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No promises

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“You sometimes think you want to disappear, but all you really want is to be found.”

— Kid Cudi

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Edward Hopper (1882-1967).

The Dory, 1929

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“you look tired.” I’m literally going insane.

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Yahiko Shrine by Takeshi Kameyama

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3 am and you're sitting on the kitchen floor and you keep your phone aside and everything is silent and you realize that this is the first time in a week that you've had silence alone. Have you missed it or have you been avoiding it? A bit of both, always a bit of both. It's been a while since you made spaghetti and it's March already — the moon has missed you (and other lies to hide your irrelevancy). twenty seven is old enough to not repeat a mistake for the third time and yet young enough to say fuck it and do it anyway. there's not much I know now, there's not much I want to know. I just want to be on the beach when the days are gorgeous and eat food without my body hating me and read books that speak to parts of me that can't articulate for themselves. I just want to hug my friend and make my mother smile and write a few lines that will be understood by someone somewhere. It's still these very things. It's always been these very things. Even at 27 when I'm sitting alone on the kitchen floor at 3 am. Especially then.

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i’m such a “i want your attention” but “won’t bother you” kinda person

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take me back to where I've captured you.

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again and again

Nothings new. 

It doesn’t matter who it is,

That sinking feeling will 

Never go away. 

Not until I 

Drown. 

Again and again

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god's creatures are perfect

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I’M IN LOVE

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It's quite painful to refrain from these feelings

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Ginza (1971)

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sadly it turned out otherwise

“When someone loves you, the way they talk about you is different. You feel safe and comfortable.”

— Jess C. Scott

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