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slow Sunday made for revisiting notes and thoughts 📝 reblog is ok, don’t repost/use

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commonplace on the Scottish Mountain Birch Project - repost with credit only

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Various Notes & Letters

Found/Collected Between July 2022-August 2023

(Texas, Seattle, and New York)

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spent some bad mental days doing nothing except reading naipaul and naval history and being annoyed at things

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april 2024 in my hobonichi

(traveling edition! background is from venice)

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The most valuable thing I learned doing a Masters degree with depression, anxiety and ADHD was to change my “things I’m bad at” list to “things I can’t do on my own.” Stop thinking of them as things I could do if I tried hard enough, and accept that I can’t accomplish them by effort and willpower alone; they’re genuine neurocognitive deficits, and if I need to do the thing, then just like a blind person reading or a mobility impaired person going up a storey in a building, I need to find a different method.

I’m “bad at” working on long-term projects without an imminent deadline or someone breathing down my neck? Okay, let’s change that: I can’t work on long-term projects without an imminent deadline and someone breathing down my neck. So let’s create an imminent deadline and recruit neck-breathers. Find a sympathetic prof who will agree that 3 weeks before the due date they expect me to show them my preliminary notes and bibliography. Get a friend I trust to block off an hour to sit with me and keep asking, “Are you working on your project?” Write a blog post about my progress. Arrange to trade papers and proofread them with another student.

Accept your limitations and learn to leverage them, instead of buying the neurotypical fairytale that they’ll go away if you just try hard enough.

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かわいいトラのもんと、はじまりの季節。

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“ (…) l’astrolgia è la scienza divina che rende gli uomini felici e che insegna loro ad apparire dèi fra i mortali” - Flavio Mitridate.

I’m in love with this notebook system, and the book beside it as well (“Astrologia, magia, alchimia” by Matilde Battistini. This might be my favourite picture of my notebooks, so far.

On another note, next video will be a little late, probably this weekend. Thank you again for the ongoing support.

Translation of the quote above:

“(…) astrology is the divine science that makes men happy and teaches them to appear gods among mortals.”

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monday 06/05/24

looked into housing, worked on my cv + applications!

♫spite - omar apollo ♫

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re-reading old entries and a new book 📖

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April + May

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Sometimes I copy receipts by hand 🙀

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Throwback to my reflections on March (yes I’m almost a month behind in my posts lol). Just like every other month so far this year, it was a weird time!!! the horrors persist but so do I 🫠

Decor: Washi tape is by Salam Creative, plant stickers are from The Washi Tape Shop, emotis are from The Coffee Monsterz Co, lovely daffodil sticker is by @petite-gloom!

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Friendly reminder that keeping a diary doesn’t need to be perfect. It doesn’t need to be an extremely thorough and detailed account of every second of your life to date to be worth writing. It doesn’t need to be full of beautiful illustrations or exciting deeds. You don’t need to write an entry every day, or every week or every anything. It barely even needs to be legible.

The point is to let out whatever needs to be let out, and record whatever needs to be recorded.

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because I feel like all I do is spend, spend, spend.