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@Castle Marienburg

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are you still active on here?

Hi, and thanks for the question!

As you can probably surmise from the delayed answer (sorry about this!), I cannot really say I'm still active here. I do scroll down some posts from time to time, but most days, I hardly feel like posting anything anymore.

So much has changed in my life since I used to be regularly active on Tumblr... I got new friends, a new job, got engaged and married. Essentially, I don't really have much spare time anymore.

Besides, I used to use this blog mostly due to my interest in Hetalia. Interest that has waned a lot over the years, if I have to be honest. More than just that – my interest in fandom in general has essentially disappeared. I guess it's still tied to the fact that I have less free time. I still read books, still watch anime – but I don't even remember the last time I read fanfiction. With less free time, I aim for quality, not for quantity, which mostly means leaving anything related to fandom out.

Even so, I do feel like posting something from time to time. Just like now, for example. So, I guess you might see some occasional posts from me. Maybe, less tied to fandom and more about other stuff, I don't really know.

We'll see how it goes!

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too many people are biased against 1st person fiction bc they associate it with shitty YA or booktok romance or whatever (or maybe some other reason, but it’s an opinion I’ve heard nonetheless). But really I think it’s the ideal POV when the narrator is supposed to be the Worst Person Ever

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The Allies.

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England: I’m leaving now. Canada is in charge. I’ve left notes for each of you with instructions.

America: Mine just says “America no.”

England: And you can apply that to any situation.

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here are some interesting surnames I have seen on old graves:

*they’re not inherently “weird” or “rare”, they’re just names I noted for possible future use in my writing

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The purest form of love is consideration. When someone thinks about how things would make you feel. Pays attention to detail. Holds you in regard when making decisions that could affect you. In any bond, how much they care about you can be found in how much they consider you

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pov 5 seconds before mr japan charges at you (jumpscare)

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“In 1404, King Taejong fell from his horse during a hunting expedition. Embarrassed, looking to his left and right, he commanded, “Do not let the historian find out about this.” To his disappointment, the historian accompanying the hunting party included these words in the annals, in addition to a description of the king’s fall.“

LMFAOOOOOO rip to that guy

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summer days

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Feyna!!!!! Yay!!!! Congratulations!!!!

Thank you so much!!! 💕💖

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Wow, it has been such a long time since I last looked at this account... I hope you people have all been doing great!

Imagine my surprise when I checked the app out of curiosity and found two unanswered questions... Which, I will definitely get to, as soon as I have some time. (And thank you!)😊

Small life update to explain why I've been AWOL: I'm getting married next month. And not even a week later, we'll be leaving for our honeymoon (in the States!)

You can imagine how busy I've been. 😅 I've also never been happier, though, so it's all worth it.

Anyway, once things calm down a little, I may start using this blog a bit more frequently again.

In the meantime, I wish you all the best! 💖

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I think one of the reasons I'm absolutely insane about Jun Mochizuki's work is because she's the only person I've seen do a perfect execution of the "abused becomes the abuser" trope.

All of the characters in Pandora Heart and Vanitas no Carte are incredibly morally complex. They're heart wrenching, relatable, endearing, aggravating, and endlessly flawed.

MochiJun puts us in the uncomfortable position of confronting that victims can be perpetrators, that those who are hurt can hurt others, that sometimes, people you love are bad, and sometimes you love bad people.

Abuse is never justified; it's handled by different characters in a variety of ways. It's repressed, reciprocated, passed on, and stopped. MochiJun shows victims become awful people, not inherently because they were abused, but because of who they are as people and how that shapes the way they deal with abuse.

She shows victims as the complex people they are beyond victimhood. There are characters who are just and kind after facing abuse, and ones who are twisted and cruel. Most delightfully, she brings us characters who are both.

The heroes of her stories choose love, gentleness, compassion, and mercy. She shows that our choices matter, that our relationships are integral to who we are.

I think of how some of the characters, in spite of these forgiving traits, are not required to forgive their abusers in order to be seen as virtuous figures. They're allowed to stand their ground, even if it's violent to do so.

I think of how, at the same time, some characters are loved despite being abusive, because a tender character sees more in them than evil. Because abuse comes from people, and people are endlessly complex.

I think of how the heroes of the story tear themselves apart for the violence they inflict, and are shown the most painful love in return. How that love often comes in the form of calling them out on their bullshit.

I love the love in Pandora Hearts and in Vanitas no Carte because it's painfully human in the face of horrors beyond mortal comprehension.

I love the flaws in the characters because they're painfully human despite some of these characters' otherworldly natures.

Jun Mochizuki doesn't show us the abused becoming abusers to give us the idea that abuse is an unstoppable cycle, but rather to show that it is stoppable. To show that people have a choice in who they become. And that's one of the most wonderful and terrible things about people.

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A sloppily drawn pirate iggy ㅠㅠ

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CONGRATULATIONS!!!! I'm sure I speak for all your followers when I say we've been waiting for this since you first mentioned him

Go enjoy your best life in the real world ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you for this message! It's really kind of you.

And sorry for the late answer, my spare time has been reduced to almost nothing. 😅 Still, I really appreciate that you took the time to send this.

I wish you all the best ❤️

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Sorry for the prolonged silence... Let's just say, things with my coworker went really well and he's now my boyfriend. Which means, my free time has suddenly gotten even more limited... But to be honest, I'm not really missing tumblr right now. 😅