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A metaphor to express my feelings on our current situation:

•The US is a person with a gunshot wound. The wound is bleeding profusely (the bullet is covid, the blood represents infected/dying people). There’s a lot of blood, the person is probably going to bleed to death at the current rate.

•The doctor has a tourniquet (the vaccine) and could stop the bleeding enough (70-90%, the vaccination rate for herd immunity) to get the patient into surgery and this could all be over. Sadly however, that tourniquet is being held hostage (by the people who are refusing the vaccine).

•Instead the doctor has to do something so she places a bandaid on the gunshot wound (requiring masks for vaccinated people). It seems like the best solution the doctor has, as the bandaid does stop some blood, and she’s really in a bind, but the patient is still bleeding out (covid rates are spiking, hospitals are at capacity again).

•Another factor worth considering is that the bandaid is a bit of a burden to the patient. At first it’s just itchy but then it becomes painful as it causes irritation to the wound. (for me personally that looks like needing masks inside again, but it also looks like limits on my experience in music school because you can’t play an instrument with a mask on, and the fear of it snowballing back to where we were last year, loosing things like in person school, my job, and social activities all over again.)

•Moral of the story- please get vaccinated and don’t take away the things that are important to all of us again. The doctor has to do something, just give him the dang tourniquet and let him stitch us up. It’s safe it’s free it’s convenient. I beg you.

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Making friends with people from other countries is so crazy. I sent my group chat a Big Bird gif.

And this one girl says, “why isn’t he blue?”

I’m like, the fuck you mean??

So today I learned that in the Dutch version of Sesame Street, they do, in fact, have a blue Big Bird.

I was baffled by this so I went on Muppets Wiki and guess what.

In Mexico, Big Bird is green and his name is Abelardo.

Turkish Big Bird (aka Minik Kus) is apparently fucking orange.

This looks like a fuckin alternate universe or smth. I can’t.

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Dolly Parton is actually Jesus change my mind.

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HUGE fan of trees growing in places they should not reasonably be able to

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imma say it. “kung fu panda” did more for body positivity and saying that  you can be fat and still be healthy and liked than ANYTHING any beauty companies trying to get your money.

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Hello internet, it is yet again time I shout into the void. This time I have information that I actually think needs to be heard and shared so please tell your friends about this and reblog.

I hate the US military.

Now I had a probably neural to negative view two year ago. I knew that the military did things that were questionable at best and that they were still a big force of nationalism and imperialism and us vs. them.

But then my boyfriend joined the navy.

His dad was a chief in the navy. He hated home and wanted to get out. He wanted to avoid being in college debt forever. They made him a pretty good offer and he took it. I got on board and was supportive. I was happy that he was excited about it. But then I started noticing the severity of the problem with the organization.

Mostly chronological list of terrible things that have been done to him and people he knows:

1) he was lied to about having the ability to join the band, which was the reason he signed origianally.

2) In boot camp someone found out he wasn’t straight and reported him for sexual assault. From that point on his leadership treated him rather poorly.

3) when he got to the point where he was supposed to be going to school in Great Lakes, he saw how stressed exhausted and frustrated everyone in school was, he heard the stories about how many people failed out, and he started having panic attacks.

4) the leadership treats them like garbage. Not just scolding them about every little thing, but also the passive aggressive comments, personal attacks, and desire to get them in trouble for whatever they can scrape up. He lives in fear of making any sort of mistake and his self esteem is nonexistent at this point.

5) he barely had the opportunity for a real meal before COVID. Now, he hasn’t seen fresh fruits or vegetables or real substantial food in 9 months. He has no way to access it.

6) his access to WiFi has been spotty at best. He can’t leave base, he can’t even get out for a walk or run outside. He can’t see any loved ones, he’s pretty much completely isolated.

7) In February 2020 he ended up in the hospital as a suiside risk. At that point he desided to get separated from the navy for medical reasons.

8) after that they sent him back to the barracks and proceeded to try to send him off to school AGAIN.

9) messed up paperwork here forgotten phone call there along the way they have made so many mistakes that his date for getting out and coming home went from potentially May to hopefully August to definitely by October to I sure hope he’s home by Christmas. We still don’t know.

A few days ago, 2 sailors in his base took their lives. Rightfully so, the students their started speaking up about how awful the conditions were, and instead of being met with empathy and compassion they were told how others have it worse, they are asking for too much, and they are all being babies.

I’m honestly surprised he’s made it this long if I’m being completely honest. I’m amazed any person can put up with this. I wonder how anyone can make it through their contract, until I remember a lot of those kids are even worse off and it’s really their only chance of getting an education.

So next time you’re having a conversation about the military don’t forget to mention that the people who sign up and swear in are also a victim of the system. Some people call them heros but they are treated like dirt. Maybe if enough noise is raised and pressure is applied something can be done. For now, all we can do it pray for all the people who are locked down on bases and ships all around the world.

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I actually find a lot of comfort in the “I’m just a speck of dust” philosophy. I think it’s utterly beautiful that we are all both teeny tiny but also contain universes. My problems aren’t so big when I remember that I am so small.

Tired of dumbass nihilist shit. Been there done that Everything matters actually. Like just factually every god damn thing effects Something even if it's not anything huge or obvious. Things cannot exist without having any impact on anything else

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u know whats wild. everyone on here like 20 and when i first joined everyone was like 14 15. u ask anybody n they been here for years. nobody new on here. staff locked the doors n were all Stuck Inside

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You guys just have to trust me on this one and click here okay?

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Humans: *invents birth control*

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Stella is here to mark the beginning of fall. 

[ dognamedstella ]

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Thank god. It deserves to be that way.