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dialogue prompts: five words

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"This story has one ending."

"Give it a shot, okay?"

"It's way past your bedtime."

"Is this really worth it?"

"Believe the prophets, they're right."

"You're not real, are you."

"Truth is nothing without lies."

"It was me, wasn't it?"

"The world wants me dead."

"'It'll be fun,' they said."

"What an... interesting first date."

"You're such a drama queen."

"I thought you were alone."

"Wish I was dead now?"

"This cannot be a new concept."

"So you didn't have to."

"Has anyone helped you yet?"

"I'm adjusting to civilian life."

"Take it to the boss."

"You really live like this?"

"I don't want to remember."

"Is it me or you?"

"Am I still a god?"

"We have work to do."

"Is there something you're hiding?"

"Stop stealing all my thunder!"

"It's November, put it away."

"You're so brave, little one."

"I believed in you too!"

"Can you just stop trying?"

"What did she ever do?!"

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In lieu of some difficult times, I mediate on the Word of God:

"The Lord is my light and my salvation — whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life — of whom shall I be afraid?"

Psalm 27:1

"(...) Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength."

Nehemiah 8:10.

I am living in really hard conditions at the moment. It weighs heavy on my mind and heart and is affecting my physical body as well. It's an attack. And I don't know who to reach out to. I don't know who to share this burden with. So, I turn to God and share it with Him. He is the one I can fully cast my load upon. Time and time again, He has shown me. "My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust," (Psalm 91:2).

Cast your cares and your worries on the Lord because He cares about you (1 Peter 5:7). It's hard to please others. It's hard to find grace in the presence of those that are always searching for something wrong in a situation or in a person whether that be inadvertently or not. But you know who doesn't do that? God. God doesn't do that and He does not require anything of us. We come as we are, and He loves us there, in that place, so tenderly. And if we are in need of change, He does so, without making us feel incompentent or unloved. I've come to realize that only God can handle some of us because we're different. Different in a different way if that makes sense. As Christians, the basis is that we are already different; set apart (Romans 12:2). Some of us, though, in this context, have been dealt a life residing in the extremes. I dare compare Paul, David, Isaiah. Surely, there were others that lived dedicated to the Lord, but they were specifically named in the Bible because something about them was different and the life that God had for them to live was extreme. Chosen to a higher calling. I am absolutely not saying that one person is lesser than the other. It is simply a different way of life. And sometimes, as humans, we have problems with "different." Especially if that person called to live differently is our child who we raised to be a certain way, who now suddenly does not fit the mold we want them to fit. It becomes a bit more complicated when there is a hive mentally. Your family, and your friends, and your church, all sharing the same thoughts and holding onto the same values just because that's the way things have always been. That makes it challenging for kids being born to make a change in that. I am not a liberal, nor will I ever be a liberal, but in cases like this, "non-comformity" is the only word I can think of that fits. People called to change, have to be non-conformists. This is difficult because when you have multitudes of people standing on well-established laws of the land, how are you to convince them that you cannot stand there, lest it kill you.

Things have been eating away at me slowly. I have 100% asked myself, "Why can't you just be obedient and conform. Just do what you're supposed to do." But that is exactly my problem. It feels so wrong. It feels like there is more. Like I should be doing something else. I feel restless. But whenever I do try stepping into what feels like my place and decisions and thoughts, I am jolted back, stripped of my peace, and condemned. What do I do then? I want to honor and be obedient, but even when I am and do everything I am supposed to, even when I try, it's not enough. It's never enough.

I can keep coming back to He who I am enough for though. He who tells me, "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith — and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God — not by works, so that no one can boast," (Ephesians 2:8-9). I always return to James 2:26 after reading that Scripture though because it is important to note: "As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead." So, it's not that we will sit idly by, no — and that isn't my intent regardless — but it is good to keep this in mind; our accomplishments does not determine God's love for us just as much as it does not determine our salvation. Contrary to humans, God is not disappointed when we stumble. In fact, He's already factored all of that in when He sent His Son, Jesus Christ, down to die for us, for that very reason: our shortcomings. This is great news, but I am personally still left with the question:

What do I do when all I do is obey Proverbs 3:3-4 and it's not working. Am I still putting too much importance on the wanting to please my parents part? Should I move out because it never feels like this is a toxic cycle that won't end unless I break it forcefully by doing so.

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source: motherthemountain

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It’s possible to read so much bible that you get bibled-out because you lack fellowship with Jesus. I’ve read the bible so much, so much, like a whole lot in my years growing up. I know it. So now it’s like if you’re gonna talk about it please let it mean something. Don’t just talk to sound smart, pls.

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“When you read your bible, give up your right to understand. Don’t read for more bible knowledge; read to know Him. And we know Him not by sight, but by faith because the Lord is the Spirit. This is what I do and how I think when I read my bible. I just let go, surrendering all I am and listen to whatever He speaks to my heart. Because knowledge can puff you up and make you proud, but love edifies and encourages, it builds you up. He wants to reveal the love of God to me—Jesus. I want to love people.”

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“The greatest thing in a man’s or woman’s life is when they have God reality, not theology. When God becomes real.”

— Dan Mohler

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“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you [who are willing to learn] with My eye upon you.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭32:8‬ ‭

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Oh quiet evenings, and oh the tender, long goodbye // Part 11

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