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i’m gonna hold your hand with a glove on when i say this

when disabled/chronically ill people tell you they can’t do something, then that is not your cue to tell them that they can actually or that they’ll always find an excuse if they’re looking for one.

when a disabled/chronically ill person says they can’t do something, sometimes that doesn’t mean it’s outside the realm of possibility, sometimes it means if they (attempted to) do that, they will seriously hurt themselves.

when a disabled/chronically ill person says they can’t do something, sometimes it’s preventative care, and they refuse to do that thing to prevent a flare up from happening/their symptoms getting worse in the first place.

disabled/chronically ill people are not “looking for excuses”, they are giving you reasons why. something they don’t even have to do! so maybe just accept the reasons they give you.

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every time I mention how many days sober I am I appreciate people congratulating me and telling me to keep up the good work. it is nice. but I also wish that milestones in addiction recovery weren’t still so pinned to length of sobriety/abstinence

yeah yeah I’m 50 days sober who cares. how about the fact that, when I do drink, it tends to be nipped in the bud after two days nowadays instead of weeks or months? how about the fact that drinking has been condensed to a six pack because I’m at the end of my tether, instead of browning out every night? how about my friend who has decided to stop drinking alone, and is actually sticking to that? recovery doesn’t always look like sobriety and I wish it was more normal to talk about that. yknow. when addiction is normal to talk about at all

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No honestly stalking is kinda cool with me the problem is that most stalkers are like really old guys and rapists.. taking unconsentual nudes is also just as bad but really normalized and im just not into it whatsoever... can I have a stalker within my general age range who isn't a disgusting fuckbag rapist is that too much to ask for as a deranged homosexual

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hiding away in my room because I don't know where to go or what to do with myself

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the girls are fighting !!!

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if my house is the safe house then where do I go

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my parents are breaking up yayy :\

honestly they've been complaining about each other for a few months and I think they're just getting tired of it

they aren't divorcing cuz that's expensive as shit but once my mom has enough money to stably move out she's gonna

it's kinda hitting me just now what's happening. i'd complain to a friend or a server but idk I feel like this is something they don't need to hear me complain about I rlly dunno why

i just feel like shit about this I know its best for everyone but I js idk idk anymore

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"OmG NaRCISsiStS aRe sO eViL aND wIll mANipuLaTE YoU" Vro. I literally kiss my plushies goodnight and apologize to them when I accidentally make them fall off the bed. Be for real.

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you're allowed to be proud of things that others would consider small you're allowed to be proud of eating food you're allowed to be proud of drinking water you're allowed to be proud of brushing your teeth you're allowed to be proud of washing your hair you're allowed to be proud of going outside you're allowed to be proud of having a conversation you're allowed to be proud of getting out of bed you're allowed to be proud of just surviving this long you're allowed to be proud of things that others would consider small

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If you use the word narc or narcissist without npd, or if you say either as an insult, or if you believe in pd abuse but specifically narc abuse, pls dni. 🩷

That's all, good day

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going through rigor mortis rn

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This song feels like a warm hug

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how the actual fuck do you expect me to let my mother now I am incapable of ever truly caring about her past familial bonds and a feeling of debt

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"I believe I have npd, bpd, nspd and autism. I'm undiagnosed and do not expect you to fully believe me but please treat me gently."

"Sure you do"

thanks guys for lying about mental disorders online haha now I'm just another 'quirky' online teenager and will never have my problems taken seriously :/

it's bad enough saying I have one and now I have to justify myself for 4? yayy

especially with how hard it is to get diagnoses?? yayyy

also yes it's possible to have all of the first three + autism which isn't rlly related because that's not trauma related I was just born like that

(yes, i know it's not possible to be diagnosed with nspd before 18 but symptoms can start before that and be looked into at 15 and I am 15+ I ain't saying shit bout my age past that)

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ami really a high functioning sociopath or is it just a symptom of the narcissistic pe-

"would you really care if the people you love died? would you actually cry or do you just say that? should you really have to try this hard to care about the people you consider your best friends?"

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you crash out I have npd crashes we are not the same