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Why would

You

Put your faith

And hopes and dreams

In me?

I don't want to disappoint anyone

So why did you

Expect more

From me?

I'll always only let you down.

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When you are a child,

You dream that the world is a kind place

That the monsters in the history books will stay there

And that the past will remain passed

When you are older, my child

You will realize

The monsters in the history books

Are dormant, never dead

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I don't know why, I cannot know how

But when I look at your eyes

The love has gone cold

And Dad, I don't know what I've done

To deserve to be the object

Of your distaste

I thought if anything I could know

No matter what, you would be there

My rock solid foundation

To cling to when hope runs out

But now that time has come

My cup runs dry

And I turn to you

Father of mine, tell me

Why has the love gone out of your eyes?

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This isn't right

It shouldn't have ended up like this

Why am I here again?

No.

This is wrong.

The world shouldn't be moving.

Time shouldn't keep going.

I need it to stop.

Why won't it stop?

The world shouldn't move on from this,

And what's more,

Why does it expect me to move on as well?

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I don't even push them away anymore

I let them stay around,

Grab a drink,

Play a game,

And then they leave on their own.

And it isn't even scary anymore

I just shrug my shoulders,

Eyes forward,

I press on

And I'm still where I was before.

An unwilling host to a parasite that once stood a thousand feet tall, reduced to

An impermanent resident of a house too tired to reject them, and too apathetic to care

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My personal theory is that Kinger doesn't abstract because he saw for a moment that Queenie could be calmed down after being abstracted and he holds on to hope that she can come back, and that keeps him from abstracting.

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No, you see, there isn't an income cap on disabled people. There's just (DESCRIBES AN INCOME CAP). That's not an income cap, that's just (DESCRIBES AN INCOME CAP). They're not the same thing.

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Things aren't going well perfectly fine i don't know maybe i should end all these thoughts are too loud should i run away from home is where you are nowhere to be found in the uncaring expanse of space that i need right now

My thoughts are unsorted and messy, most of the time i just try to ignore them or push them away

Could you be the one to help me sort them out?

It seems unlikely, but

I doubt I'd have gotten this far without hope

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A solemn goodbye to a world that barely exists

Yet meant the world to me

A heart twice over had been held aloft

A simple San Diegan breeze

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Hold me in your arms,

Keep me safe as my world dissolves.

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The world is darker now,

Than it was the day before,

And I don't know how much longer I can stand it.

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in vain hope that the universe will reach out and wrap me like a warm, celestial blanket so that the loneliness that creeps upon my back may be drowned by the omnipresence of the stars innumerable

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But "thank you" was not a lie,

And neither was when you said goodbye.

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i need to let myself make mistakes and i need you to let me be human

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Hello, strange realization,

Last night I cried to the moon.

I wasn't ready for the fallout,

Hit me like an all out

Raging typhoon.

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I wanna be just like you

But if it turns out that me loving me

Means becoming something you cannot see

Could you forgive me?

Absolve me of the unforgivable sin

Of simply being me?

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i guess it wasn't just a bad dream

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I look in the mirror,

What the hell did you do to you?

I'd take up writing poetry

But you'd probably destroy that, too.