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And if anyone likes it and wants another bot im willing to discuss and probably do it, i have no life ✌🏻

Hey guys I made an Eddie Munson bot on C.AI for steddie roleplays so like if you're interested in that here you are

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Hey guys I made an Eddie Munson bot on C.AI for steddie roleplays so like if you're interested in that here you are

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what if i said unrequited prongstail in the 'if you showed up at my door in fourty years i'd invite you in and tell you its been too long' way, in the 'i tell you that i love you and you smile and say it back, but i know what you really mean' way, in the 'all my friends say love made them soft but its only made my heart harden with steel' way. yes im a slut for the 'im not in love with you anymore/i didnt know you ever were', the 'i love you. you can tell me you dont love me back, this once/i dont know what you really want me to say'. but come ON. what if i said that.

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hi if i made a soukoku fic based off the song 'Make Up Sex' by MGK and Blackbear would yall be interested in me posting it

just a thought

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make an untitled document then make another call that untitled document (1)

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finn wolfhard queer ship cinematic universe time take

i will give no context and take no argument.

-byler is for typical 'waking' hours. your 9-5, the hours for eating and working and focusing and whatever, the hours where you push your extra thoughts away but theres still that bittersweet mourning feeling for them.

-reddie is for your slightly irregular hours. 4-9am, 5-10 pm. you're not waking, but you're awake, roaming, thinking. the 'i cant sleep' hours. you let yourself think, consider, if only for a moment, for that brief feeling of fleeting happiness.

-boreo is for your late hours. your 11-4. the late night+early morning, all-nighter, too late and too early and too everything all at once. when you finally let yourself think and feel at the risk of everything, and still have that bittersweet and exhausted feeling and you mourn the waking hours while still craving these late hours.

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my take on the 'i think you thought it was more' line

SO!!!!!!!

we all know the infamous line. boris saying he thinks theo may have thought it was something more, that they only did it because they were bored and high and there were no girls around. and obvi, like, wtf? boris literally had a girlfriend at the time and theo didnt really have a huge interest in that stuff past what a normal 13 y/o boy experiences, so what the fuck?

but lets think about this. boris knows theo inside out, like the back of his hand. every twitch, every glance, the way he holds himself and dresses and his tone of voice, everything, to a tee. and we know theodore decker- he hates change. detests it. fears it, yes, but more than that theres a deep and undying hatred for change and the unknown and the future. and of course, of course boris knows that

so i think boris KNOWS. he knows how theo feels about him, he knows theo is gay, he knows it was always something more even when he didnt want it to be and he knows theo almost said i love you that night because cmon, of course he knows. BUT.

but theo hates change, and boris hates what theo hates. if theo doesnt like something, or fears it, boris does everything he fucking can to avoid the topic of whatever it is around theo or else eliminate it completely.

so he lies. he lies about what it meant to him, lies about why he did it and lies about his wife and son. he lies so that theo doesnt have to, because deep down, we all know theo would never just admit that. if boris had looked him dead in his eyes that night and told him he remembered everything and he loved it and loved him and it always meant something to him, theo wouldve either denied it deeply or RAN. boris would've lost him again, and he knows how bad losing theo the first time felt.

so he lies. and he knows, and he lies anyway. theo probably knows, deep down, in some spiritual way that he knows boris, that boris is lying. but he lets boris lie about it and lies to himself to agree so that things dont have to change again.

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darry texting this to ponyboy is so canon to me i don't care it was 1967 or whatever the hell BOY QUIET

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lets talk hannibal (but mostly will graham)

so some viewers and enjoyers of the hannibal tv show still think that Will only lost it because of hannibals influence. because hannibal alienated him from others, pushed him to break the wall around his mind, whatever reason, some people think it was only or at least mostly because of hannibal.

