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“if you’re sensitive to sounds when sleeping, just use earplugs!” i cannot stress enough that the sensory feeling of having my ears fully blocked AND now being able to hear my own heartbeat and breathing and every other sound that’s happening inside my own body is a million times worse than whatever ambient noise may be keeping me awake

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"how do you cope" i dont . im a man i kill myself like a man every day i wake up and kill myself 100 times . for lunch i take 300 painkillers and die . dinner time ? i die . dont ask me shit

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Yep, this is a good summary of my personal experience

Artist might be House of Decline, I changed the words for chronic illness

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fatphobia and ableism is so insidious. You can look up like, food, and it'll say "eating a lot of food causes diabetes" and you're like oh dang what? I thought we didn't know the cause of diabetes. So you look up what causes diabetes and it says "we still don't know what causes diabetes" bruh they're just making shit up to give people eating disorders

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If you like this post you’re not human.

Humanity is overrated.

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There has been a glitch in the system 🥴

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its a mystery

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Oops, there goes my last fuck that I gave about what people think of me.

I don't CARE if I'm off putting. I like what I like.

If I want a giant, lovingly painted, extremely realistic macro portrait of a house fly on my wall, then so be it.

I'll make it my damn self.

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When I was growing up and complained something sucked and was difficult (school, paperwork, etiquette rules, etc.) a lot of the time adults told me “noooo no it’s not difficult! It’s easy if you put your mind to it.” Or maybe a kinder “nooooo don’t say that, you can do it!”

And setting aside the fact that I had executive function issues I wasn’t aware of at the time, I think what I usually needed to hear was “yeah. yeah it does suck and it is difficult. but it’s important that you do it anyway.”

Like yeah in the moment it WAS difficult to learn my multiplication tables or to get college scholarships or to apply for jobs. It DID suck a lot but I did learn to do math, and go to college, and get a job. And I just wish somebody had told me that’s how it would feel to look back — not like “that was actually easy and fun once I tried it,” but to say “wow, that sucked. but I did it and I’m glad I did.”