jayisanemoig

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you know i'd do anything

if it were still yesterday

no more eyes for i love you's

you already took my heart and brains

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logging off of the internet cause i won’t be able to join in on the chaos of buying tickets this time

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no but seriously imagine it

no but seriously imagine it

you're at the last tit show and right when you think it ends dan says he has a surprise as he gets down on one knee and proposes to phil on stage. and if it couldn't get any better, my chemical romance and fall out boy walk on stage singing welcome to the black parade

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RAWR XD ITS HALLOWEEEN!!!

happy halloween my fellow emos i hope yall have fun raising the dead tonight <3

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panic! at the emo x3 day 8

first of all sorry bout the last post i really dont like getting that serious. im all about the shitz and gigglez. i luv my life lol. also hai its been awhile sorry to my 2 readers i've just had a lot on my plate lately but now we should be getting back to your regularly scheduled program.

so yall, i was gonna tell yall before i went to the concert but um we can see how that turned out,,, anywhoo guess who i saw in concert!?!?!?! well u cant answer cuz ur just reading this and now im kinda talking to myself atp lol. i saw the greatest duo of all time, oh the child i was, depressed, holding on by a thread, and these guys helped me through it all. the one and the only's, TWENTY ONE PILOTS!!! literally worlds cannot describe how much this concert meant to me especially in the kind of stressful times im in right now. ive been listening to twenty one pilots since like 3rd grade and their music is just something that i hold near and dear to my heart. the concert itself was amazing too. it was a stadium and me and my older sibling and their friends are all kinda poor so we were up in the nosebleeds :/ but honestly i dont think it really made a difference because between all the theatrics and both josh and tyler randomly appearing in the stadium seats it still is one of the best concerts ive been to.

so ive been gone awhile haha, and theres kinda a better explanation for that. last thursday i left for a trip with my aunt, uncle, and lil cousin to go hiking and stuff in michigan. and it was an alright trip. i didn't have any weed during the trip so thats what kinda made it "alright" TwT which to some may seem a lil addictive but i can assure you that im not addicted lol :0 i really only use when im going out or trying to calm down im not a day to day user usually. but anyways i had wanted to bring some so i could use while we went on our hike and also on the boat tour but things happened and the plug did not show :( (aka my older sibling was gonna give me a dispo they didnt like but they ended up not being able to run it to me before i left) but it was still a cool trip i enjoyed the scenery of the national parks we went to n stuff and the hike was also so cool and ill never forget it. i also lost my belly button ring on that hike. i went in with it on and left with it missing ig?!?!? but yeah that kinda sucked ig but luckily the hole didnt close by the time i got home so yeah a win is a win.

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there are. amazing things goin on over at twitter rn

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GUYS TWIGHLIGHT HAS BALLS AT 28 SECONDS INTO S4 EP 22 WHAT IN THE NAME OF CELESTIA!?!?!?!?

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i need to go run laps after this

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panic! at the emo x3 day 7

tw: spiraling and hopelessness

i dont think ive ever known burn out like i do now. its everyday, a new mess, a new problem, a new favor, but never a new day. never something different. im always doing things for other people. im always sacrificing my time, my mental health, my entire life, for everyone else. yeah, ill have fun days, concerts, day trips, hanging with friends (rarely), but its never enough. i always just end up feeling empty. ive felt so empty for so long. like im giving my all and getting nothing in return. why did i lose so many of my friends? why am i always being ridiculed and degraded by my own family? how come no matter what i do it's never enough for anyone? why can't i have one day of peace? one day where i don't have to be responsible for anyone else. one day where im not used, or hurt, or left crying in my room, wondering where it all went wrong. one day where i can feel ok. am i not enough? do i deserve all that is thrown at me? am i supposed to be sad forever? i don't wanna feel like this anymore, but i just don't know how im gonna stop it. im trapped. trapped physically by not being allowed to get a job, and trapped mentally by not being able to control my own emotions. it seems like im never gonna escape my prison. the iron bars are too thick for me to even see through. i've never liked the question, "where do you see yourself in x amount of years?", because i cant even see myself in 2 days. i can't picture my future, because my present is holding me back like the past. im always stuck in the now. ill be stuck in now forever. it seems like my life will never change.