that said, heres where those loveable fuckos are wrong. will graham was very early on established to be unstable- he's autistic and an empath so that alone is hard on him, not to mention all the shit hes seen for crime scenes and his own nightmares (also established to have happened long before hannibal or Garret Hobbs ever came into play). so yes, unstable, but still very clearly feeling- he's not a psychopath, not a sociopath, not even criminally crazy or insane, he's just unstable. but unstable is dangerous in his line of work

so lets focus on the empath part for a second. he's able to observe, consider, and get into the minds of the killers- 'he hires Will Graham to catch psychopaths because he can think like them'. and he can, and he said as much- he can think like them, get in their head, figure out their design and every last flaw in it to catch them. will graham may not be a legal psychopath, but he can put his mind into the headspace of one, think and feel and look like one (consider the conversation about the minnesota shrike between jack and will- 'a feeling psychopath'. we establish early that it is unusual, but they can never and will never rule out the possibility of a psychopath or sociopath being driven by love, still feeling things)

so far, just in early episode 1, we've established a few things- the first is that will graham is emotionally and mentally unstable, so deeply that a licensed psychiatrist suggests highly that they just let him be and teach. second thing we've established is that will graham is not a psychopath or sociopath, but he THINKS like one, gets in their heads, understands them. being able to think through someone so deeply that you can basically see through their eyes is hard enough, but even harder if you cant align with their instabilities and etc. and the third thing we've established is that in this show (and irl, but we focus on the show), is that they can and never will rule out the possibility of a psychopath showing and experiencing true feeling.

now lets talk about some MORE that went down in episode one. the 'copycat' kill, with the girl mounted in the field on the antlers. will took one close look at her and realized that no, this isnt garret hobbs, who tucked elice nichols into bed and never wastes any part of the women because he wants to keep them inside, near him, safe- no, this was someone else, and he though this girl was pig and wanted to humiliate her. One fucking look. he had probably already been thinking about the shrike kills and realized, or almost realized, the connection between the shrike having a daughter and the girls he killed, whatever. but he takes one look at this girl, a kill that is very objectively so close to the others it could, in fact, be garret jacob hobbs, and he realizes no, thats not the shrike, this girl was a pig and her killer wanted it known.

and then, later, when he's giving the lecture and jack and hannibal walk in, he says that this kill was the shrikes kills but elevated to art. ART, which he is shown now and later to have such a delicate care for. he finds this kill beautiful and artistic, and this is before he has much of hannibals influence or hannibal even makes hints about alienating will from jack or alana. this is still pre-hannibal will graham, looking at a vicious murder and calling it art.

and hannibal himself never broke will. he broke his trust, at some points, and did everything to get it back and show will he could trust him, he wouldnt hurt him. he loved will so clearly and deeply the entire time, he would never break him. he loved him so deeply that the only thing he ever wanted was for will to be his full, true, no-walls self with hannibal. he would never break will, he just wanted will to be his full self- he pushed will, yes, but never to hurt him or his mind, just pushed him to take the walls down, to stop pushing down the urges that were eating at him because thats what was destroying will, not hannibal.

so in conclusion, will was an unstable phsycotic empath well before hannibal, and hannibal only ever wanted him to stop fighting the urges and take down his walls, he was NOT the reason will snapped and not responsible for dark!Will

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guys i know we're all happy that wilmon is endgame and that they're happy and we're clear and etc and i know some may have not wanted or may not agree with the way wille did it in giving up the crown but you HAVE to understand the parallel here

season one was their falling in love. they found each other, learned each other, some shit went down. wille told simon that he'd either not make the statement and tell the truth, and he lied anyway, and it ruined them until they fixed it between them again. wille was scared, and unsure, and it led him to do something he said he wouldnt, and it hurt simon and in turn him

season two was their reconcile. they learned and grew apart from each other, learned who they were without each other and who they really were with each other, like they needed. wille realized it was time to make damn good on his promise from s1 and be honest, and he does, and they're okay again

season three is the finish line. they've made their choices, they've grown, they're back together, and now they have to figure out how to live with that, and its okay. but now SIMON is scared and unsure, like wille was, and that leads to the break-up in ep 5 because just like wille, he doesnt know how to feel what hes feeling without taking that measure. he thinks he'll only hurt himself and wille more by staying with him at this point. and then in ep 6, now wille is the one that got hurt by simon instead- its the same situation as s1, but reversed- wille is hurt, simon is unsure but they still want each other. and now, now that they've grown and learned, and everything is coming back around, it only makes sense that wille would give up the crown and let august take over his place. just like he realized it was time to make good on his promise from s1 in s2, he realizes now in s3 its time to make good on the promise from s2.

it always comes back around to the promises, so of COURSE he would give up the thrown.

s1: promise made about being honest about the video broken/s2: promise made about being honest about the video made good on.

s2: promise made about giving up the crown and their future made and left not broken, but not made good on./s3: promise made about giving up the crown and their future made good on.

