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They don't understand that people respect their identities out of politeness and nothing else. People don't actually see you as the opposite sex, they're playing pretend with you out of politeness!

For trans people their identities cannot be questioned. They don't understand that most people don't actually believe in this. For them it's the only truth that can exist. That's why they're so offended when you misgender a sex offender. It's as if you called a blond person a brunette. They simply cannot understand that most people don't actually believe in all this.

you don't get your gender and pronouns respected if you've raped, killed, harassed and premaritally traumatized a family or a specific victim.

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"oh shit we don't have a cutting board"

I'm right here 😞

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If I were Kusanagi I would finish Akayona at 50 volumes. We're at 47th volume now right. 50 volumes would fit perfectly. 268, 269 are already 47th volume. 5 chapters in each volume. 18 chapters left?

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TW SA

Ok but now I do feel kind of valid and it's nice, I have to admit. I used to have an obsession on sexual violence and when I talked to any mental health professionals I obviously mentioned it all the time. Yeah miss psychologist I may be suicidal but you see I knew that one girl who was raped as a 12 year old and therefore I didn't suffer enough, people like her need help, not me. Or the one who was raped over 20 times (I was obsessed with that one, I still remember her every few days). And what about small children abused by their parents hmm? Did you know miss psychologist how many 6 year old girls are sexually abused by their very parents? Yeah now what? Will you finally fuck off? Good morning miss therapist. Yes I'm fine and good. Yes I am a little suicidal, do you expect me to like. Be suicidal at one moment and in the next one suddenly not be? How would that even work.

Anyway yes I'm fine. I think I should leave therapy. Why? Because I don't need it. There was this one kid raped by her own father, did you know. Therefore I don't suffer in any way because you see my own daddy never raped me (which I regret not allowing him because then I would deserve help). You can go on and on about my cptsd caused by him but the truth still stands. You see rape is the one and only thing that can ever make anyone suffer and deserve help. So uhhh bye bye.

Few teenage girls in the mental hospital were after singular rapes and made a very big deal out of it (as they should!). One said to me "yeah but you were never raped so you suffer much less".

That obsession was insufferable... At least now I only care about cases with specifically more than one rape - so it's much lesser. I used to be obsessed with absolutely anything related to any kind of sexual violence. Anything.

Yeah finally. After so many years it went away. Finally. Thanks, subconscious! You made my life terrible. You still do - would be really nice to not have physical pain 24/7 you know.

Jesus Christmas, when I think about how my life was even two years ago... My entire teenage years were terrible. The difference between how it used to be and how it is now is like night and day. And I'm still not in the best place. I'm still heavily suicidal. Still fighting with depression every day in order to do anything. And obviously the ptsd symptoms... Those are worse than before because now I don't only have daddy to think about... Yeah turns out daddy was really nice. Funny how I used to think that he's the worst thing in my life... Love you daddy!

But overall - I couldn't even explain in words how much better it is now. And I did it all by myself.

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Late night visitor. Red Fox/räv. Värmland, Sweden (June 24, 2025).

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Sneak peak

Chapter 1: Unwilling Guest

After getting tired of the arguing and feeling awkward in the room, the violet haired girl decided to join the conversation.

"Do you still speak so rudely to girls? No wonder you are so unpopular." She asserted while looking directly at him.

Hearing the familiar voice made the princess cease her childish acting and turn around.

"Thalia? You actually made it!"

"Unpopular?" Hak asked in the background.

"Of course, I had to come and ensure you had at least one decent guest! I also deeply apologize for the fact that you're stuck most of the time with my idiot brother as your bodyguard."

As a fist aimed for her head, she quickly sidestepped, showcasing her swift reflexes and agility.

"Hey, who are you calling an idiot?" Hak said with a drawl, a smirk playing on his lips. He reached out, casually resting his arm on top of her head and leaning on her.

"Don't you know you have to be at least this tall to use such big words?" he added, gesturing over her head with his other hand.

"Shut up will ya? Anyway, why such a fuss over your looks if you didn't show up to the ceremony anyway?" Thalia asked with a raised brow.

"It's cuss he's here." Her brother answered.

"Already!?" The princess responded.

'Oh, here we go,' The shorter girl thought.

She swept past Thalia with only a fleeting, distracted glance and a hurried, "We'll talk later again" - barely a pause, her focus entirely on her beloved cousin.

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YES! Pls talk to women - and girls - about this whenever you have an occasion. It's insane how many women have no clue about things that seem so so obvious. Same with statistics about male partners. When I mention something about them - grown ass adult women are shocked. I am shocked too that they don't know such basic things.

I love being an annoying aunt to teenage girls (I'm 19...) and tell them just how horrible males are and how risky it is to ever associate with them.

I try my best to not be annoying I swear.

Most mothers did not consent to being a mother.

Either because physical force was used, it happened "accidentally" or it is illegal for them to get an abortion. But, there is also another aspect. Most mothers did not even consent to being a mother because they did not have all the information they needed to make a fully informed choice. How many mothers were told is it highly likely that they develop pelvic floor issues, become single moms, get abused, have a disabled child, get a husband stitch etc etc. And after all that, that they will take on the majority of housekeeping and childcare? And do you think the society keeps us ignorant by accident? No.

There would be very few of us if women made informed choices regarding pregnancy and having children. Most women did not consent to having children.

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After I finish Fumetsu no Anata e I'm going to read Black Butler

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I feel like I have physical poison coming out of all the pores in my body. I see it, not as hallucinations but visual imagination - I just can't seem to stop imagining it, I feel it too intensely. It has a different color each time, I'm a little tired of these color changes.

I guess that's how my feelings of dirtiness get expressed. My body is dirty, it contaminates people around.

That's why I don't really talk to people in real life. Because I don't want to hurt them. Talking online is fine and good, as long as I'm not in close proximity to someone - it's fine.

Obviously physical isolation isn't good for anyone. You need to talk to friends in real life, online friends are great, they can help a lot but - your body is built for contact in real life and will suffer if you're physically alone.

I'm so afraid of accidentally seducing someone just by existing. If they hurt me - they will suffer because of it. I can't allow such a thing.

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The brilliance of objectification as a strategy of dominance is that it gets the woman to take the initiative in her own degradation (having less freedom is degrading). The woman herself takes one kind of responsibility absolutely and thus commits herself to her own continuing inferiority: she polices her own body; she internalizes the demands of the dominant class and, in order to be fucked, she constructs her life around meeting those demands. It is the best system of colonialization on earth: she takes on the burden, the responsibility, of her own submission, her own objectification.

Intercourse, Andrea Dworkin

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“Daughter of the Steppes”, Harper’s Bazaar Kazakhstan

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male = anagram of lame...curious

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I just vomited

My daily dose of painkillers😋😊💚

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Depression is BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGG. I just can't stick to doing anything. I bounce from doing this to doing that and everything's empty. But laying in bed doing nothing is just as bad.

I used to feel this empty all the time. Only now I see just how bad it used to be. Now my usual days are much better.

I am slowly recovering I guess. I already recovered from ed and dealt with cptsd from teenage years (it's still there but I'm coping very well).

I forgot what nightmare this used to be! Days like today were either the norm or the good ones.

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Genius. I want to put my daddy in there

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