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Star-crossed Lovers 1

Ancient Korea

pairing: jungkook x reader

genre: angst, prince jungkook, maid/court lady reader, ancient korea

word count: 3 531

description: A love has blossomed between two unlikely partners, a love that has been doomed from the start. Jungkook promised to elope with you, but it just so happens that a marriage was brought upon him to provide peace and prosperity to the land.

note: this has been in my notes for so long, and i wrote this when i was at the hospital doing check ups with my grandfather. this is heavily inspired by scarlet heart and then i based the plot on my imagination while listening to taeyeon’s all about you and heize’s can you see my heart. please be nice to me,,, lol.

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I carried the tea sets cautiously holding my back straight, as I walked through the halls with the other court ladies in tow.

I offered a soft knock to the double doors that opened to see the brothers enjoying each others company. I offered my bow to pay my respects, and carefully walked behind the older brother's lane with the four other court ladies following behind me. I remained standing as they knelt down and carefully placed the tea sets onto their respective tables and poured the princes their tea, I kept my head low as I slowly raise it and meet the eyes of the youngest prince. I offered him a small smile to which he responded with a small nod and a smile of his own.

And our relationship was just a simple courtesy to the eyes of the public, but it was more than that - so much more than that.

It was past midnight when I decided to have some time for myself, and rest by the big rocks near the lake. The time and place where I am most free just like the moon and the stars; the place where I met the prince, and the place where I loved him at liberty.

"Hey, I'm here." I turned my head around and saw Prince Jungkook standing by the rocks, in all his glory. A smile on his face and his hands placed behind his back.

I sighed and turn my back on him again. "I thought we promised to never meet like this again, Your Highness."

The thick clothes he wears crumpled as he walked towards me, then he sighed. "Then you've got to give me a reason to stop coming here," he ended sitting beside me. That makes the two of us.

I pursed my lips into a thin line and I proceeded to stand, starting to walk away when I turned back on the lake. "Then, I shall take my leave."

"Wait," he said catching my hand as he did so. I turn my head to him with curiosity. "Spare me a few minutes?" I started to opened my mouth to protest however I was cut off. "Just to see the stars."

I sighed looking down on him with a frown. "Your Highness if we're caught,"

"I know, I promise we won't." He looked and smiled at me, and although I was against it - I knew I was fooling myself. So, I sat down at rocks that faced the lake before him.

The moon was shining so bright, the stars were twinkling, the lake was so inviting and god he's beside me. It’s been a few months since we last saw each other like this, I steal a look to him and the sight made me catch my breath.

He had his arms stretched behind him as he looks up in the night sky. Seeing him underneath the moonlight makes him look so ethereal, so beautiful, even a beautiful Chinaware could never compare to this sight.

The prince always looks the best underneath the dark sparkling sky, when everyone is asleep and it is quieted down, where his eyes shines the brightest as they twinkle like the stars in the night sky, when he's more free than ever; smiling and laughing to his hearts content, free to be himself.

Free to love and be with me.

"I missed you in the few months I was gone," he said quietly looking through the waters of the lake, as if he can see what's beyond it and he’s getting lost into it. "You were all I think about when I look up the night sky."

He turned his head to me as he said this and his eyes held so much emotions that it overwhelmed me and I had to look away, before I start to drown in them and wholly submit myself to him.

We can't be together, and there should never have been an us to begin with. "I-"

"You'll reject me again," he cut me off, smiling bitterly at me. "I know how much you hate being in here Y/N, I know how much you long to be free, to be like the birds and fly. You don't belong to a place where your wings are contained, you're something more than that Y/N, and I want to give those to you. If you'd let me."

"Your Highness, I-"

"Jungkook," He insisted. It’s been so long since I last seen him, that I forgot how his name felt like on my lips.

I let out a shaky breath as I try to control my breathing. "Jungkook." I wanted to cry when I said his name, it finally felt right. "Spare me the declaration of love because we can't be together," I said looking at his eyes determined to get things straight as they should be.

