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I can’t believe I get to work with Aaron Dessner. When Aaron came into my life, I was ushered into his world of free-flowing creativity where you don’t overthink, you just make music. His generosity of spirit and humility bleeds into every part of his life, and that’s why so many artists have jumped at the chance to be a part of his collaborative project, Big Red Machine. A song we wrote (which also features ⚡️Justin Vernon✨) is out today! It’s called Renegade. Thanks Aaron for asking me to show up at your party. bigredmachine.jagjag.co/renegade

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@taylorswift I WANT TO INVITE YOU TO MY WEDDING TO CHELSEA, 10/10/2021!

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Spinning in my highest heels, luv

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@taylorswift I WANT TO INVITE YOU TO MY WEDDING TO CHELSEA, 10/10/2021!

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HI. I wanted to let you know that the first “From the Vault” song I’m releasing from Fearless (Taylor’s Version) comes out tomorrow at midnight eastern. It’s called You All Over Me (From The Vault). One thing I’ve been loving about these From The Vault songs is that they’ve never been heard, so I can experiment, play, and even include some of my favorite artists. I’m really excited to have Maren Morris singing background vocals on this song!! ☔️ Produced by Aaron Dessner and co-written by Scooter Carusoe - can’t wait for you to hear it 💛

(Second photo: Matt Winkelmeyer / Getty Images Entertainment)

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The mood board for the gasoline remix is just this one photo

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Any ideas on how to invite @taylorswift to my wedding?

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bye 2020, it’s been weird.

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how the hell...

...do I stop self-sabotaging. I do a good job for a certain amount of time, and then I see things slow down, get too many/not enough compliments, or I get bored, and then I slide back into old habits and lose all my steam. I know I do it, but I don’t know how to fix it. I know much of it is rooted in anxiety and fear. Fear of failure, fear of not having something to fall back on, fear of having nothing to hide behind. Being fat is a comfortable discomfort. I hate it, but it’s not vulnerable. When you’re fat, people look at your body, or don’t, and just move on. They judge you, but they know what you are, you’re fat, and they don’t expect much more. But when you start to lose weight, they look at you, and continuously expect more. Or at least it feels that way, whether that’s accurate or not. If there’s too much focus on whether I’m succeeding or not, or if I feel like I’m letting someone down, I shut down. I’m struggling with my ‘health coach,’ because there’s so much communication and she seemed disappointed with me when I was doing better some weeks than others. I know I’m withdrawing from her, and optavia, because I feel like I’m not doing well enough. I do pretty well when I get in a good pattern on my own, or with one other person, but when too many people are involved or there’s too much focus/discussion, I get all sorts of anxious and start to avoid it. The facebook group is so much, the communication is constant and poorly done, and it’s exhausting. It’s exhausting to read the bad grammar, to see the same questions over and over, and to see people succeeding when you’re struggling. I feel silly typing all of that, but here we are. I need to find a middle ground between stringently following the rules, and completely binging. Following the rules to a T was successful, but frustrating and I felt like I was missing out. When we binge and go completely off plan, we feel like shit, but it feels less like I’m missing out and the surge of serotonin that the food gives in the moment is definitely a motivator. I have goals... they just seem so far away or unrealistic. Having babies, getting off my medication, looking amazing on my wedding day, new bikini for the honeymoon. All of it is simultaneously scarily close, and painfully far away. It’s hard for it to feel completely possible. Especially babies. I want to try to have healthy babies, but the process seems daunting, that if I don’t even get to that point, I can’t fail at it. I don’t know if that makes sense. The wedding isn’t far away at all, 287 days. My dress fits pretty well, and I feel good in it, so that’s not a huge deal. I’m thankful that that’s not necessarily a potential failure, I have a fantastic seamstress who will work the magic. I would like to feel better in my dress, but in the end, I know Chelsea is going to cry and that we’ll have the best day. That’s a good feeling, much less daunting. We’re planning on going to Hawaii for our honeymoon, and I’d love to have a pretty bikini and feel amazing in it. That feels somewhat accessible, far away, but still a little intimidating. I’ve worn 2 piece suits and felt good, but something even sexier? That feels more difficult. Getting off my medicine feels pretty far away too. I am off one med, mostly because I couldn’t afford it, but still, I know it’s possible. The rest though? Once I’m off my meds, I’m entirely responsible for staying off of them and taking care of my body, and that feels nearly impossible. I don’t want to fail and go backwards. I want to live my best, longest life with my future wife, our babies, and succeed. I just need to figure out how to get there. If anyone has any ideas of how to set myself up for success, or at least sabotage myself less, I’ll take it. I know I’m capable, I’m just afraid to fail. 

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boxing day 📦

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Not to be all ‘iTs mY BiRtHdAY & I jUsT wAnNa DaNcE’ but... it is and I do. So here’s the willow dancing witch version, remixed by Elvira, a bad ass female producer I really respect 💪💃 https://taylor.lnk.to/willowelvira

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Tonight the story continues, as the music video for “willow” drops at midnight eastern. I’m forever grateful to the following creatives who have helped and guided me to be able to direct my own videos: Cinematographer Rodrigo Prieto, producer Jil Hardin, 1st AD Joe ‘Oz’ Osbourne, Co-1st AD Ev Salomon, Exec Producer Rebecca Skinner, editor Chancler Haynes, set designers Ethan Tobman and Regina Fernandez and visual effects geniuses Grant Miller and David Lebensfeld. Thank you to our medical inspector who made sure every precaution was taken for our safety. I’ll see you guys in the YouTube premiere page chat before midnight to answer some questions 🧙‍♀️

📷: Max Wanger

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Ever since I was 13, I’ve been excited about turning 31 because it’s my lucky number backwards, which is why I wanted to surprise you with this now. You’ve all been so caring, supportive and thoughtful on my birthdays and so this time I thought I would give you something! I also know this holiday season will be a lonely one for most of us and if there are any of you out there who turn to music to cope with missing loved ones the way I do, this is for you. There are 15 tracks on the standard edition of evermore, but the deluxe physical edition will include two bonus tracks - “right where you left me” and “it’s time to go” ⌛️ All *digital downloads* of the album will include an exclusive, digital booklet with 16 brand new photos. You can pre-order evermore now here.

📷: Beth Garrabrant

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I’m elated to tell you that my 9th studio album, and folklore’s sister record, will be out tonight at midnight eastern. It’s called evermore. To put it plainly, we just couldn’t stop writing songs. To try and put it more poetically, it feels like we were standing on the edge of the folklorian woods and had a choice: to turn and go back or to travel further into the forest of this music. We chose to wander deeper in. I’ve never done this before. In the past I’ve always treated albums as one-off eras and moved onto planning the next one after an album was released. There was something different with folklore. In making it, I felt less like I was departing and more like I was returning. I loved the escapism I found in these imaginary/not imaginary tales. I loved the ways you welcomed the dreamscapes and tragedies and epic tales of love lost and found into your lives. So I just kept writing them. And I loved creating these songs with Aaron Dessner, Jack Antonoff, WB, and Justin Vernon. We’ve also welcomed some new (and longtime) friends to our musical kitchen table this time around…

📷: Beth Garrabrant

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I think this officially makes @taylorswift a Disney princess!

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Well it’s 11/24 and 24-11=13 so I’ve got an announcement 🤓 You haven’t seen this film before ✨ folklore: the long pond studio sessions will be out tonight at midnight PST on Disney+