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I did a thing....

Ok, so obviously I haven't been very active on here, and I'm sure what I'm writing seems random to a lot of people, but hey, what can ya do??.

So recently I took up a course that interested me, and now, im starting up my own business.

Freelancing.

From the awesome comfort of my own home.

I don’t have to leave my house if I don’t want to!

Major hermit vibes here obviously.

But seriously, I'm so excited!

Never in my wildest dreams would i have thought i would end up freelancing and running my own business.

This always seemed like something other people do, you know, the grown up ones (even though, at 32, I suppose I'm Technically a grown up) but not me.

Turns out, I'm really excited to do it, to work for myself (while working with others) and all the insane things that go with it.

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Christmas Miracles

It may only be me who feels it, but there is something about Christmas.

I'm sure most people grow out of it, and I'm fairly certain that, for a while, I did too.

But now, its as though the magic of Christmas has returned, full force and, realistically, stronger than ever.

I find myself watching many cheesy Christmas movies these days, a little early perhaps but that ok.

Todays foray into that arena afforded a very simple lessons that I feel we could all use a refresher in.

All children deserve something at Christmas.

It doesn't matter if its big or small, expensive or cheap.

It just has to be something you know they will enjoy.

And the reason why?

There is no such thing as naughty or nice children.

All children are just that.... children.

They don't know how to behave in many circumstances because they do not have the emotional maturity yet to understand exactly what is going on around them, and so they react, to everything, in whatever way they think is right.

As an adult, I understand exactly how they feel, because I myself still struggle with this.

People confuse me, plain and simple, but when there are very specific parameters, then I'm fine, because I know what is expected.

Does that make me naughty because I do not know how to take it when people are people and say and do whatever they want, and expect you to react in a certain way even when you don't truly understand what is happening?

Simply put.... No.

Now, there is always a lot of stress around Christmas, and a lot of parents try to use Christmas year round to control their children's behavior, and i get it, i really do, children are challenging.

But i think we could all use a refresher, this year especially, about what Christmas is really all about.

Making people happy.

Making people feel loved and appreciated and special.

Whether they are the best friend you have known your whole life, the workplace rival you dislike with all your heart, a random stranger in the street or the child throwing a tantrum because they are tired, hungry and have no idea how to express themselves, to communicate their needs properly.

We all deserve a little extra love at this time of year, though ideally it would occur all year round.

So to all the children without families, you are loved!

To all the people celebrating alone, you are loved!

To all the families who are struggling and in distress, you are loved!

To all the friends who have become their own families, you are loved!

To every single person in this wide wide world, you are loved!

And you deserve all the very best things in  life, whatever that may be to you!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Stopping To Smell The Roses

I don't know about you, but I personally find this time of the year to be an absolutely magical experience.

Its Spring, and there and riots of colour breaking out all over the place as flowers bloom.

I often find myself lost in thought as I stare out the window, watching the butterflies frolicking amongst the flowers I didn't even know I had (BONUS!!).

One small downside though.....

I cant stop sneezing.

Its constant.

Its driving me mad.

Thankfully, my love of pretty things and lovely smells seems to outweigh the issues they create, and thank goodness they do.

Because it is relentless.

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Feel The Burn!

So, it turns out that living a sedentary life for several months due to a global pandemic and unemployment as a result, can have a remarkable effect on your body.

I didn't say good, I said it was worthy of remark.

I have found that I have gained weight due to the over abundance of methods for entertainment these days that result in lazing around and not moving for hours and hours on end.

I figured, that's probably not a good thing and maybe, just maybe, I should try to do something about it before it results in more health problems in the long run.

So what did I do?

I took up Yoga. 

Just a simple, quick 15 minute Yoga for Beginners video I found on YouTube.

I honestly didn't expect to feel it in so many areas across my body as I can.

Boy was I wrong!

Of course, that doesn’t make it a bad thing, it just means that it’s working.

Hopefully, soon I will be able to see some results, instead of just feel them.

It simply amazes me that something many people dismiss as just stretching, can actually do so much for ones body.

Fingers crossed, soon, my body may be toned and stronger than it was before, and thank god I have brought myself to such a good place that I can actually motivate myself to do something that before, seemed like such a horrible chore.

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Ho Ho Hope

So, I know a lot of people will think I'm crazy and getting in way too early, but to those people I say the door is ho ho ho-ver there, use it.

After spending years with a partner who didn't see any point in decorating for Christmas because ‘We aren't going to be home on Christmas day, so why bother?’, I finally have a place I can decorate to my hearts content.

Sure, I don't have many decorations, because the ex that doesn't even like Christmas insisted on keeping the decorations, but I'm starting from scratch and getting all my own ones, making me and only me happy.