Jungkook held my stare as his bitter smile was pulled to a frown. "Why are your eyes brimming with tears?"

"It's the wind," I said as I turn my head away from him.

He sighed and turned my face to him, holding my face with his two hands. "Y/N, if you'll accept me. I promise to get you out of here, we will live far away from the castle. We will live by our own, build a small farm for our family, we shall never live as royals or as servers, we will live as equals who adore and love each other." Jungkook declared, his eyes brighter than ever. It held so much more than determination and rigor, those eyes held promises and love.

"But the king marry his children off to families of the same standard in society, Jungkook, I'll be beaten to death for seducing a prince." I replied in a whisper, finally letting a tear fall; convincing myself in my head is painful but hearing it out loud was heartbreaking.

The world is so unfair.

Jungkook swallowed and he wiped my tear with his thumb. "Then, let's run off, together. I can ask the other princes for help."

"Jungkook-" he did not let me finish.

"I will send for someone to bring you by the streams, on the next full moon, be ready by then."

I didn't want to admit it but my heart was leaping for joy, it was everything I have ever wanted. Away from here, where I am free, and I am with Jungkook. Although I had convinced myself to walk away from him, his determination made me believe that this is worth a shot. The heart wants what it wants, after all. "Then, I shall await for you."

There was no one by the lake at the next full moon.

Jungkook had to leave for a few months to meet and discuss politics and relations with the neighboring kingdom. He left me a letter explaining all this and included his excitement for the next full moon at his return. Jungkook expressed his feelings about the current standings of the political issues present in the kingdom. He wrote about how he wanted to address this, this plan he had was also sent to the crown prince, Prince Namjoon.

Jungkook wishes to help the poor living beyond the South, they aren't considered as our people, but they were our people - exiled from the kingdom. It was a five page letter, that had four pages of it him talking about his kingdom.

He'll be a great king, if the gods will let him.

During the day, I would let myself be absorb with nothing but my work, trying to let myself to not be sad by the fact that I am missing someone though I hate to admit it. I would turn and wait everyday by the lake during the night as I bury myself in my thoughts; thinking of him, the only place where I am free from the judging eyes of others and it's just me with an imaginary Jungkook by my side.

It was early in the morning when the castle made a huge commotion, I was delegating the tasks for today writing them with the brush when I was interrupted.

"Court Lady Y/N, please prepare the feast tonight on the 7th Prince's return." My ears perked up, my heart caved in that it painfully felt good, suddenly it felt like I waited for this man for thousands years. The long nights alone are gone, and finally, the full moon is only a few days away. I can finally live the life I wish to live and be with the person I love. "Double the food and pick a larger area for the feast, he has brought his fiancée with him and the lady's family."

I stood still after hearing that, I dropped the brush I was holding. "His what?"

"Fiancée."

My heart was heavy, and tears immediately held themselves within my eyes. I responded to her with an affirmative nod, and bowed, indicating that she may leave.

I extended my arms and placed my hands on the table. I pulled my head down, and closed my eyes tight trying to prevent myself from crying. But my tears and heart betrayed me, as the tears continuously fall onto the paper, blotching what I had written so far. I bit my lip as I try to sit back down to calm myself down.

What can I do? I'm merely a lady who works at the court and tend to the princes, my rank is nowhere near theirs, how can I fight for him in a fair fight in this world?

I was outside, tending to the plants that has been cut for the use of it as a decorative ornament, when he arrived. "The 7th Prince has returned!" I turn my head.

"Princess Jangmi and her family have arrived."

The other lower ranked ladies buzzed around and started gossiping. "That must be Prince Jungkook's fiance!"

"Oh wow she's a beauty alright."

She was a goddess. Probably, the prettiest one I have ever seen.

I observed them from afar, The couple taking the lead as her family walked behind them towards the main hall. I stood behind a tree.

