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hi if i made a soukoku fic based off the song 'Make Up Sex' by MGK and Blackbear would yall be interested in me posting it

just a thought

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make an untitled document then make another call that untitled document (1)

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hobby lobby is where i get all my paint for my minis

fun!!

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its also morally correct to steal from hobby lobby

hobby lobby has earned it. do your shoplifting as you please

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bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

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finn wolfhard queer ship cinematic universe time take

i will give no context and take no argument.

-byler is for typical 'waking' hours. your 9-5, the hours for eating and working and focusing and whatever, the hours where you push your extra thoughts away but theres still that bittersweet mourning feeling for them.

-reddie is for your slightly irregular hours. 4-9am, 5-10 pm. you're not waking, but you're awake, roaming, thinking. the 'i cant sleep' hours. you let yourself think, consider, if only for a moment, for that brief feeling of fleeting happiness.

-boreo is for your late hours. your 11-4. the late night+early morning, all-nighter, too late and too early and too everything all at once. when you finally let yourself think and feel at the risk of everything, and still have that bittersweet and exhausted feeling and you mourn the waking hours while still craving these late hours.

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my take on the 'i think you thought it was more' line

SO!!!!!!!

we all know the infamous line. boris saying he thinks theo may have thought it was something more, that they only did it because they were bored and high and there were no girls around. and obvi, like, wtf? boris literally had a girlfriend at the time and theo didnt really have a huge interest in that stuff past what a normal 13 y/o boy experiences, so what the fuck?

but lets think about this. boris knows theo inside out, like the back of his hand. every twitch, every glance, the way he holds himself and dresses and his tone of voice, everything, to a tee. and we know theodore decker- he hates change. detests it. fears it, yes, but more than that theres a deep and undying hatred for change and the unknown and the future. and of course, of course boris knows that

so i think boris KNOWS. he knows how theo feels about him, he knows theo is gay, he knows it was always something more even when he didnt want it to be and he knows theo almost said i love you that night because cmon, of course he knows. BUT.

but theo hates change, and boris hates what theo hates. if theo doesnt like something, or fears it, boris does everything he fucking can to avoid the topic of whatever it is around theo or else eliminate it completely.

so he lies. he lies about what it meant to him, lies about why he did it and lies about his wife and son. he lies so that theo doesnt have to, because deep down, we all know theo would never just admit that. if boris had looked him dead in his eyes that night and told him he remembered everything and he loved it and loved him and it always meant something to him, theo wouldve either denied it deeply or RAN. boris would've lost him again, and he knows how bad losing theo the first time felt.

so he lies. and he knows, and he lies anyway. theo probably knows, deep down, in some spiritual way that he knows boris, that boris is lying. but he lets boris lie about it and lies to himself to agree so that things dont have to change again.

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funnier if you mispronounce play

god you're so right

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question is 'alexa play despacito' funnier if you mispronounce alexa or despacito

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darry texting this to ponyboy is so canon to me i don't care it was 1967 or whatever the hell BOY QUIET

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boops were an april fools day thing. ot was like pokes from facebook. they are gone now.

thank you baby, i was getting it on my feed and was so confused 🙏🏻🙏🏻

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can someone explain boops what are boops now do i get them how do i boop people WHAT IS HAPPENING

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dean winchester takes one look at castiels bare forearms or neck without a tie and turns into a victorian teenage boy seeing a ladys ankles for the first time

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lets talk hannibal (but mostly will graham)

so some viewers and enjoyers of the hannibal tv show still think that Will only lost it because of hannibals influence. because hannibal alienated him from others, pushed him to break the wall around his mind, whatever reason, some people think it was only or at least mostly because of hannibal.

that said, heres where those loveable fuckos are wrong. will graham was very early on established to be unstable- he's autistic and an empath so that alone is hard on him, not to mention all the shit hes seen for crime scenes and his own nightmares (also established to have happened long before hannibal or Garret Hobbs ever came into play). so yes, unstable, but still very clearly feeling- he's not a psychopath, not a sociopath, not even criminally crazy or insane, he's just unstable. but unstable is dangerous in his line of work

so lets focus on the empath part for a second. he's able to observe, consider, and get into the minds of the killers- 'he hires Will Graham to catch psychopaths because he can think like them'. and he can, and he said as much- he can think like them, get in their head, figure out their design and every last flaw in it to catch them. will graham may not be a legal psychopath, but he can put his mind into the headspace of one, think and feel and look like one (consider the conversation about the minnesota shrike between jack and will- 'a feeling psychopath'. we establish early that it is unusual, but they can never and will never rule out the possibility of a psychopath or sociopath being driven by love, still feeling things)