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Now that we're in the clear, the next time i encounter a young royals fan im just going to start quietly singing arcade and see if they get mad or if they cry

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on an outsiders kick so heres the main gang as things me and my friends have said

Soda: Your wish is my command. Be gay forever

Steve: I'm still straight but I'd fuck you now

Soda: Not that gay

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Darry: I dont really like you. Why are you always hanging around?

Dally: I ask myself the same thing every single day

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Pony: I know we're supposed to be saying embarrassing things about ourselves but before we talk about me i'm really upset Two-Bit didnt mention the fact that he was in love with thomas the train

Two-Bit: i watched ONE episode when i was FIVE go fuck yourself

Pony: You have a shrine by your bed

Two-Bit: irrelevant

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Johnny: I'm not really scared of anything, no

Johnny: but cats freak me out. and so do dogs, sometimes, but mainly cats. and especially ducks. oh, and needles, and doctors in general. also loud noises, sharp objects near me, any sort of projectile, and stoves. but like, thats not that many things

Dally: I understand so much about you now

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Pony: I'm going to write a novel and all of you are gonna have characters based off you. Any questions about it?

Two-Bit: Am I hot?

Pony: No. Next question

Darry: Am I going to regret reading this?

Pony: For sure. Next.

Johnny: Please dont make me a crybaby

Pony: You shouldnt read this. Next

Steve: Can me and Soda date?

Pony: You already are. Next

Soda: Can me and Steve not date?

Pony: Too late. You know you love him. Next

Dally: You're going to make my character really deep, arent you?

Pony: Possibly. Havent decided yet. Anything else?

Johnny: Is Dally as hot in the book as he really is?

Pony: I'll no longer be taking questions because I'm extremely uncomfortable, but on second thought, you might really like this book

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Two-Bit, upon walking in on Steve and Soda cuddling: I leave for FIVE minutes and i'm left out of fucking everything. all the fucking time. i hate everyone in this house

Steve: Do you want to lay with us?

Soda: Yeah, come lay with us

Two-Bit, practically dropping himself on them: I'm still mad at you

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Dally: For some reason Ponyboy is really obsessed with the idea of me being really soft inside and just not showing it so I dont get hurt. I think he wants me to be narrative foils with our other friend too

Dally: How do i tell him i'd change the narrative doom him if i could and feel no remorse without crushing that hope in him

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Pony: I like to think its a secret but me and everyone around me knows im writing a slowburn, hes only soft to him trope, slight enemies to lovers fanfiction about Johnny and Dally in my head

Dally: the term fanfiction implies i have fans

Johnny: i'm a fan of you

Pony, whispering: they practically write it themselves

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Dally: Here, i stole this. dont ask questions, just take it

Darry, taking the sleeping pigeon that Dally just handed him with a mildly horrified expression: where did you get this?

Dally: i told you i'd bring back souvenirs from my field trip. no more questions

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Johnny: Not many people like me.

Johnny: its probably because im kind of a pussy, but i like to tell myself its because i'm annoying because at least then im not calling myself a pussy

Dally: Wait, wait. Who doesnt like you?

Johnny: Huh? Why does it matter?

Dally: No reason. Just, like, give me an example

Pony, in the kitchen and hears all of this: *puts the knives in the cabinet where Dally wont look for them* I dont really want to have to bail anyone out again

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Soda, to Darry: I think Steve is kind of in love with me, but I really dont want to have to break it to him that I dont feel the same

Steve, with Soda in his lap: *stops playing with Sodas hair* What?

Soda: Nothing, baby, you're fine

Darry: I will never understand you

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yes, one of my friends did bring a live pigeon back from a field trip. it slept a lot, and we'd hold him all the time while he slept and he'd stay asleep when we passed him around because we had to move. i hope he wasnt sick and is doing okay

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just little solangelo thoughts

im just chilling going through the solangelo tag so heres some lil thoughts that have been provoked from such activities

-parallel between percy and annabeth standing/sitting back to back in tartarus when they finally can rest bc they have each others backs to nico and will in tsats fighting back to back bc they've both been stabbed in the back enough already

-nico is a literal fucking sewer rat kind of (in the most loving way ofc) but also hes not he literally glows with alt and gothic beauty and has a beautiful accent and an amazing smile and smooth, milky skin and will (who is kind of a beautifully groomed golden retriever) is actually a fucking dumpster dog who jumped out at him when nico was hiding in the alley and hasnt left his side since

