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it's raining, the windows are open, i have finished most of my tasks by shoving them all together at once to overwhelm myself into an anxiety attack while drinking two java monsters

this is normal

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Sending you hugs, friend, and hoping things settle for you soon ❤️

Thank you. Tomorrow is my doctor appointment, so I'm hoping for answers and action on how to help relieve it. Doing my best. 💜

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Thank you to those who sent me messages. I'm just really dragging across the floor here mentally and physically.

My eye doctor said I have strong signs of Idiopathic intracranial Hypertension. It sounds scary, but I don't really fully understand it. I'm also off a medication, so there's that.

The being "off" is my fault, because I didn't get a refill in time. So, I am feeling it.

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I've been checking a little bit, but I'm mentally checked out. Got a scary diagnosis and I'm just kind of frozen in time. I hope you're all doing well.

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drained. overwhelmed.

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oh. there it is. the petrifying anxiety of knowing i have to do something important today which means i can only do that one thing today which means i can't rest because if i do i won't be hyperaware of the time so i'll just shut up down instead until i do that single thing.

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My husband was going to take a shower, so Rahir has to do his very important job of making sure it's safe to get in. If you close the door after he's done, he will then sit outside and scream bloody murder until you are out of the shower and prove you are fine.