so far, just in early episode 1, we've established a few things- the first is that will graham is emotionally and mentally unstable, so deeply that a licensed psychiatrist suggests highly that they just let him be and teach. second thing we've established is that will graham is not a psychopath or sociopath, but he THINKS like one, gets in their heads, understands them. being able to think through someone so deeply that you can basically see through their eyes is hard enough, but even harder if you cant align with their instabilities and etc. and the third thing we've established is that in this show (and irl, but we focus on the show), is that they can and never will rule out the possibility of a psychopath showing and experiencing true feeling.

now lets talk about some MORE that went down in episode one. the 'copycat' kill, with the girl mounted in the field on the antlers. will took one close look at her and realized that no, this isnt garret hobbs, who tucked elice nichols into bed and never wastes any part of the women because he wants to keep them inside, near him, safe- no, this was someone else, and he though this girl was pig and wanted to humiliate her. One fucking look. he had probably already been thinking about the shrike kills and realized, or almost realized, the connection between the shrike having a daughter and the girls he killed, whatever. but he takes one look at this girl, a kill that is very objectively so close to the others it could, in fact, be garret jacob hobbs, and he realizes no, thats not the shrike, this girl was a pig and her killer wanted it known.

and then, later, when he's giving the lecture and jack and hannibal walk in, he says that this kill was the shrikes kills but elevated to art. ART, which he is shown now and later to have such a delicate care for. he finds this kill beautiful and artistic, and this is before he has much of hannibals influence or hannibal even makes hints about alienating will from jack or alana. this is still pre-hannibal will graham, looking at a vicious murder and calling it art.

and hannibal himself never broke will. he broke his trust, at some points, and did everything to get it back and show will he could trust him, he wouldnt hurt him. he loved will so clearly and deeply the entire time, he would never break him. he loved him so deeply that the only thing he ever wanted was for will to be his full, true, no-walls self with hannibal. he would never break will, he just wanted will to be his full self- he pushed will, yes, but never to hurt him or his mind, just pushed him to take the walls down, to stop pushing down the urges that were eating at him because thats what was destroying will, not hannibal.

so in conclusion, will was an unstable phsycotic empath well before hannibal, and hannibal only ever wanted him to stop fighting the urges and take down his walls, he was NOT the reason will snapped and not responsible for dark!Will

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new young royals ship just dropped erik x tradition send retweet

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guys i know we're all happy that wilmon is endgame and that they're happy and we're clear and etc and i know some may have not wanted or may not agree with the way wille did it in giving up the crown but you HAVE to understand the parallel here

season one was their falling in love. they found each other, learned each other, some shit went down. wille told simon that he'd either not make the statement and tell the truth, and he lied anyway, and it ruined them until they fixed it between them again. wille was scared, and unsure, and it led him to do something he said he wouldnt, and it hurt simon and in turn him

season two was their reconcile. they learned and grew apart from each other, learned who they were without each other and who they really were with each other, like they needed. wille realized it was time to make damn good on his promise from s1 and be honest, and he does, and they're okay again

season three is the finish line. they've made their choices, they've grown, they're back together, and now they have to figure out how to live with that, and its okay. but now SIMON is scared and unsure, like wille was, and that leads to the break-up in ep 5 because just like wille, he doesnt know how to feel what hes feeling without taking that measure. he thinks he'll only hurt himself and wille more by staying with him at this point. and then in ep 6, now wille is the one that got hurt by simon instead- its the same situation as s1, but reversed- wille is hurt, simon is unsure but they still want each other. and now, now that they've grown and learned, and everything is coming back around, it only makes sense that wille would give up the crown and let august take over his place. just like he realized it was time to make good on his promise from s1 in s2, he realizes now in s3 its time to make good on the promise from s2.

it always comes back around to the promises, so of COURSE he would give up the thrown.

s1: promise made about being honest about the video broken/s2: promise made about being honest about the video made good on.

s2: promise made about giving up the crown and their future made and left not broken, but not made good on./s3: promise made about giving up the crown and their future made good on.

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Now that we're in the clear, the next time i encounter a young royals fan im just going to start quietly singing arcade and see if they get mad or if they cry