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This is nice.

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Blues on blue

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a brand new feeling

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Y’all really interpreted “no one is entitled to your presence or your time” to mean “treat the people around you like video game NPCs and explain nothing.”

Y’all keep doing this thing where you push good advice to a place where it becomes mean and devoid of empathy; there is really a difference between self-care and total self-interest.

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There are things that aren’t really meant to be.

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I want you, but you’re not sure what you want...unsure if you wanted me too. And you dont even treat me like you do. I just dont want to get to the point that I get to lose interest. Because when I do. Dont go looking for me.

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Seek the fire that ignites your passions and not the kind that burns them down.

The Carcoleptic

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One last day before the year ends. Last day of the year to tell someone special that they are.

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The World is quiet here.

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TRAIN THOUGHTS

(A Short Story)

Sometimes you just don’t want to listen to music, hear nothing but only the sound of your surroundings. People talking, whispering, the sound of the rails as the train passes while you at the platform.

Sometimes you don’t feel like you belong. You just don’t even care anymore, even if people brush your shoulders, step on your toe, or cut the line in front of you in the station.

The only deafening sound is the silence, your silence- like you don’t wanna talk. Or open up to someone- to anyone.like there is no one to talk to but to the people you loved who are not in this world anymore.

All the sound- noises the surrounding makes. Blurs out. As the last buzz of the door rang- you hear nothing. Not the people, the sound the rail makes. Nothing. But only your feet pushing deeper in the ground. That eerie heavy sound. Heavy of all the things you are carrying inside yourself.

You kept holding on the railing inside the train. Your bag down in between your feet- You keep holding nothing in your mind- you just... stare at the horizon- over the houses and buildings that block it. You just feeling nothing but the lightness of your being, floating away at the far horizon view.

Then one passenger stands up and you take his seat. You go back to hearing everything again. Get to feel others legs or shoulders while seated.

Thoughts of the day go back slowly but you don’t want to think about it really.

Because it is when you felt nothing where you felt everything good about this world.

You start to everything hear again...the people talking, whispering. The sound of the rails as the train goes. You look outside but its still far from your stop. The door buzzes loudly- doors opening. You just stared at it as it close. You’re far from home yet but you’ll get there before the day ends.

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You really get into me

Even without doing anything

You really get into me

Even without doing anything

Its the way you move

And the way your eyes crosses mine

Like brown leaves touching the air

Then sets at the ground in little time.

You really get into me

The way your voice echo

More than ten time deep

Like stepping on crisp autumn leaves

I tried but can’t approach you

I’d love to, but uneasy to start

And I see you do too

Like different seasons cant be at the same time

I get excited just seeing you

In my peripheral-

I get to feel you

When we greet and pass by

I know this will end

And we’ll start talking

But living in this moment

A couple of possibilities, loving of nothing.

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If you decide to love someone - Miles Carter

https://youtu.be/mR6RUVoj_4k

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at my current job.

Today hasn’t been good. There were alot of strikes made. I dont feel like im being punished. I feel more like, Im being dumbed down and left alone...then isolated. And its keeps getting worse like I feel like breaking down and crying from the inside then out. I can only think of this day to be over.

Im not sure if tomorrows gonna bring any change. I dont look forward to it. And I do not have any thing to look forward to. I just dont know-

I feel defeated and giving up. I feel down.

I feel like doing nothing and just sleep all day.

I need...People to look up to. To surround myself with people to look up to. To day dream of. I want to be with them that it would push me and make me eagerly happy to learn with them. To look forward learning the things Ive been wanting to learn while living. Not just to be used but to be able to contribute. And to feel fulfillment. To be working hard but happy.

But right now Im just in the little side of my quiet and isolated corner.

I can only think-

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Bad Days & Appetite

Im in the point of my life where If Im having a bad day, I can put all the negativities and focus them on my appetite. Making me not fucking hungry.

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