itslonewolfbois

[itslonewolfbois]

holy fuck please get all of this purity culture bullshit out of fandom spaces, i'm losing my mind

if you don't want to see something just fucking block people and filter tags, stop harassing artists and writers for making content that makes you "uncomfortable"

just ship and fucking let ship

[itslonewolfbois]

Alive

Hello all! I come to you today with a brief post about my hiatus, and what's happened in the nearly six months since then.

I first would like to apologize for pulling out of RatsSMP so suddenly, it was never the plan, but life circumstances demanded that I focus my attention elsewhere, and I no longer felt comfortable with my opening sequence. I secondly would like to apologize for mostly disappearing. Those who remained in the Discord server were able to make the transition over into the new era, but I left most of you in the dark, and that also was never the plan for the rebrand to my new username. It was meant to be a seamless transition sometime in the new year, username changes instead of new accounts, but I felt it more productive at the time to wipe the slate clean and start over. I managed to clear most of my follower count on Twitch, and restarted on new accounts across X, BlueSky, Tumblr, and TikTok. I don't fully regret this decision, but I do wish I had been more prudent in how I communicated all of this to my community, as so many of you were lost to the scattered skies.

I have rebranded under the username @reisaval across most platforms. I no longer go by Will. You are welcome to follow me under this new name, but things are quite different now. I, myself, am different. There have been good things, such as new and wonderful friends in my life who have been my rock throughout all of this, and I've gotten top surgery, the recovery of which went spectacularly. But with each rose, comes thorns, and I am now finding myself in quite a mess, as I obliterated my regular income with these decisions and the job market has been proving insufficient, and I have several medical bills from the surgery and tax season is upon us. I know it is unfair to ask, especially after vanishing for so long, but anything you can spare as a tip to my Ko-Fi would be immeasurably helpful, and I have also re-listed the older Rats Merch on my old shop in case anyone would like to pick that up.

I never wanted to ask for help in this way, but circumstances demand I reach out. I appreciate every one of you, and I'm so sorry that I have made these errors over the past few months. This was not the plan that I had in place for any of this.

Stay drifting, I hope to see you among the stars.

[itslonewolfbois]

More Jokes With Cyno

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[itslonewolfbois]

I’d really love to be able to play Minecraft again. I hate that people I once cared so much about managed to traumatize me and give me such an aversion to my biggest hyper fixation

I’m trying to start playing it again, but it’s slow going. Still makes me sick to my stomach just to log on. My hands start shaking so bad whenever I try

Why does my brain have to react this way. Why are trauma responses so stupid. I hate this. I want my game back…

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If it weren’t for the fact that all of my friends are online I’d be done with social media

There’s so much unnecessary drama. People are stupid. I’m tired of dealing with it all

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If I were a small, water breathing creature, I’d want to live in a Mangrove Swamp

Something about those tangled roots feels so cozy and welcoming

[itslonewolfbois]

it should be illegal to take a nap and still have a headache when you wake up. like no i shut it off and back on again why are you still here

[itslonewolfbois]

There’s something so fucking dystopian about seeing hurricane update videos from people who were unable to evacuate or clips from news segments informing people how bad this storm is going to be, and the comments section filled with “omg is anyone else on MiltonTok? so invested in this!”

This isn’t a fucking trend. People are going to fucking die. Homes are going to be be destroyed. Real, living people are being drastically effected by this, and you’re treating it like the next big TikTok trend. What the fuck.

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Why do people just expect you to get over things so quickly

“You’ve been through worse, this shouldn’t be that bad for you”

Well it is. Stop being an asshole and give people the time they need to heal

Some things hit people harder than others, even if to outsides it seems like it’s “not that bad” as something you’ve been through before

[itslonewolfbois]

The human body’s stress responses are really fucking stupid

[itslonewolfbois]

Crochet + a warm drink + MythBuster videos = perfect chill time

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[itslonewolfbois]

To my 7th grade best friend,

I know you said that you would be forgotten, but nearly 10 years later your name is still my phone password. I still smile when I see rainbow scratch paper (in fact, I still have the note you wrote me). I still have the mini marker you gave me, the one you had matching that we swore we would sign each others graduation yearbooks with. I still look fondly at cheap tourist keychains. I still call things “majestical” in my head

I still remember how much you loved football, and how even if I didn’t have a clue what you were talking about, it always made me happy to listen to you. I still remember how we vented about our respective horrible parents (my dad, your mom) and how we joked about running away together. I still remember how I would always steal your glasses and wear them while you took my hat and wore it sideways on Fridays. I still remember how you drew me silly pictures and helped me with my art class projects (I still have the siren drawing you made to go with my poem, it’s hanging on my mirror, sorry about the tear in the paper, I did try to fix it)

I know we didn’t keep in touch, how could we? We were kids. Didn’t have phone numbers, you didn’t know the address you were moving to. Hell, you didn’t even know you were moving until the date was right around the corner. But I heard you’re doing well! Started a family, even had a kid! I want you to know that I’m so happy for you, even if I can’t say it directly too you

Maybe you didn’t think you made much of a difference in this town; just a random kid who showed up for 7th grade and then dipped. But you made an impact to me. I still remember how you told me that you didn’t want a funeral when you died. You wanted me to throw your body in a pit in the woods and plant a single black rose over top. You said that eventually it too would die, and that everyone would forget. But if someone years later stumbled across that spot in the woods, they wouldn’t find a normal piece of forest ground. They would find a garden of black roses, because I would go back year after year, planting one more for each precious memory I have of you

I don’t know if we would recognize each other now, I don’t even have the same name anymore. But I like to think that I would know you by your smile. And that you would know me by my coloured aura (I was always a bit skeptical, but you swore you could see them. You said mine was usually blue. I liked to think yours was pink, it would match the highlights in your hair). Maybe if we met again, in this life or another, we would still be friends

It’s been almost 10 years and your name is still my phone password

Love, your potato buddy

[itslonewolfbois]

The internet is a much better place when you never look in the comment section

[itslonewolfbois]

no i don't want to use your ai assistant. no i don't want your ai search results. no i don't want your ai summary of reviews. no i don't want your ai feature in my social media search bar (???). no i don't want ai to do my work for me in adobe. no i don't want ai to write my paper. no i don't want ai to make my art. no i don't want ai to edit my pictures. no i don't want ai to learn my shopping habits. no i don't want ai to analyze my data. i don't want it i don't want it i don't want it i don't fucking want it i am going to go feral and eat my own teeth stop itttt

[itslonewolfbois]

*has 7 breakdown-worthy events in the span of a month and doesn’t realize it until I talk to my therapist*

“I mean yeah it sucks, but I’m coping”

*watch breaks*

“Cool ok so this is the end of the world and I’m just gonna cry for 3 hours straight”