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Happy International Asexuality Day

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Love you Zukka you really are that blue gumball and the hot topic. Unrelated news about the state of the island….

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boy with the hand shaped scar

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People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me

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(10/29/23)

queer and standing with palestine. we're not free unless we're all free

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Marwan Makhoul

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Jon :)

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A mating dance (?)

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EYE OF THE STORM

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You’re alive, and you’re human, and almost everything you feel is a symptom of one of these things. It’s vast and it’s fearful and it’s beautiful all the same. Everything will be okay. It’s Melanie King Monday.

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spotify's search function sucks & also all i do is listen to music so i am making a playlist index post <3

vibes / moods:

for the union makes us strong [protest folk] / fuck you fuck cops up the punx [protest punk] / a goddamn bitch of an unsatisfactory situation [the closet] / on purpose i am going to care about you ["it's rotten work" "not to me not if it's you"] / alpha couple [blorbos from the tmg discography] [NOT just a tmg playlist] / wanna grab ahold of that little songbird [for going insane about late stage capitalism] / i will sing you a song no one sang to me [healing for your inner child's trauma from homophobia] / a sadness runs through him [bastards who went through something terrible and built a whole fake self to cope] / i'll remember your bee [magnolias are so old they're pollinated by beetles because they existed before bees]

sorting blocks by colour (i am autistic i like putting songs that are The Same together):

the dog who is so angry [dogs as allegory for trauma] / Thumbs [what if i killed my partner's abuser] / house made of hurt [oh christ oh fuck the house is alive]

fiction (characters):

purge trooper commander cody [star wars] / in with a cry and out with a gun [jason todd, dc] / no, you move [steve rogers, marvel] / prayer and work [matt murdock, marvel]

fiction (larger concepts):

gotham city / things don't get even, they just get worse [the clone wars, star wars] / how to fade away [obi-wan on tatooine, star wars] / it is already over [the prequel series is a tragedy, star wars] / din's haunted [the dark saber's got ghosts, star wars] / beltalowda [the belt, the expanse]

fiction (relationships):

your fingers round my neck (izzy/ed, ofmd) / the lawyers start to rewrite our history (m*rkwardo, tsn) / nobody loves you like me (mattelektra, marvel) / murderbot&ART / hold me tight and fear me not (lambert/aiden, the witcher) / followed you to patterns i could never get out of (dick & bruce, dc) / fine. because i need you. (zoscar, rqg) / still our hands match (thoschei, doctor who) / two rabid dogs (darth vader/boba fett, star wars)

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While taking a nap today I dreamt there was a hazard sign called "never found" which was used to indicate a location where people disappeared never to be seen again

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When the light goes out … Oogh …

would be funny to revisit this next year I think

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“i don’t like writing about my day, but i want to keep a journal”:

quotes and copywork. when reading, if you find something you enjoy, just copy it into the notebook. you can copy a whole chapter if you wish, highlighting what caught your attention the most.

definitions. look up on a dictionary and copy it. you could write your own dictionary as well, making up definitions for words.

lists. a classic, write movies to watch, books to read, the playlist of the month or just the groceries you have to buy.

maps. when going somewhere, you could draw the route you took or just a map of the place itself. just look up the place on google maps and copy it. you can draw a little map of all the places you have lived or the schools you have attended as well.

photos

take “notes” as you watch movies / documentaries. write down phrases that caught your attention or doodle.

illustrations and clippings. if you see an image or piece of art that you liked, put it in your journal. if it’s from a book or from a magazine I would recommend scanning it, tho’. it will serve as a record of what kind of art you enjoy through the years.

newspaper clippings from the day.

tickets and pamphlets. from movies, museums, transportation.

postcards

records. you could record for a month what the temperature was when you woke up and when you went to sleep. if you do that for a year, it gives you a better notion of the passing of seasons. you could record rainfall and other seasonal changes as well. you could choose something (an animal, a plant, an item or object) and write down every time you see it.

rubbings of leaves, coins, landmarks.

count. there’s a scene in the movie Coraline (2009) where Coraline’s dad tells her to go count the windows. you could do the same type of counting game if you are bored and write down.

mindmaps/sketchnotes + timelines of books, movies, music albums.

collages

pressed leafs and flowers

your collections. if you collect anything you could write down an inventory or maybe try to draw the items.

recipes. write down recipes and give it a score every time you try it. you could do the same for drinks you try out.

stickers

comic strips. you can find a bunch of it online, glue your favorites in your notebook.

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posts that make me want to rip my heart out part 5