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Enjoying the little things in life...

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When someone claims there is a groundbreaking cure for your chronic illness

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MY STORY part 1

I was in middle school, sixth grade, and I was like every other kid. The day started out normal and just like any other day .I went to my third  class for the day, P.E. (Phys ed).  We did some stretches, and some track that day I felt fine. After lunch my knee was hurting quite a bit but didnt think anything about it. Went home that afternoon and there was still some pain, so I told my mom what my knee felt like. She told me if it still hurt in the morning she would take me to the doctor. The following morning my knee was hurting so bad, it was hot, swollen and purple. I panicked, I didn’t know what to do but cry. My mom rushed me to the hospital, they did everything xray bloodwork MRI etc. “We found nothing” those were practically the doctors words.  My reaction was WHAT!?!?!?! The gave  me crutches to be on for six weeks and a knee brace. After it stopped being so bruised and swollen. After that it happened a lot more after that. Typically it happened after I would go out and walk for long periods of time or stretch a lot.  It was swollen and got all the time, I favored it so much that my other knee became very weak. My mom would explain to the doctors my symptoms. They would say she is to young for arthritis and fibromyalgia. Maybe she is just really lazy. I just wanted my legs to get better so I could do what I liked to do.

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After you have a mental breakdown and you don't know what to do next

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When you have a bad day and everything bugs you

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How can you rate your pain on a scale from 0 to 10 if you don't remember what a zero feels like?

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When you are just tired and wanna pull the covers over your head.

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Freind: Do you wanna go see that new movie this weekend

Me: Sure sounds great

My Body: You think you are going to that movie, but you're not.

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When the one day you go out forces you to be in bed for the next three days.

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The feeling you get when you finally completed no. 1 on your to do list. Even though it took you a week to do so.

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When all your emotions get all tangled up an you have that nice little panic attack. You know the one where you feel like you are suffocating. Then everyone around you is trying to comprehend what is wrong but they will never understand

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Depression and Kindness

The feeling of disappointment when you can’t remember. The feeling of sadness when you feel like you failed. The feeling when you think they hate you. The feeling like they are talking about you and laughing. The feeling of being depressed The feeling when someone asks how you are. The feeling when you get a call from a friend saying “I was thinking about you today” The feeling when you attend an event and people are happy that you could make it. The feeling when they actually listen to you. The feeling of being loved.

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When you explain to someone the whole spill about your illness. Then you can see that they don’t understand and are totally confused.

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That Spoonie Feel When Every Day is Exactly the Same

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When you have that lingering feeling that you totally forgot something. Then remember days later what it was. And you ultimately get disapointed with how your brain functions