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its officially ice nine kills season x3 (silver scream is on repeat)

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panic! at the emo x3 day 6

ok so it definitely NOT the day after the used concert OR even the day after the korn concert but im TRYING . ive been so just busy and exhausted and like 3 concerts in 2 weeks really does wear u out. anyways lets talk the used, that concert was GREAT XDD X333 i was literally almost right in front like literally 2 people between me and the barrier i was SO CLOSE TO BERT. im so upset bro didnt play all that ive got tho i was bout to jam OUT. pretty handsome awkward was the opening song obvs and it was BANGIN. me and bert made eye contact but i forget which song it was during, but i know i was singin my little heart out when he was starin at me while the strobes gouged my eyes out. i loved ever second of that concert and i can't wait for more experiences like that fr fr like i was on my own yall i did that big girl style x3

little filler story; i was supposed to be meeting my friend's girlfriend who had just flown in from virginia, and we were gonna go to my friends' school's hoco game and stuff. and lemme tell ya i was kinda excited cuz this chick is cool and i wanna be her friend SO BAD. but that damn hurricane helene blew a storm our way and cancelled our game woo and so i didnt get to meet her and she flew back home :( maybe next time i tell myself

so i saw korn and it was really cool. first crowd ive seen for a metal concert that wasnt mainly one age group like there was a good balance of old and new heads. which is so refreshing to see after so many years of being like the youngest at the concert lol xd but it was great. i loved john davis's showmanship like bro is still rockin it like its woodstock 99. that goes for the whole band too i loved everyone and everything to do with that show it was everything i could have hoped for. i also got a 90 dollar zip up jacket that says "always a freak" on the back with the korn logo on front. great purchase id say. cuz im a freak on a leash fr.

i have one more concert im going to this year and this ones a big one yall.... stay tuned for the blog cuz imma be up in this b BLOGGIN XD thank you to the small few people who have at least read and acknowledged my blogs ily so much and thank you.

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srry gerard way but pretty handsome awkward kinda hits hard asf

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panic! at the emo x3 day 5

its time, the day ive been waiting for, THE USED!!!! im so excited that im gonna like explode xP the concert starts at 8 but we getting there when doors open at 7 so we have a good spot cuz its a general admission standing room and whatnot. its only noon and im like literally trying my best to be patient but im so so so so excited. also im indeed not going to this concert alone i will be accompanied by a good friend of mine who doesn't really listen to the used but like my mommy said i had to go with someone and i could go alone >:( but ig it'll be just as fun with a friend n stuff.

im also literally so thankful i have opportunities like this. ive been to so many concerts and most my friends haven't even been to one. but yk when ur hyperfixation is live music and concert culture you kinda just make it happen. thats why when i start getting paid imma start going to concerts with my friends more cuz im not gonna be this young forever and i wanna do a bunch of shit before i have actual responsibility. just tryna build that mom lore yk.

anywhoo i have this concert today and im gonna blog bout it tomorrow but also.... IM SEEING KORN ON SATURDAY!!!! ive had this concert planned for months and its finally around the corner and i couldn't be happier. ik my whole thing is that im emo and stuff but like i love me a little of every genre, and you'll be able to see that whenever i decided imma do a concert list reveal. im not picky when it comes to music. i love everything, every genre has a time and place with me. i have a very open taste in music fr fr fr. so imma also blog about korn on sunday :3

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reblog this if you see your favorite band

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panic! at the emo x3 day 4

lol its kinda been awhile, not like anyone reads this to care but i still wanna stay consistent :') anywhoo, my life since my last post has been interesting to say the least. i went to a megadeath concert ig? well we didnt stay for megadeath we just watched the openers cuz ig thats who my lil cousin and aunt went there for. i didnt really know any of the bands i just went as a last minute replacement of my uncle cuz he worked lmao. but it was alright yk. this group of people next to me were tryna get this kid my age ig to flirt with me and it was kinda weird... so that kinda wrecked the vibe most the time. but then after the concert we went to ihop x3 i got french toast w strawberryz x3 <3 and some other side junk that i really didnt want but panicked and ordered anyway x( but it was fun n shtuff.

speaking of concerts... IM SEEING THE USED ON WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!! XDDDDDDD i'm literally so excited i'm gonna rawr xd fr. this is also prob gonna be my first concert alone :000 i'm honestly so excited cuz like omg im so mature and an adult and things tehehehehe. i turn 18 in jan so i'm trying to make those small steps to being prepared for adulting n stuff. i feel like i'm already mostly ready tho. i already am so independent when it comes to most things. money tho, not yet, but that's because of my mother but i'm working on that. anyways. the used. THE USEDDDD. i'm so excited fr im boutta be boppin and hoppin and screamin and dancin. i honestly wanna try so hard to be there right as the doors open cuz i its general admission and i'm tryna be in the PIT. i can't wait to tell yall all about it this is my emo dream x3

also if yall want a reveal of all the concerts ive been to and if u wanna hear me ramble all about them and my experiences lmk cuz i am a loser and i have a lot to say abt concerts cuz they r my permanent hyperfixation <3333