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Silence

Silence

Festering inside me Are things Left unsaid

Words that are Meant to spoken But are swallowed  

Trapped

Captive

In the cell I call my heart

These words were Meant to touch you

But they never did

These words were Meant to hurt you

But they never did

Words of joy Words of wisdom Words of anger Words of sorrow Words of love Words for friends Words that say nothing Words that say everything

All these words that were meant To leave me

But they never did

- Ivan Ventura

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Viciousness

Viciousness

The closer we got The more violent the reaction

Every word built walls Every word cut ties

And still we drew closer We lusted for destruction To destroy each other To destroy ourselves

Madness overcame us To be at peace Was a knife in our hearts

Flies attracted to fire The Immolation of the spirit

Our blood was shed The offering to a blood god

With eyes vacant A cheerful smile Scars hidden We lived our days

But no matter how violent The reaction It will end

And so did ours The red fades to Black and even that Fades to grey

From pain to emptiness

But on strange nights The grey gets dull And the red I wish for it back

- Ivan Ventura

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The Keeper

The Keeper

From across the street To the house down the road To the other side of town Or the town next over To the big city far away

From state to state Or a country over there

To a different a sky To another planet

Solar systems come And solar systems go

From galaxy to galaxy To the ends of the universe And the other side

In the darkest corners In the brightest lights

As time grinds it all away My words will always find you

Memories fade and people forget Things come and go

And even when you’re gone When everything is blown away

The past will always remember it Things are never truly lost

- Ivan Ventura

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Anamnesis

Anamnesis

It feels so strange To walk through these Halls

A nostalgic trip The once Bright colors Now faded

As walk up those stairs I see a little child and His sister run Down the stairs

Ghosts of the past

I enter the faded pink Door A room filled With broken toys And things left unsaid

And on the stand a diary All the word smudged Except for the last page The final words

Forget Me Not

- Ivan Ventura

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To Try And Not Succeed

To Try And Not Succeed

As I spread it all out I reach for the farthest corners I exert all my strength All my soul

I burn my life away With strength that destroys And breaks the body

All for this one moment

But even with zealous Determination

I still can’t… It still won’t…

Wings that don’t reach

- Ivan Ventura

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Hand In Hand

Hand In Hand

On the advent of Disaster

When the waves Keep pounding and Pounding

As the air turns heavy As your stomach sinks

And you feel like You can vomit Butterflies

As your precious World turns upside Down

As those walls Slowly close in

Don’t walk away Don’t do it by Yourself

Let us cling together

- Ivan Ventura

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Cloudy

Cloudy

I only see in fragments Like broken pieces of A mirror

And while I only see in part One day I’ll see in full

Out of doubt’s Shadow

- Ivan Ventura

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To Decide

To Decide

I have done many things I have made many mistakes

But I have no remorse Because these Choices are my own

I am not a puppet attached To strings

Be it evil Be it good Be it kind Be it violent Be it right Be it wrong

These choices are my own And I am my choices

- Ivan Ventura

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Ignite

Ignite

Shinning so brightly An inferno aflame so Let it burn out not

- Ivan Ventura

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To A Friend - 3

Its that time of year again so to my dear friend Happy Birthday.

It’s That Time

Another year Another month Another day One year older One year stronger I know sometimes thing are tough I know sometimes it hurts

But the strength I have I learned from you Cathy as you grow older The more you amaze me

I want your kindness I want your spirit of adventure I want your craziness

You are who you are And you never apologize

So on your Birthday remember All the things that brought you There

And remember your greatest friend When I’m not there he is there He walks beside you He is love And he love You

My friend My partner in crime You’re much stronger than you think

Happy Birthday Crazy Girl Happy Birthday Pretty lady Happy Birthday Girl who owes me money

Never apologize Never concede Never Give up

So Happy Birthday You who inspires so many

- Ivan Ventura

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Drip

Drip

A long sleepless night Only the drops of the rain Make this body rest

- Ivan Ventura

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To Break Apart

To Break Apart

Madness overcomes me The strings that Held me together are becoming Undone

The stuffing of My soul comes out Things that should stay Inside

But the more that comes out The more I like it As delirium overtakes me As delusions clouds my vision I’m filled with hysteria I’m filled with frenzy

Your words have broken me Your look has flayed me And your actions have undone me But no more

As I look at your bloodied self.

- Ivan Ventura

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What To Do?

What To Do?

Decisions are Hard I know it to well

But you can’t stand still Not forever at least

Don’t paralyze yourself Like that

So make your choice Be good, or don’t be

- Ivan Ventura

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Aegis

Aegis

You held my world up With all your strength all your might Never did you tire

- Ivan Ventura

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Choice

Choice

Please forgive yourself You hold the key to those chains Let your soul be free

- Ivan Ventura

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The Lust

The Lust

Steel soaked with red blood An orgy of pure violence Fight and rage rage rage

- Ivan Ventura

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The Cycle

The Cycle

I thought I was right Righteousness slipped from my hand Replaced with falseness

- Ivan Ventura