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CHANGED MY BRAIN CHEMISTRY HOLY FUCK SHE IS GORGEOUS

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loving to get drunk is messing with my 3d bc i hate the calories but i don’t want to quit drinking bc of it

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I hate men

I hate dads

I hate grandfathers

I hate the ‘class comedian’ men

I hate the ‘nice guys’

I hate guys

I hate ‘the boys’

I hate every single man and none of them will understand the amount of damage they have caused me.

The odd looks, the disgusting smirks, the fucking “husband daycare” memes, the “oh I have two kids lolz” and one of them is the husband, be actually matured people with actual thoughts please. I am actually begging you. I’m so sick of men always wanting to be babied by women. You are a whole ass man. I’m not making your bed, I’m not bringing you a plate of food fuck off. Fuck you. Fuck whatever you believe in. Fuck your bloodline. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.

I hate you for making me feel guilty when I don’t wanna do something you wanna do.

I am not an extension of you. Never was. Never will be. Either treat me with basic human decency you should’ve been taught when you were A CHILD or fuck off out my life.

I hate men that make ‘jokes’

“You’re one of them feminists”

I’ll kill you and everyone you love if you don’t fuck off.

“Snowflake❄️❄️❄️”

Men will kill women to fuck their dead body. Men will kill women if they feel rejected. Men kill women if women wear an outfit. Men kill women for not wanting to fuck. Men will kill women for wanting to fuck.

Never undermine what i say to you ever again.

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No one will love me the way I love others.

I was brought to love, not receive.

Always the poet, never the poem.

Always the painter, never the muse.

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Just started a 48 hour water fast.

Gonna edit this post as it progresses

Wish me luck <33

1:30am -> start

2:55am -> bedtime perhaps

13:09pm -> awake 😼

15:36pm -> cleaned my room and hung up my fairy lights 😼😼

16:29pm -> not hungry anymore 😼😼

13:50pm -> woke up from being drunk, don’t know if being drunk affects fasts and don’t care. Haven’t eaten and struggling with a hangover but still going strong 😼😼🗣️

16:53pm -> currently trying not to cry in my bathroom

11:29am -> done, it was pretty mid icl but I’m not bloated

Finished -> I forgot to update but it went well. I would recommend. I felt a lot cleaner and my stomach was a little flatter (which is always nice)

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Just a little rant for myself.

I don’t feel comfortable in my body, but I don’t look bad either- I’m not like obese with fat drooping off my body. I actually think I was blessed by my fat distribution. Outfits I wear hug my figure and outline my figure and my curves.

Curvy women >>>> ygm?

Just not on myself. I wanna be thin, I wanna be light and I wanna be small. I wanna be so small and so petite that people will feel the need to protect me cuz how is a small skinny girl supposed to protect herself? (Terrible way of thinking I know but leave me alone)

As a curvy or ‘thick’ women I get sexualised way too much, and I have to play into that to get any type of validation which is so draining but that’s how society see’s curvy women. A set of ass and boobs to fuck.

I’ve experienced it, it’s highs and it’s lows and I don’t want it. I don’t want people’s first reaction of me to be anything like that. Idk it’s weird.

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Who would you rather look like?

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I hate existing so much. I just wanna be skinny T^T

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I’m alive

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All the th1nsp0 I forgot to show off SORRY

that hug in the second one would cure me of all illness

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I’m going to swallow glass.

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Urmmm I wanna be thrown over someone’s shoulder 🙄🙄

Th1nsp0

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Do I kill myself? Do I slit my wrists?

Th1nsp0

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Wearing your outfit with confidence isn’t gonna do shit if the outfits doesn’t look good on your rolls btw

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I need an older and taller man to be obsessed with me tbh. (I have severe father issues)

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I hate dads with a passion.

why now? Why after 18 years, when I have learnt to live without you, you make a useless attempt at trying to father me again?

No matter how much money you give us, no matter how many presents, attention, days out, dinners, they will not change anything you did.

You’re a bad person, I hate you with every ounce of my being and I will never feel genuine love for you again. I truly hope you live your life as miserable as possible. You do not deserve anything good you got or will get.

I hate you for not being a good father or a good husband. I hate you for the way you treated us all. I hate that I get so worked up just thinking about you. I hate you.

:3

Cheeky little rant from yours truly

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If I sliced chunks of flesh off my legs, I’d technically be losing weight…

Just a thought