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hello ! can you tell me if going on T affected your ADHD ? I think i might have ADHD but i can't find infos online abt ftm trans ppl going on T and how their ADHD evolved ( if it did change)

Honestly, the only true answer I can give you (mostly bc I'm going through motions to have my adhd treated and fully diagnosed as an adult, as I was dx as a child originally) so p much for me, my life was filled with major distractions like having to finish school or go to college and work at the same time, or going through my transition. After now having mostly completed my transition journey, besides for top surgery, and having graduated college: my life is empty. Distractionless. All I do is adult and work and that's it, no extra stress to worry about and keep my brain occupied. So because of this it feels like my symptoms have been manifesting more often and severely imo and I also feel like covid has not been helping me manage things as much as I was before. Tldr; I have no idea but you can take my causation vs correlation info as youd like lol. Overall, starting t cured my suicidal depression and now I'm working on managing my other issues correctly as well :) sorry this was not helpful and a very much subjective answer but it's what I got lol

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Beautiful and detailed art

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sometimes i forget how many times i’ve picked myself off the floor, how many times i’ve washed away smudgy makeup and put myself to bed. how many times i’ve said no to something unhealthy. said yes to something good. how many times i’ve treated myself with kindness and patience. i forget how many times i’ve tended to wounds and made peace with my own anger. if i was taking care of a body that was not my own, i’d believe i was doing everything i could. so here’s to remembering that i’m doing the best i can.

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Cleaning with ADHD all about momentum. Its like being a shark, if you stop moving you just straight up die.

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An interesting perspective to consider

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Homeschool to prison pipeline

Hey guess what?

We have a homeschool-to-prison pipeline now.

https://www.propublica.org/article/a-teenager-didnt-do-her-online-schoolwork-so-a-judge-sent-her-to-juvenile-detention

Grace is a 15-year-old with ADHD and a long history of behavioral difficulties who ended up on probation after a fight with her mom led to the confiscation of her phone and her briefly stealing a classmate’s phone.

Grace is now in a juvenile facility where her life is at risk from covid because one of her probation conditions was to do her homework, and when her school in Oakland County Michigan went online only, she struggled to complete her distance education homework.

As a result, Judge Mary Ellen Brennan ignored the Michigan governor’s orders to minimize the incarceration of children and ordered Grace imprisoned…for not doing her homework.

The Propublica story on Grace and her single mother Charisse - written by Jodi S Cohen - is a heartbreaker and a half. It paints a picture of a kid whose need for extra educational attention was met by a stern and uncaring system, from caseworker to judge.

Judge Brennan does not come off well in this story. She ordered Grace to appear in person in court - the only case of the day with that requirement - and then refused a continuance when Grace’s lawyer said he would NOT come to court and risk his life to argue her case.

Brennan’s sentence was handed down after Grace’s caseworker Michelle Giroux admitted that she did not know the details of Grace’s learning disabilities and had not familiarized herself with the legally mandated supports for them that Grace had not recieved.

Brennan called Grace a “threat to the community” for missing her homework, denied Grace’s pleas for more time to adjust to homeschooling, and had her taken out of the courtroom in handcuffs.

It goes without saying that, like the majority of Michigan teens sentenced to youth detention in defiance of the governor’s orders, Grace is Black. Black children in Michigan are four times likelier to be imprisoned than their white peers.

Grace has not been permitted to see her mother, except by videoconference. Her mother’s attempts to bring her clothes and toys have been rebuffed by the facility, because of petty rules like those stipulating that underwear must be briefs, or that jeans can’t be “too tight.”

When Grace is brought out for videoconference status meetings with the court, the child is handcuffed and put in ankle shackles. She makes heartbreaking pleas to be returned to her mother. The judge has ordered her held until at least Sept 8.

For missing her homework.

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don’t know what parent of an autistic child needs to hear this but as long as they’re not harming anyone your kid’s stimming is not a “problem behaviour”

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If someone isn't available during your most crucial time, then their presence any other time is useless.

