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i PERSONALLY would like to FALL IN LOVE please!!!!!! and have the SAME PERSON fall in love with me BACK!!!!!!! could i get some MUTUAL AFFECTION out here!!!!!!!!!

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I'm so tired of fucking it up

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Also like. Like. Imagine that every time you ate (because you have to) it was condemned with a moral judgement and you either had to hurt someone and end up with people scared of you, angry at you, ready to hunt you. Or you had to make do with food that works, it keeps you alive, but it's a poor substitute and never really satisfies you, not really.

And then someone cares for you enough to give you food, trusts you enough to let you take it from them without worry for their safety, uses the power they hold to help you and gives you power over them without worrying about whether you'll hurt them with it

Idk man im just saying like if you think too hard about it its less horny but if you think even harder about it it circles right back around

people are always like "Oh a vampire wouldn't get horny while drinking someone's blood, that's like getting horny while eating a sandwich" and like man have you never had a really good fucking sandwich?

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STOP TELLING ME ABOUT THE WEDDING DRAMA

I KNOW IT INVOLVED YOU PRETTY HEAVILY IN THIS BUT I'M THE ONE WHO DIDN'T GET INVITED AND GOT COMPLETELY DROPPED AS A FRIEND BY SOMEONE I THOUGHT I WAS GETTING CLOSE WITH

I JUST. DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT. AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YALL AREN'T LIKE A LITTLE BIT UNDERSTANDING OF THAT

THIS FUCKING SUCKS ASS

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Alright listen it's not- I'm not- I shan't say but I do present this collection of images without further commentary

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why is it always the fancylad boy-king type whos the bottom. maybe his tough loyal knight who uses his body to protect and defend him and lives to serve him wants to get railed

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Hi hi I was watching the hozier god rest ye merry gentlemen cause tis the season and that cover FUCKS but can we talk about this??? Please???

I'm trying so hard to be normal about this man but that lil smile is so cute

Anyway merry christmas go listen to that cover and have a good one

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RSD is really the stupidest fucking thing

A person says one thing that actually means nothing and suddenly I'm convinced they and everyone else hate me for the rest of the day

And even worse, the half of my brain that's logical KNOWS that that's not the case and it's RSD but that part of my brain doesn't have access to the gut emotions that are causing my chest to feel tight apparently

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"they should be at the club" "they should be at the farmers market" "they should be at the public library" well i should be in my lovers arms but im not am i. life is full of disappointments

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Ah yes, the 5 love languages:

touch starved

my parents never told me they are proud of me

i love Stuff

im so fucken tired please god just let me rest for 5 minutes

hey pay attention to me

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The combination sexuality/romance/gender/I will never live a life other than the one I'm living/I will never be a person other than the one I am crisis is really hitting recently huh

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I think I'm being normal and I'm well-adjusted and then I see a photo of someone holding someone's arm so they can take a photo of a tattoo and I realize I'm so very not

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Other people have probably written poetry about this and better

So maybe I'll just write

But like

Do you think as he was falling that icarus felt free

That boy who could only remember captivity, those few rooms

The one who let the delight of the wind, of space and fresh air, overwhelm him

Who soared higher only to feel the sun on his skin

Free fall is also a freedom

The rush of air past you, the view of the ground, the gorgeous sea, the wild helplessness to the power of gravity that brings you closer

Do you think he felt it

Do you think he was happy

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Yeah fuckit it's almost 4am but I'll turn on a fantasy high episode I'm not sleeping anyway

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Hot Chef! Hob + kid fic prompt

Dream has food issues okay, and for this and number of other reasons, including that he now has full time custody of Orpheus and can't just forget meals or feed his son soy sauce packets 🤷🏽‍♀️, Dream (well his sister) hires a home chef.

Now there will be food in the house, that Dream learns to warm up and Orpheus has vegetables to eat. What Dream wasn't expecting was a gorgeous man, covered in tattoos that come with [fun] stories, who's great with Orpheus. Many days pass where Dream breaks from writing to find Hob and Orpheus making dessert together.

Dream is smitten.

I ABSOLUTELY love this, we need more chef Hob stuff!!! He's so perfect. My preference is for Hob cooking Indian food a lot, but honestly I just love the whole idea of him in the kitchen,,, sleeves rolled up,,, tattoes on display,,,

Hob is great. Normally Dream can handle breakfast, it's the one meal he has a reasonable grasp on (pour cereal, pour milk, burn toast, make more toast, etc). But at weekends Hob comes in to do a special cooked breakfast like pancakes, omelette, vegetable umpa, oats idli (which is Dream’s new favourite thing, its the only thing he can stomach in the morning and it fills him up properly). Hob is fun to have around and it really feels like a family breakfast, which is great for Orpheus. He's really coming out of his shell and it makes Dream a little misty eyed.

Most of what Hob makes is cooked and frozen to be heated up later, but he insists on doing fresh meals occasionally. Dream is convinced that Hob just wants to make sure that he eats, and he's not as annoyed by that as he probably should be.

"Good food is my love language." Hob explains with a shy smile. "It makes me happy to see people eat."

And Dream tries to convince himself that Hob is talking about Orpheus, there, but... he's not sure. Sometimes Hob gives him steamy looks across the kitchen that Dream wants to melt right into.

Maybe he should ask Hob to make a romantic candlelit dinner for the two of them. Dream still has a fridgeload of issues, but he's smart enough to know that if he doesn't snap Hob up for himself soon, someone else is going to. A man with biceps like that who can cook?? Dream needs to put a ring on it, asap. If Hob will have him...

(He will.)

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(Visibly shaking because I care so much and it's hurting my chest)

"I don't care! I don't even care! Why would I care??"