In a year like this one, wherein hope and happy moments are few and far between for most people, I am making sure I make the most of the moments I can find for me, and helping myself be happy.

Ok, maybe imp relying on Santa to make me happy, but it still counts.

Obviously I know there isn't some mysterious individual out there waiting for one very specific night every year to make all my dreams come true. and spoil me with lots of gifts magically appearing under my tree.

But I don't care.

The cutesiness, the glitter, the sparkling, flashing lights, all of it, makes me happy to be surrounded by.

Even though realistically its just another day, its nice to feel like there is a little magic in the world.

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Weird Questions

You know its been a weird and rough year when someone asks you what should realistically be a very simple question.... Are you feeling any better?

That question shouldn't lead to feelings of confusion, or frustration at lack of understanding, but if it was ever going to happen, this is the year for it.

Someone asked me that today, and we hadn't spoken in a while so i was very confused, until they reiterated it because the last we spoke i had lost a friend from school.

But then, that confused me even more, because that was not the only person i have lost this year and i got so mixed up between the two that I couldn't figure out what that person was referring to.

What an unusual world we live in where deaths can end up blurring together and simple questions can become the very opposite.

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Welcome Back To Happy

This past couple years have been jam packed with life changes, separation, selling the house that was supposed to be the forever home but somehow never felt like home, job change, over working, quitting, months of total and complete isolation, loss of friends through walking away and also a death.

Its been a long hard slog of a road.

But, in saying that, the complete and total isolation, the staying at home completely by myself and only my dog keeping me company has managed to wring some profound changes out of me.

I suppose all of that other stuff contributed too, but whatever it was, I find myself so profoundly and utterly...…. happy these days.

I find myself no longer hesitating to say what i think, and if someone comes into my space and behaves in a manner i disagree with or tries to tell me that my chosen lifestyle isn't good enough for them, then i show them the door, and it doesn't matter if i lose them from my life.

Obviously, they couldn't see the profound sense of happiness i am feeling, and because I don't live the same way they do, then it mustn't be right.

But they are wrong.

I know there are a lot of people in the world these days who are suffering profoundly, struggling with their mental health due to the isolation we are all experiencing and i feel for them, i really do, and i hope they can get the help the need to feel better.

But I am not one of them.

After a lifetime of struggling with the societal norms and the expectations laid on everyone to be the same, to be happy doing and being the same sort of things, and people like me being shunned and treated poorly, everyone is in the same boat I am.

Only, its a boat I like being in, a boat I thrive in, and with any luck, people will start to see the inherent value and appeal that this lifestyle can and does have for people like me.

Fingers crossed.

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Welcome Back To Happy!

It has returned!

The elation has returned to my iso and all it took was one simple act.

Sitting out in the sunshine, reading a book, thats all it took.

In one fell swoop, it returned, and with it my motivation.

Now, my rubbish is out, my dishes are done, the music is cranking, and here i am.

Indulging in a little writing that will no doubt slip by most, completely unnoticed.

But, whether it is read or not is irrelevant, it is more about the simple act of doing so.

Fulfilling a life long dream, practicing for some real stories, and hopefully bring a little brightness into another's day as the sun has brought it into mine.

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Welcome To The Not So Bright Side

Its one of those days.

Woke up, completely fine, had breakfast, completely fine, went on with my day, completely fine.

Only for some reason, today, completely fine doesn’t mean what it should.

It means..... not so fine.

It means a two hour nap of exhaustion even though im not tired.

It means feeling sad, with no real reason able to be pinned down.

Today, the Iso-Elation, is somewhat less with the Elation portion.

Fingers crossed, tomorrow will be better.

Tomorrow is another day,

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Hell-no-ween

Welcome to the new world! Its Halloween today and all around are the sounds of spoiled children screaming for not getting enough of the delicious candy they have searched all over their yards for.

That's right, in this day and age, the popular new trend is Halloween parties at home, treated in much the same way as an Easter egg hunt.

And much like at Easter, no one is happy.

Its never enough, more should have been provided, and since it wasn’t, it needs to be now! Right now!

I however, am enjoying the solitude in my own house, eating my own candy, that I haven't had to search for since I never hid it, and not having to share with anyone.

Does that make me selfish? Sure, but as an individual living only with my dog, i feel like I can be selfish.

And I'm glad that I can, because honestly, it feels good. Supremely good.

Being an introverted loner has turned out to be quite the bonus with the world the way it is right now.

I don't have to visit anyone, I don't have to leave my house if I don't want to, and nobody is expecting me to.

Its like an enormous weight has been lifted off me, as everyone else is now having to adapt to my way of living.

Hopefully, that feeling will be allowed to continue once this pandemic is brought under control, and people will hopefully have learned something during this time and stop judging people for their chosen lifestyles.