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Unfortunately I am the lazy ass boy who would randomly sigh for no reason on the couch but no one seems to want that

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like at this point if I see you hating on men whether cis trans or otherwise I'm just gonna block you cuz why the fuck do you think hating on someone on the basis of their gender identity is progressive.

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Vent post - autism & relationships (+sexuality/gender)

I have high support needs. I need help with basic tasks like washing laundry, dishes, vacuuming, and grocery shopping. I can't drive or take public transportation by myself. I can't handle crowds or talk to strangers. Meeting people is impossible for me, and the majority of people would most likely not have the patience to wait for me to write all of my responses until I am comfortable enough around them to speak verbally.

And then there is the looming responsibility of "if you date (fishtoy), you'll have to take care of him".

I can't work, and it's incredibly likely that the only "job" I'll ever have is as a freelance artist, but social media is exhausting, and it's hard for me to keep the motivation to draw and market myself at the same time. I'll never be an equal partner when it comes to finances or housework.

I can't imagine that anyone would ever fall in love with me when I would be nothing but a burden. I know that "(romantic) relationships aren't everything", but to me, it's important. I want to date, and fall in love, and get married, and live with my partner. I want to be in love, and have a companion. I don't want to be alone.

And my family won't be able to take care of me forever. My mom is getting older, and my younger brother deserves to live his life and not be forced to live with me as my "caretaker".

I'm a gay + asexual trans man, and I think that already drastically limits the "dating pool", even if you ignore everything else about me. Sometimes I wonder if I will have to detransition and force myself to be in an unhappy relationship just for the chance of having someone to take care of me. Maybe I can force myself to be a "quirky autistic girl" and find someone to love me. I don't know. I'm lonely, and it's hard for me to want to be alive when I'm nothing but a burden on my family.

I'll never be a "productive member of society", I'll never contribute anything important. I'm not attractive, and all I do is play video games or scroll social media. I'm the exact kind of useless person that no one would miss.

[fishtoy]

when guys lift their arms up and their shirt rides up and you can see the band of their underwear above their pants. send tweet

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a lot of things get on my nerves. im constantly annoyed. and i also have a deep love of humanity and the world but everything is really annoying

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There are only two mental illnesses according to people on the internet:

Innocent bean syndrome: You can never do wrong and got no agency. You will be infantilized on every occasion and are treated as a quirk.

Bad person syndrome: You are bad and an abuser. Your presence kills people.

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the issue with 2:15 is thats already 4 pm

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"i'm tired of seeing-" use your filters.

"but there was an icky ship-!" use your filters.

"i don't like that tag-" use your filters.

don't like what you're seeing? use. your. filters.

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if you ever need me, just remember im only 6 messages, 8 dms and 12 missed calls away

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every horror game needs to give you a gun so if you get too scared you can shoot yourself

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I engage in most boycotts by default because I only eat dog treats I buy in the mail

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I'm going to kill you /gen /srs /pos /actionable /handjob

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i approach human relationships in a normal manner

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Party cock is in the mouth tonight