gaetoaster-blog

[gaetoaster-blog]

I’m struggling with my gender identity and I need help figuring it out.

I'm 14 years old and I was born a female and I've been having difficulties figuring out my gender for a while. I prefer going by a more masculine name and I prefer the pronouns they/them or he/him, but I don't think I would necessarily say I'm transgender. I've thought about it but it doesn't necessarily feel right if that makes sense. when I think about my future I wouldn't plan on going on puberty blockers or testosterone or anything like that and I also wouldn't consider getting any sort of surgery, I have thought about getting a binder but thats as far as I would go. I've also considered the fact that I could be nonbinary but I'm not quite sure. i may be wrong but I know that if you go by he/they or they/he would mean you a demiboy but would that mean I'm trans? or is it possible that I'm nonbinary and a demiboy, is that even a thing? or am I just a demiboy? i really don't know. I am okay as being referred to as a boy now but when I start thinking about my future it just doesn't feel right because of what I said before. I'm not fully comfortable with my body when it comes to sex wise but I feel like a binder is all I would really need and I would feel okay, and sometimes I don't feel uncomfortable at all, but sometimes I would feel more like a boy then other times. now due to this I thought maybe I was gender fluid but then the more I thought about it and thought about how I feel it didn't seem my gender was necessarily fluid I would feel more like a boy then other times but my pronouns would never really change even if I did feel okay with my sex at certain times it's how I feel in my body that changes and feeling more like a boy sometimes that would change but even then I would never necessarily feel female that's why I've been leaning more towards nonbinary. but then it just confuses me with the fact I'm okay being called he/him and they/them and I'm not sure if that necessarily means I'm nonbinary. I'm not sure if any of this made sense at all but if anyone has an answer or advice I could really use it.