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I can’t believe I have to say this but if you ship wincest please for the love of all that is holy unfollow me STAT

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Introduction post

Hello :)

I don’t know how you found me but just in case you want to stay:

My name is Ghost, I’m 19, I use they/them pronouns and as you may have guessed, I am autistic.

My current hyperfixation is Supernatural, because of course it is.

I started watching it for our beloved idjit brothers Sam and Dean, and while I obviously adore Cas, the boys are my main focus. I do think destiel is cute though. I will always support Dean and his autistic angel boyfriend.

I believe me and my little sister are the most Dean and Sam coded people alive and I’m afraid I am too stubborn to be proved wrong. To clarify, that means Sam is my baby and Dean is…me, therefore I see and acknowledge every single one of Dean’s flaws and none of Sam’s because he doesn’t have any — yes, I am biased — but I adore them both.

I write character analysis type things sometimes, and I always absolutely love to hear other people’s thoughts on them. If you want to talk about Supernatural I am HERE.

It grieves me that this is something I have to clarify, but if you support wincest, get off my page. This is nonnegotiable. Don’t tag my posts as wincest — preferably don’t interact with them at all — and for the love of god do NOT try and fight me on that because I will just block you and it’s not worth either of our time.

To my mutuals, I love you.

To everyone who interacts with my posts, I love you.

To everyone who takes the time to read and/or respond to my rambling essay type things, I love you. You make my day.

If we don’t know who the hell each other are yet but you like supernatural and would like to talk about it/be mutuals I am certain I will love you too. Get over here.

And that’s pretty much it.

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I can’t believe I have to say this but if you ship wincest please for the love of all that is holy unfollow me STAT

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On Dean, The Concept of Overreaction, and Neurodivergence

See, the thing about Dean, is that he’s just so much larger than life. He doesn’t do things by halves. Everything he feels, he either expresses to the fullness of his ability, or he represses it deep deep down until it either explodes out of him or sits in the pit of his stomach and rots.

He’s overprotective, over-enthusiastic, over-sensitive, over-angry, over-masculine, over-everything. Hell, watching him is almost like watching a cartoon character most of the time.

And Sam, stuck with him twenty-four-seven, Sam does watch him, for lack of any other options or company, and he shakes his head, or hides a fond smile, and often doesn’t think anything of it. Doesn’t think to look past it, because that’s just Dean.

But it isn’t.

Or rather, it isn’t the way Sam thinks it is. Dean is larger than life because that’s the way he is — more on that later — and he is larger than life because that is the way his experiences have shaped him.

It might sound obvious, but once it comes down to it, every emotion he over-expresses is a way of compensating for something: Overprotective because he’s deathly afraid of losing Sammy, over-enthusiastic because he never got to be a child even when he was one, over-sensitive because he’s convinced that everyone he loves would be better off without him and hates himself and them for it, over-angry because he feels too much and that’s the only way he ever learnt to channel it, over-masculine because he was never enough of a man to make his dad proud of him.

Do you see?

And now we get to the bit about neurodivergence. Because when a person is over-something, people don’t exactly tend to take them seriously. Like, ever. I’m serious. Lethal killing machine, whip smart hunter and all-round scary motherfucker that Dean is, people still don’t take him seriously. Or rather, Sam doesn’t take him seriously. And who can blame him, really, because Dean is his brother and god forbid a younger sibling take their older sibling seriously. And also, Dean’s just so fucking over the top, all the time, and how is anyone supposed to deal with that?? I mean, really, how is anyone supposed to take that level of emotion seriously?? It’s just too much. And what happens is, it’s SO too much that it becomes. funny, because hyperbole is funny. Drama is funny. That’s why we have theatre and that. That’s when Dean’s behaviour isn’t downright dangerous, of course, then it’s just annoying, and irresponsible and a whole host of other bloody unhelpful things, none of which add up to encourage anybody to see him as a functional, multifaceted, three dimensional adult.

And so, Dean becomes the comic relief character, because he’s theatrical in his emotions sometimes to the point of complete ridiculousness, the kind of reactions that make you laugh in disbelief because come on. No real human being reacts like that. That’s something reserved for cartoons and anime.

But it isn’t.

Fictional as Dean might be, he is not unrealistic in his emotional reactions.

He’s just neurodivergent.

Fellow autistics on the Autism App, back me up here. Dean is a perfect example of how, no matter how much you try to suppress your emotions, no matter how hard you try to compensate for things that have happened to you, for the way you are, no matter whether it’s something you actually feel (Dean’s protectiveness over Sammy) or just another part of the mask (Dean’s hypermasculinity) your reactions will never read as an “acceptable level of emotion”. And that’s either because your neurodivergent levels of emotion are simply too much for neurotypicals, or because you are trying to fake something you don’t actually feel and have gotten it wrong, as you always do, because neurodivergent masking, however good you are at it, however effortless it appears, will never measure up to the neurotypical experience of just living without thinking.

And that’s what I see in Dean. A deeply emotional neurodivergent person who was never socialised or even once parented properly, giving him all the trauma that comes with being neurodivergent in a world that was not built for us, and, on top of that, he’s been through hell and back ��� literally — adding a whole lot MORE trauma to an already inherently traumatising existence.

So, he’s fucked, basically.

He is “over the top”, unappreciated, ridiculed and taken for granted, and worst of all god he’s a fucking mess. The boy’s all over the place! He has more cracks than the smashed mirrors that started this six hundred years of bad luck in the first damn place. He is victim and villain both, parent and child, chosen and discarded. He’s got a lifetime of trauma and a pile of unhealthy coping mechanisms and dysfunctional behaviours to prove it, and he’s autistic.