-will watched nico let an anemic fucking loser launch himself into the atmosphere and immediately and immensely fell in love and nico took one look at the hand that still has amniotic sac fluid on it holding his and thought 'holy shit i wanna kiss him'

-apollo literally saying 'i dont care if my son has a boyfriend. i've had a lot. and compared to some of mine, holy SHIT could will be doing worse' and i think thats great

-nico and will are not achilles and patroclus they are apollo and hycanth and apollo literally mentioned the similarities he saw in the relationships and im POSITIVE hades sees it too and is so so scared for his son because he saw what losing someone he loved that much did to apollo

-even tho they're not quite achilles and patroclus their love and wrath for the otehrs death would still be enough to shake the gods and im fully convinced zues sat hades down one day and was like 'listen dude you gotta protect the little blonde kid. i dont wanna go through that again' and hades was like 'lol pussy. gotchu tho'

-william andrew solace who is the LITERAL son of sunshine and has magic glow powers and is the best medic the camp has had in years would and probably has poke an infected creature of unidentified species and decide that it’s probably maybe not poisonous and bring it to his bf because why not

-also he definitely has/will have full sleeves of tattoos on both arms and a bunch on his legs and back and they will have absolutely no specific meaning or reason or order (other than the star on his shoulderblade for his first and only love and the sun on his chest for himself)

-nico would get a lot of tattoos but they’d all mean something to him (things bianca used to like, the groups initials, etc)

-william andrew solace was born and raised in fuckin texas with his single rocker mama (who was ALSO born and raised in texas) and is an overworked med student and has gone through all that shit he’s been through by 15. that bitch is a fucking DICK. he will cut you for touching his stuff and if you’re a dick he will absolutely NOT treat you (‘i havent sworn under oath yet as a doctor, chiron’) and he has absolutely pulled a gun on someone back home for the dumbest shit

-nico is a fucking softie don’t lie. he spends one third of his time crying, the other third waxing poetic about his boyfriend will doing normal day shit, and the last third convincing his dickhead sunshine boyfriend to treat the guy with poison ivy because ‘he called me weird, will, that’s not even that insulting’

-kayla and austin have definitely thrown them in the lake. multiple times. it’s a past time at this point. leo has helped on a few occasions and lester did once only to be fucking decked by his son in law for messing up the snack he made for will while will lost his shit laughing in the back

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The peculiar children as things my friends have said

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Jake: Hey Emma?

Emma: *looks at him. does not answer*

Jake: Emma, Emma, Emma, Emma, Emma, Emma, Emma, Emma-

Emma: *staring straight at him, not answering.*

Olive: Huh. Interesting

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Horace: Hello, fellow fruits

Enoch: If i'm a fruit i'm a fucking tomato. Also your hat is wack

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Bronwyn: I just want to say I fully endorse playing that again

Hugh, covered in bruises but smiling like he just had the time of his life: Thanks, it was my idea! I'd like to play again too

Fiona, with a single kiss mark on her cheek and bruised knuckles: *thousand yard stare as she slowly leaves the room. A few seconds later she screams 'fuck' from the other room.*

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Jake, poking Enoch while they're by the pool: Hey, do you wanna play mermaids with me?

Enoch: *smiles* Sure! Did you know the original mermaids are closer to the siren myths and are the souls of people who were drowned?

Jake, slowly stepping away from the pool: I'd rather play in the garden

Enoch, smiling more as he steps closer to Jake with his hands out: Whats wrong, Jake? Dont you want to play mermaids?

Jake: *runs to the garden, screaming*

Miss Peregrine, watching: This is lovely, they're finally getting along :)

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Millard, walking into the room to watch a movie only to see everyone yelling over each other and at least four pillows in the air from being thrown at people: I would like everyone here to consider what they're doing and then throw themselves out the window. Then I'd like you to think about what you're doing again as you realize every one of your bones are broken. *leaves*

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Horace: I cant help it, i'm just that amazing

Enoch: If you're amazing, I didnt cry myself to sleep last night

Jake: Are you okay, Enoch?

Emma: He's fine. He hasnt cried since he was three, he just wanted a way to say Horace was amazing while sounding mean

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happy valentines day but espeically to @cloudyskyeee (@cloudyskyeee2) and the lovely soul(s) who was keeping me occupied with my ask box yesterday. have a good day, my darlings <3

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Seven tickets to barbie please