Jungkook was walking with Princess Jangmi at his tow, but he stopped walking and my heartbeat stopped because I thought he was going to turn to look at me, but he didn't. He tilted his head back, peeking upon the princess, Princess Jangmi was simply walking straight looking down and she accidently bumped to Jungkook's back. She looked up at him and smiled sheepishly, he offered her a smile and chuckled turning to face her to say something. They walked side by side together after that encounter.

Jungkook seems fond of her, she was endearing that even I was enamoured by her. It will always start that way, subtle smiles and eye-contacts, give them a few months and I'm sure they'll be all over each other. I don't think I can bear to see that happen with my eyes.

"Court Lady, the Emperor is asking for you to thank you and give you a toast for the feast you have prepared."

I sighed and proceeded to show myself, I have been standing behind the tree for quite a while. "I heard he's planning on granting you a wish my lady." My lips quiver and I continuously blinked my eyes to refrain the tears from falling.

"Let's go." I said as I walked out of my room. I did my absolute best for the preparation for this feast, to be granted that one wish.

As I enter, the emperor didn't give me the time to react when he suddenly stood up and held his cup high. "Court Lady Y/N, a toast to you for holding a very festive and remarkable banquet for the 7th Prince's return and the announcement of his marriage." The people cheered and I heard the cups clink with each other.

My eyes stung and my heart hurt when he said the last sentence. It's ironic how in the place full of people, it has been the loneliest I have felt. I smiled as I look down and bowed respectfully to give my gratitude for the toast given for me. "You're too kind, Your Majesty."

I heard him belt a boisterous laugh, and I continued to look down. I may never be able to hold myself if I lock eyes with Jungkook.

"Then, for having done your absolute best, I shall grant you a wish. Whatever it may be, I will see to it that it happens."

I opened my mouth to say something, but quickly held myself back. Can I ask for his youngest son's marriage? Can I ask for him to cancel his marriage? "I do not deserve such a thing, your majesty."

"Court Lady Y/N, I insist."

My heart felt heavy again, and my eyes starts to feel hot. It feels blasphemous asking for this, it would be like asking to be hanged - right here, right now. I took a deep breath and opened my mouth. "I wish to leave the court, your majesty. I wish to leave near the farms and live my life quietly and contently there."

It was quiet when I finished; rather having the feeling freedom, it felt like another boulder was placed upon my shoulder, but I held my ground. They would probably have the guards to throw me in the dungeons to rot. "I shall grant you your wish, but may I ask for your further assistance for my son's marriage?"

I didn't think it was possible but my heart broke more than it already has when I heard about this favor. I wanted to be gone by the time the wedding came, but it was a price to pay for the freedom I have always wanted. "That I shall, your majesty." I said bowing.

He laughed yet again, and allowed me to leave the banquet. Jungkook and I just met at the wrong lifetime, I wish to meet him in my next life and pick up our story from where we left off. Somehow, a weight was lifted off my shoulder when I thought of it this way.

The days and nights were shorter after that banquet, as if the world wants the marriage to happen as soon as possible. I prepared for the feast of their wedding and banquet for 2 months, and I prepared it just how I wished my wedding would be like.

This will be my parting gift for Jungkook and his bride. I truly wish them the best and to thrive, though Jungkook will never be the king due to the number of older brothers he has. I believe he'll have a seat in the government, at the very least. His dreams and aspirations cannot just end because he's the youngest son. He'll be so more than what people expected him to be, and I can't wait for everyone in this kingdom to see just how amazing he truly is, how passionate he is when he loves and set his mind onto something. It kind of upsets me that I could never see this Jungkook, but I have learned that acceptance of how life is, can bring upon peace in the storm and chaos we have in our head.

I never saw nor have I been with Jungkook alone after the announcement of his marriage, up to the last night of my stay here - the day before his wedding I was set to leave early in the morning, earlier than when the birds begin to chirp and for the court to be so busy.

