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funniest character dynamic in the world to me is when you have one guy knows hes gay but doesnt realise hes in love with his best friend and another guy who knows hes in love with his best friend but does not know hes gay

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Most people only get 4 stress responses: Fight, Flight, Fawn, and Freeze.

people with DID unlock the secret fifth one: Forget

-host

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host as a kid: Oh man, it's really easy for me to slip into character and become a whole different person! I even get lost in the character and truly believe I'm them. I even lose track of how long I've been pretending to be a character. This must mean I'm a gonna be a great actor when I grow up :)

host as an adult: why can't i remember my childhood

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@funnier-as-a-system

i don't know man, i just wish that we could [suddenly realising i'm coming dangerously close to expressing a real and earnest thought instead of filtering everything through several layers of intangible running bits] blow up the entire world. or something.

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Actually watching Supernatural after being on tumblr for 12 years is wild because you realize that the Destiel girlies were not exaggerating at all. Like. I fully thought Destiel was Jonlock-flavored queerbaiting where like sure it's there but honestly most of the moments are crumbs at best but no Destiel really is just that gay at all times and then the CW turns around and personally punches you in the face every time you start to catch on. Every minute of this show I understand why you guys are Like That just a little more

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A lot of the time when I see people talk about aromanticism they bring up the way a lot of us tend to think that romance is just exaggerated in fiction and are surprised that people feel that way in real life and not just in the movies and that's honestly kind of funny, imagine just going about your life and one day finding out that most people's high school years were actually like disney channel and you're the exception

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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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the aro/ace experience of going 'but am i actually aro/ace?' and then seeing an allo and being like 'oh. okay. yeah i am. what the fuck'

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boy it would be nice to be able to google something related to personality disorders, psychosis, intellectual disabilities, autism, DID/OSDD, etcetera without finding majority articles that are like “how to deal with a person with X” “how to cope with your child with X” “how to spot someone faking X” “can people with X be cured?”

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When someone has a chronic illness or is disabled and can't work, they say a few common things.

It must be nice to sit around all day/sleep all day.

I wish I could sit around all day and not work.

I wish I could sleep all the time.

They don't want to sleep as much as we have to. They'd feel sick and sluggish.

They don't want to sit around the house all day not doing anything. They'd be bored out of their fucking skull.

It's so unbelievably fucking frustrating, but there's a fundamental lack of understanding.

They liken our lives to a vacation, imagining that it's fun and relaxing and we can do whatever fun things we want to all the time.

In reality, it should be likened to an extended hospital stay. You can't do anything and you feel like shit.

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do you understand my vision?

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EVEN WALKER IN THAT ONE INTERVIEW SAID THERE'S NOTHING HE DISLIKES ABOUT PERCY

percy would legit be one of the hardest ppl to get over if you had any type of feelings for that man

like swear you’d like be waiting for him to do smth bad or look ugly waiting for that ick and IT WOULD NEVER COMEEEE

like if you look at nico bro is SCRAPING THE BARREL for ANYTHING to dislike abt percy

percy smiles a little too bright nico has to turn away and mentally remind himself that percy was one of the last ppl to see his sister alive

rachel legit can’t like him so she probably just watches from afar and she’s chill anyway

if calypso found out percy planted that little flower she gave him and subsequently learned he liked planting and kept that flower alive in her memory??? ITD BE WRAPSSSSSSS

like percy is legit just such a good person that anytime someone has a crush on him 🙏🏼 thoughts and prayers bc that crush is haunting you for the rest of your life

ik moving to new rome is gonna kick start that too bc i feel like chb everyone’s gotten used to him yk everyone’s like “sigh there’s percy and his beautiful face and nice laugh and good morals and self sacrificing ways sigh annabeth sure is lucky love those two together tbh”

but now they’re being introduced to all these new ppl who have to learn that percy is simply percy and bro is wifed up

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the secret good version of supernatural

bro bro.... the s15 directing could have been so good. characters looking directly at the camera more and more, the lighting changing continuously, the screen glitching whenever cas is present, the screen sometimes blacking out and you can only hear the voices, we could have had it all. ..

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sick of hearing about "healing crystals" that "cleanse your mind and body of negative energy" i want to know which rocks can hurt you and fuck up your vibe so bad

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the bon jovi scene from the season 3 finale still makes me cry sorry. sam's like okay so you know how you're about to fucking die and dean's like haha I veto this emotional moment shhhh we're not talking about it. instead I offer you bon jovi masculinity cowboy song! and sings along for JUST LONG ENOUGH that sam laughs and relaxes and starts singing too and then Dean stops singing. drops the show. eyes on the road. we the viewer realize that was just smoke and mirrors special effects for sam's benefit. to make him smile. and distract him. to give him one last good memory. we the viewer know this but. Sam doesn't. he's still singing.

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my boy only breaks his favorite toys | destiel

'cause I knew too much

there was danger in the heat of my touch

he saw forever, so he smashed it up

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