So, let me reiterate: he is, was, always has been and always will be, fucked.

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I don’t know the context of this but it made me unbelievably happy. Look at him

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Oh my GOD

His face. His fucking face.

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yet another reason why I adore him

sorta love how dean never really makes sports references or shows like, any genuine interest in sports besides wrestling which was just it's own Thing altogether. of course i'm sure you can contribute that to the writers being nerds and such but the results are very fun. like breaking news man who's supposed to be very very Man makes reference to rent instead of the 1992 superbowl more at 11

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the thing abt ruby supernatural that you all forget bc she's hot and evil girlboss slayqueen is that within the extremely abusive hierarchical power structure of demon world she is not the boss of anybody. she is a girlservant. she's an extremely ambitious underling. she is sexually subjugated by astaroth and Alastair and for most of her time on screen she is visibly terrified of being tortured and murdered. she is a religious fanatic hurling herself at martyrdom willing to give anything to the God she's chosen up to and including her literal physical flesh. She has no friends. she is so fucking interesting.

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I think another fun thing about spn as a show is that it establishes right from the start that what we see on camera isn't the entirety of what's going on.

We see Cas rebel for the first time in s4. It's the first time to us. Cas has been rebelling for millenia tho. And we just don't got the time to cover all that. Rip moving on. Crumbs of evidence left to be followed.

We see Dean and Sam and John fight about the night Sam left/got kicked out? We don't know what exactly happened tho. Dean's voice on it is kinda suppressed. Like, what did he actually do? How did he react? We don't know. We can only collect the pieces of info we have. (Someone on my feed made a post on this damn I can't find it).

We think Dean's parentification trauma came from John. Cause we only see him.

But then we see Dean and Mary in Dark Side of the Moon. Sam assumes Dean is cleaning up John's messes. (Maybe). But then we also learn that Mary was a whole ass hunter who hid it from her family for years. Right up until she died. We see that Dean was parentified even before Mary died. Mary definitely fed into it. Oops. Now what.

Idk I just love how Spn uses the supernatural element of the show (like characters' eternal lifespans and powers etc.) and also the human elements (hey, everyone is an unreliable narrator. it's a very human thing. it's why they feel so real) to weave such a complex gaslight-y story lmao.

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I agree with you wholeheartedly, except…except I do have a younger sibling (who reminds me so much of Sam) and I do love Dean. Because I feel like I understand the way he is. But! And this is important — that does NOT stop me from wanting to clock him one on a regular basis because godDAMMIT BOY WHY’D YOU HAVE TO BE LIKE THAT

if you hate sam, you don’t have younger siblings (bc how could you ever)

and if you like dean, you still don’t have younger siblings (BC WHY IS HE LIKE THAT TO SAM SOMETIMES—WHEN I CATCH HIM, I WILL PUNCH HIM)

(and I WILL catch him)

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yeah that’s pretty much it

ok so for me supernatural so far is

s1: dad’s been out to get the milk for a while

s2: sam has chronic migraines

s3: we’ve opened the literal gates of hell

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some part of sam would always be that little boy who looked up to his big brother. he can't help it. and it hurts. cause his brother isn't the same from all those year's ago. dean has changed, and so has sam. and not everything turns out the way you thought it would when you were fourteen.

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listen. if u like/reblog my posts fairly frequently, u better believe that i have noticed ok. even if we don’t ever talk. if we aren’t even mutuals! doesn’t matter. i see you. i see your URL pop up in my notifications every so often. and when it does? oh, when it does……… i’m like “oh hey there’s my buddy! gee i sure missed u pal!” and i get real happy for a minute ok. sorry, i don’t make the rules.

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DEAN SHOWING SAM HOW TO FIX THE CAR CUZ HE KNOWS HES GUNNA DIE AND SAM ASKED HIM TO BE HIS BIG BROTHER AGAIN I AM SOBBING UNCONTROLLABLY

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Finally got around to making some of these after saving a million of the little text things to my pinterest and never doing anything with them

Please enjoy and not that I care too much but if you plan on reposting, credit is appreciated :p

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Grave offerings and burying the dead with tools and goods is actually such a deeply human thing to do. It's not really even necessarily about how much you believe in a literal afterlife or them taking the tools with them. It's also just going Wait, I'm Not Done Taking Care Of You, let me make you one more pair of socks so your feet won't be cold when you go wherever it is where I can't follow.

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The thing about loving a fictional character because you see yourself in them is that it’s not always about them being exactly like you, as you are in real life.

Sometimes it’s about looking at them and acknowledging their situation, their backstory, the way that they are, and just knowing deep in your bones that were you in their position, you would be exactly the same way.

It’s about watching them make decisions that no one should ever have to make and knowing you would have picked the same path that they did.

It’s about fighting the urge to hide behind your hands as they make mistake after mistake, it’s about understanding that what they did was wrong but being unable to condemn them for it because in your heart you know that were you in their place, that would have been you.

It’s about them being completely irrational and stubbornly selfish and volcanically angry and so painfully human and you, on the other side of the screen, feeling as though you are looking into a magic mirror that shows exactly what your life could have been. It’s about listening to the other characters they interact with calling them out on their bullshit, pointing out all of their flaws and their weaknesses and their rough edges and just going, yeah. That’s fair.

It’s about being painfully aware of all of those flaws yourself, it’s about judging whilst also understanding them completely.

It’s about watching them follow the winding road to their fate with dread pooling in your stomach and thinking, is that me? Is that what’s going to happen to me, too? Maybe it is. Or maybe it only would be. In another life.