I made my way outside as the court ladies start to wake up and prepare the necessary things for the day. I smiled to myself, this place leaves a bittersweet taste in my mouth. And for what is best, I do not wish to return.

As I reach the last gate, the biggest gate of them all, I saw a man stand there. I hate how I knew who he was just from his silhouette.

Jungkook was standing there out in the open, I stopped walking when I was a meter away from him and I can make out his face clearly. I wouldn't admit it to myself and the world, but I'm glad I get to see his face one last time.

I realized that we are alone and I should not be meeting him anymore. I quickly scanned around my surroundings to see if someone's around. I heard him laugh, he was trying to stop it too, but was failing miserably.

"I'm glad to see that you're still as paranoid as ever Y/N," he said, still continuing his laughing. I had to stop myself from crying, it's been almost three months since I last heard his voice and he was said my name too. I missed it, I missed him so much. "I'm happy to know that there's still a part of you that I know."

"What are you doing here?" I asked looking at him. "You don't wake up until the sun is at it's peak, 7th Prince, you wake up at noon."

He didn’t answer my question, instead he smiled. "I see there's still a part of me that you know Y/N."

"Your majesty," I said, his small smile dropped.

"Jungkook." He offered, smiling slightly as I looked down.

"Jungkook," I said trying out the name that I have tried to avoid for these few months. I turn to look at him and noticed a pool of tears in his eyes, then he proceeded to bite his lower lip. "What are you doing here?"

He sighed and walked towards me. "I came to say goodbye and to apologize, which is probably long overdue but-"

I smiled at him, he's the only family and friend that I had since my stay here. I'm happy enough that he swallowed his pride to apologize to me. "Jungkook, I've forgiven you a long time ago. I know things happen for a reason and I wouldn't hold it against you." I started, looking down at his feet. I have to bid my goodbyes too, I realized. "I just want you to be happy, as you live your life to its fullest. I hope you don't get sick as much, because you refuse to stay in bed to rest, so you better watch out for your health. I hope you can fulfill your wishes of helping this country prosper, I will support you with whatever decision you make because I know it will be for the better and for the people. Be the best husband and father, because I've long foresaw that you'd be a great one! Love your family the most, because that's the backbone of a home. You know that well right?"

He just looked at his feet as I ramble on my wishes and regards for him, he'd smile a little with the things I say at times, but his eyes remain hidden. "Y/N, I don't know where to start. I- I wish it was better for you- I wish I was better for you, I wish I was stronger to face the society, but I couldn't even fight for the love I wanted. My marriage was a peace treaty between the two kingdoms and-"

He stopped himself because he was crying too much. I pursed my lips together, has he been hurting all this time? I wish I had the right to comfort him, to make things right with him, to be more courageous and fight the world for my love.

"Jungkook you have to be strong. This is what destiny has brought to us and we can do nothing but to accept. I wish I was valorous in asking for you to leave with me when the Emperor allowed me one wish, but there are some things beyond our control." I tried to smile, I wish it looked like a smile, because I was also trying so hard to not cry and throw myself at him. Trying so hard not to hug him for the last time, and probably never let go. I looked up and notice the surroundings start to brighten, as the morning welcomes us. "I have to leave now."

He raised his head to the sky and saw the faint moon and a single star in the sky. "I wish I made you happy during your stay here, I know how much you hated it here."

I smiled at that. "You made me more than happy Jungkook, thank you." I start to walk beyond the gate and to the horse waiting for me there. I climbed up on the horse and turned to face Jungkook, for the first time that day and last for this lifetime, I showed him my tears of sadness and regret. I smiled through it and waved him goodbye.

Jungkook looked stunned and could only raise his hand beside his face, he let his own tears fall as he tried to smile back at me.

This is it, goodbye.

I turned the horse and galloped through the city and out to the farmland.