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Posting on here to cause less problems

I just ranted and been saying shit off the top of my mind on an alternate acc bc like ugh idk mental problems and now all my friends are concerned about me I'm feel guilty and like a burden I should just not say anything ughhh

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The way my ex says words and phrases things pissses me off and annoys me so much. Like would it really kill you to be mature and act your age for once

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Urk...

I just realized I have to tolorate being in the same vacinity of my ex for like the next idk how long Im Ganna cry

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Okay here's my weirdass situation.

So I was on a dating site and I found this guy and we started talking and like he said he was from like some random fuckass place in Ohio amd whatever. I enjoyed talking to him.

But then here's where it gets weird.

I go to this tec thing (tec stands for teens encounter Christ) and we'll somone who was on team that was on team last year looks sounds and like seems to littlery be the guy I was talking to.

So obviously I decided to test this and first off study this guy for a bit. And then when he was alone I decided to message him and immidiatly his phone notif popped up AND IT WAS FROM ME.

And dude... I don't know what to do now help.

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I got left unread by the guy and then he freking blocked meeeee. What did I doooo 😭😭😭

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Getting left out by my friends again bc my fucking ex is making plans with my friends behind my back

I'm so pissed and upset I want to kms.

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I fucking hate my ex he's hanging out and stealing all my friends away from meeee 😭😭😭

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OKAY FINE FUCKING FINE. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE, MAN. IM GAY IM FUCKING GAY. SEE, THERE. I ADMITTED IT. YA HAPPY NOW??

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Oh my frog this one random guy on the trip I just spent like over and hour having a conversation with gave me his Instagram like woahhhh people actually do like me. This makes me happy

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I get WAY into my head about people perspective on me. And I think it fucks me over way to much 😔

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I wannaa come out to my friends as trans but I'm too scareddd 😭😭

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I feel like I'm suffocating in an unidentifiable sadness. Why do I always have to feel this way...I just want to be happy

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I feel like I'm the most hated person in my friend group. I wanna kms 😞

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when is it my turn for a co-dependent deeply unhealthy sadomasochistic t4t situationship with another landmine that will either end in double suicide or long lasting trauma.

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I’m self isolating hard that’s why I’m on here like all the time rn

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Im learning to love without attachment.

To release the grip of expectation and just let people be.

I’m learning that real love isn’t about holding on tight or trying to shape someone into what you need - it’s about accepting them as they are, where they are, even if that version never changes.

Loving freely means honoring your own boundaries, yes,

but also giving others the space to grow, stumble, heal… or not.

It’s not always easy.

But it’s teaching me grace.

It’s teaching me patience.

And most of all, it’s teaching me that love isn’t about possession..

it’s about presence.

And I can still love deeply

without needing to grip tightly.