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Succulent Pride by Thready To Go

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LGBTQ+ Activist Stickers from RadBadgesUK

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btw I just wanna reccomend for ppl w sensory issues: get spf lipbalm for ur top surgery scars & nips. it sounds weird but if ur like me and u hate the feel of suncream ur so much more likely to put it regularly on if it stays off your fingers

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The “attention deficit” part of adhd is misleading imo because in my experience adhd is less “doesn’t have focus” and more “cannot control where the focus goes”

Forgot what you were doing because your brain zoomed way ahead and you were left scrambling to remember why you’re holding a dishtowel? Adhd

Looked up from your computer screen and realized you’ve been reading wikipedia articles about the mating habits of spiders for the past five hours and you haven’t eaten all day? Adhd

Can’t do the mildly intimidating task because every time you try to think about how to do it, your brain skitters away from the topic like a nervous mouse? Adhd

Didn’t do the dishes because you remembered them on the drive home but by the time you arrived you had already moved on to other topics? Adhd

Need to listen to a podcast while doing chores because neither task occupies enough of your attention to keep you engaged? Adhd

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!!!!!!!!^^^^^^^^^ (im posting all of your message rn because Big Important and @ everyone listen to Percy plz,, but if you need any of it censored!! please lemme know!!!!) YEAH!!!!!! Yeah!!!!!! :’( words and phrases like that can be really really scary as hell, and a lot of us have very real past experiences of being bullied and abused and stuff, with those words used against us to harm and demean us!!!!! and the words can have much more meanings and emotions and different definitions and messages for us than compared to someone who didn’t experience that kind of abuse and who didn’t experience growing up brainweird, because the words and phrases aren’t REALLY “just some words” and phrases from the dictionary, they can and DO hold a lot of memories and emotions and implications for each individual person!!!!! I don’t know what the anons intent and I don’t WANT to know it (it was probably evil intent anyway), but when I saw that ask earlier this morning the first things it reminded me of was past incidents I’ve experienced of malice and violence where the term “annoying” was repeated often, and incidents of witnessing other nd/mentally ill people being bullied and excluded and tormented. These are very upsetting and scary memories for me!!! So those memories on top of memories and messages and feelings of rejection and isolation, was the message that anon’s ask was sending to me,, and I’m not exactly sure why anyone would want to send out such upsetting messages unless they had ill and evil and malicious intentions against me, and my followers, and all mentally ill and neurodivergent people!!!! Is what I’ve been thinking and what it feels like!!!!!! And especially compared to how kind and sweet and friendly the messages I get on here usually are, anonymous or not, it was very confusing and out of place and frightening for me tbh, and I couldn’t imagine any of the people I interact with on here even thinking of sending me any kind of message like that, not a single part or aspect of it!!!! It worried me on many many levels :’(

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I wanted to take a minute during this PRIDE Month to talk about my nephew.

My nephew is 5 years old and I’ve been a part of his life since he was born. I was a teenager when he was born and still closeted on my gender identity. Present as female, my nephew of course grew up calling me “Auntie” and knew me as a woman.  When I actually came out, I had moved out on my own and hadn’t gotten to see my nephew in a while. Over that time, I had started my hormone therapy, legally changed my name, and had my legal gender updated.

My parents and older brother were in such a panic because “how does one explain this to a child” and they all were lowkey panicking over it because I’d be seeing him soon.

Well, before visiting my mom and nephew did a video call with me and my mom told my nephew it was “auntie”, hoping he’d just roll with it.

Well, not only did my nephew roll with it, the minute he saw my rather full beard and heard my deeper voice it must have just clicked I was male. No explanation was needed. 

My mother told me after that he said “GG, you’re so funny. You thought Auntie was a girl, but he’s a boy.” It’s one of my favorite stories, honestly.

When I finally saw him in person, gender was never the focus of the discussion. We played with dragons and stick swords like we usually do and he told me about Lord of the Rings which Daddy had been reading to him. The only mention was him randomly saying to me “Auntie, you used to look like a girl. But, it’s okay because when I was a baby I looked like a girl too.”

I guess why I wanted to share this was trans identities are not complicated. We complicate gender the older we get and society puts a massively unneeded pressure on us for something really so small.

While adults would ask me 20 questions about my identity, my nephew at the age of 5 accepted on the spot I was male and apparently even believed I always had been with absolutely no explanation. And, even then, all he cared about was if I’d play dragons with him.

Frankly, in a world where gender is so horribly overly complicated and being trans is a shocking thing, I wish more people would simply be concerned if I would still play dragons with them.

(Also, yes he still calls me Auntie but its because I find it hilarious and it’s not dysphoric for me)

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Disclosure: Trans Lives On Screen (Sam Feder, 2020)