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you KNOW armand was attracted to Lestat and jealous/not at all attracted to Nicky because why do they look like this in his memory:

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“in all timelines, in all possibilities, only you”

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Only you

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ANYWAY I WAS RIGHT ABOUT THE LIFE/DEATH THING BETWEEN JAYCE AND VIKTOR . yall are getting the written meta in a few days (also Mel is 100% limbo i thought so but i needed more proof and now i have it)

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Noooooo but you don’t understand. It is love but Viktor calls it affection when he’s trying to leave because he doesn’t have a word for it. He doesn’t get the words for it until he’s an old mage telling Jayce that it was only him across countless timelines that could show him that perfection = a passionless goalless life.

And Jayce telling Viktor he admired him was the kindest most devastating thing he could tell him in that moment. Viktor who chased after a cure for his disease, for just a little more time to able to become someone admired someone worth remembering. But he always was to Jayce.

Jayce who canonically fell in love with him from the moment he talked him of a ledge and gave him his life back.

Viktor who fell in love floating in the air giddy with the joy of scientific discovery.

They’re nothing without eachother.

Viktor who feels Jayce should have every right to leave. To let him go. And Jayce who never will.

So yes for Viktor it’s “affection” because how would he know how to put that love into words until the time was right.

And for Jayce it was “admiration” because Jayce loves him for everything and in that moment he chooses to put it into words that Viktor needs.

okay but do the arcane writers not know that you don’t need a thesaurus for the word love. like “admire” and “affection” my actual ass

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it's me and my emotional support "got resurrected but came back wrong as an allegory of jesus" characters against the world (kiriona art by cabramso)

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Thinking about how Jayce functions as Arcane’s grim reaper esc character.

Also lowkey how Jayce represents a longing death and Viktor represents a corrupt life.

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I spend a freaking hour on this nonsense

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There’s a very easy way to get around the fact that Assad is unable to pass for a teeenager if the show wants to adapt TVA and that’s to rely on the theme of unreliable narration. Armand begins retelling his history and according to him, he looked like he was in his early adulthood. No older than twenty four, for sure, but also not any younger than twenty. And then, just when the audience has bought it, just when this version of events has been presented as the truth for long enough, someone questions it. Asks if he really looked like that. Asks if he’s being honest with himself. And for the briefest moment, we flashback to Amadeo, the age he was when Marius first saw him. Beaten, shackled, afraid. And undeniably a child.

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For the love of god if you don’t want to cry do not listen to There It Goes by Maisie Peters and think of Louis (single and healing for the first time in a century) De Pointe Du Lac.

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blue, like the rooftops of the city over yonder blue, like the ghosts of brothers long gone blue, like the crystalized hope of tomorrow blue, like my hair he'd braid gently when long blue, like the ocean that drowned all my sorrows blue, like the smoke of my sister's last song

Day 8: Blue

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See the part of me that loves Vi Jinx Caitlyn and Ekko is being fed and thriving but the part of me that loves Jayce Mel and Viktor is being starved

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Kinda crazy that the process of Lyctorhood is so incredibly traumatizing and debilitating.

Ianthe can’t stop shaking and is crazier than usual post soul consumption. Desperately trying to bury Naberius’ soul.

Harrowhark can’t focus. screaming and crying at the fact Gideon sacrificed herself. She literally won’t absorb her soul to completion.

We know that for Augustine and Mercymorn the process was similar to Harrows with their respective cavaliers killing themselves to force Augustine and Mercy to complete the Lyctorhood process.

Apparently Anastasia’s and Samael’s was so fucking traumatic it’s literally talked about like it’s the number one Lyctor incident™️

Camilla’s and Palamedes subversion of Lyctorhood is also incredibly traumatic. Literally the death of both souls to become one.

So what I find so interesting about this is that we know John and Alecto’s Lyctorhood was off the scales traumatic. Alecto’s entire being gets nuked all the while John is pushed headfirst into an ocean he’s barely waded in. All of his friends have died in front of him. The people most guilty for killing the planet before he nuked the place are leaving. They are leaving everyone behind to die.

Reading it I 100% understood why Alecto chose John.

Sad. Insane. Vengeful, John.

Because somehow he did it all on his own.

The fact he stopped all of humanity’s hearts before they got brutally blown up. The fact the two who suffered the actual nuclear affects was John and Alecto is incredibly telling to me.

What also really struck me is that in this complete and utter disarray as John breaks everything around him. He absorbs as much of Alecto’s soul as he can and makes a body for her.

While I think it’s hilariously awful that he put the literal spirit of the earth in a body that looks exactly like Hollywood hair Barbie. But when I read it I was almost in awe about that vulnerable admittance of something he acknowledges as a screw up.

What really got me though was the reasoning in that moment was not cruel nor was there much reasoning at all in that moment.

John who has just lost all his friend. John who has failed. John who is destroying the block tower. John who is reduced to base instinct. John who wants vengeance. In a moment of pure insanity decides he can save the planet he loves. The planet he promised he’d save, the planet he has hurt. And literally tears open his own body, makes her a vessel out of blood, tears, and vomit. He makes her a body out of grief and trauma. A body perfect to carry his own eyes his own windows to his soul.

All he can cling to is a memory of playing with dolls. How he has a base want in his subconscious of wanting the earth to live. To have all the adventures.

John in a moment of insanity somehow manages perfect Lyctorhood.

We know the remaining soul of the earth could have become a resurrection beast. Hell John has already flooded the river with billions of souls but he saves and curses Alecto. In the exact same way she has cursed and saved him.

It kind of drives me crazy. When people think someone could have done better because the text has backed it up with multiple examples that their is nothing closer to perfect Lyctorhood then what John miraculously pulled off.

Alecto chose John because he is genuinely the only person that could pull it off.

But the problem of the story which is the problem of everything single character is that John is and always will be just a man sharing his soul with the literal earth.

John is fascinating because the asshole was actually somehow the best option.

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The locked tomb theory cause it’s on my brain once again. We know John and Alecto achieved Lyctorhood to about as perfect as that situation extends.

We also know that by combining your soul with another and then halving the new mixture gives traits of one to the other.

Alecto has John’s eyes

John has Alecto’s

They both seemed to have interchanged both of their anger.

But thinking back to Nona.

And the fact Harrow when reliving Alecto’s memories they were still also John’s

I wonder how much of Nona is John.

The wonder at the end of the world.

The love and hate for school.

The love of novelty T’s

Nona’s fits that are so very much Alecto’s but by proxy John’s

The way John strings together sentences when he’s not playing god.

It genuinely reminds me also of how Harrowhark is narratively paralleling John.

And how Gideon parallels Alecto.

It’s funny too that if so much of Nona is John how very much like her dad Gideon is.

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im a bisexual with a bad knee bet most of you are too

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Putting it out into the universe that if anyone out there happens to have that one Arcane tarot deck that they want to resale for a reasonable price that I am looking.🙏