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My favourite part of tumblr is the anonymity. Y’all know everything and nothing about me.

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Dec 4th - day 1

Breakfast: cornflakes

Lunch: pumpkin rice

Snack: skipped

Dinner: cauliflower and 2 tangerines

Calories burned: ~200

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I'm thinking about doing a daily (or quite) diary of my own routine to get back in shape cause I don't feel like myself anymore lately

I'll move to Poland in February and I want it to be a great rebirth. So I really need to start now

I'll post a little resume every night just to keep track

---- DISCLAIMER: I do this for myself. No one should replicate. STAY SAFE (I will too)

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the lower I get, the higher I'll climb, and I will wonder why

I got dark only to shine

and I'll light up the sky, stars that burn the brightest

- Numb, Marina

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it's Saturday night and I'm home alone bored to death while watching my friends having fun on their ig stories

I haven't felt this bad since I was like 17 honestly

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are there other types of people on tumblr or it's all just like this? cuz I've always been on this side like deep tumblr and will never leave

genuinely asking

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today I'm 8 months clean.

I made it.

and I'll keep going

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Tumblr is a magical place where ppl are like:

°•.☆*I'm C *☆.•°

✶~❀I hate my personality and I feel like im the worst person you'll ever knowᵔᴗᵔ✦°•✶

■□■□ be my friend I'm funny

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maybe I was just a girl, interrupted

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One of the saddest, hardest moments of your life will be when you are crying and screaming to the world pleading for a sign.

A sign that you should stay alive for one more day, maybe a couple of days.

But that sign doesn’ t come. You stare at your phone thinking maybe someone will answer or someone will text you asking if you’re okay. You search endlessly for some reason to stay alive but you can’t find any.

That is probably the most heartbreaking moment when you can’t find any reason to stay alive when you need it most because you suddenly feel all this pain and you feel more alone than you’ve ever felt in your entire life.

That moment will break you and I don’t wish it on even my worst enemies.

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in my fairycore era

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my best friend left.

application for new friends is open

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I know one day it'll all stop.

I won't be looking for the thrill anymore.

I won't be looking for anger and quarrells.

The pain will just end, someday, somehow.

The world will be quiet.

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I just wish I was easier to love

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Culture B is making a bumble account, matching with people and feeling super anxious about being vulnerable so you unmatch right away. Even if I sent a message. It’s feeling good to be validated by the fact that people find you attractive or whatever reason they swiped right. But wanting nothing more than that…

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person: mentions someone else

me: ok i get it you want to get rid of me, way to be subtle about it now i’m gonna split on you