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writing these are addictive

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Idk why but for some reason Lord Henry is giving Tony Stonem vibes and I don't like it

HEAR ME OUT WHY ARE THEY BOTH SO INSANELY PHILISOPHICAL AND MANIPULATIVE OF THEIR LOSER BFF'S??? IS IT JUST ME???? IS IT JUST ME-

(I'm only on season 2 of Skins and chapter 7 of The Picture of Dorian Gray so I could be terribly wrong)

~Lena ☆

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Checking my posts 24/7 to make sure I didn’t accidentally drop my entire address, post every photo of my face, spit out every slur I can’t reclaim, send death threats to children, bully homeless people-

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I js wanna be someone's tumblr wife is that too much to ask for 💔

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3.8.2025: Suck the rot right out of my bloodstream

-Leith Ross, we'll never have sex

☆~Today's Accomplishments~☆

WENT BACK TO TAEKWONDO AFTER I QUIT FOR 3 MONTHS!1!1!1!1!!

Trimmed my bangs for that momentous occasion

Someone messaged me to say my posts were cool and I almost cried

Tried (and failed) writing again

Watched some anime and then fell asleep with the cat

Had the most blessed nap in the world

Ate (too much) good food

Reread the same 3 chapters of The Picture of Dorian Gray because I FORGOT TO ANNOTATE THEM 💔

Played guitar for like 5 minutes because I was in that mood (ykwim?)

I actually can't remember much from today which is a bit concerning

♡~Today's Reflections~♡

It feels like a hand made from the coolest, most soothing blue waters came over and touched my soul but forgot my eyes because I still feel some sort of fuzzy static settling behind the front of my skull but that's fine

ALSO SHOUT OUT TO THAT GUY WHO MESSAGED ME THAT WAS THE SWEETEST THING EVER AND IT SRSLY MADE MY DAY <333

~Lena ☆

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i ache for who i could've been

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glow like sawako

Sawako is such an it girl! She’s smart, kind, productive, and successful!! To have that sawako glow, first you need to understand that she is a fictional character so you can’t be just like her. It’s ok to take breaks or fall off sometimes, so don’t feel bad if you can’t be just like her.

Tips start here:

Studyyyy

Study! Catch up on missed homework, learn new things, and pay attention in class. If you aren’t in school, try to take some time everyday to learn about something you are interested in (i.e. make up, marine biology, flowers, whatever you are into!!)

Take care of your body

Sawako has said that she runs once a week and also exercises 5-6 times a week. She also said she eats until she is 80% full. These are good healthy habits to adopt! Remember, it’s ok if sometimes you aren’t able to work out or eat healthy. All that matters is that you give yourself time to heal so you can get back on track!♡

Be kind

Say good morning to people, volunteer, help people study, smile at others, take care of animals, do whatever you can to b kind. When you see an opening to do something nice, do it! Of course, please make sure you tell people no when you need to. You can be kind and still keep your boundaries!

Try your best

Don’t give up just because you aren’t good at something at first. Sawako wasn’t the best at soccer, but she trained and practiced so she could be! If you take thst sort of attitude, you can apply it to anything you want.

Practice gratitude

Whenever I want to try practicing gratitude, I like to make a list of things that I love. It can be just 2 or 3 things, or 30 things! It doesn’t matter how big the list is, as long it’s full of things you love. If you’re Christian, you can pray about things that you’re grateful for. You can also try meditation! Sawako always shows gratitude to her friends with things like gift giving or telling them.

That’s all for now! Have a good day♡

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TW: SH talk

When the body dysmorphia is so bad you can't even take ur hoodie off to sh but also ur skin is jumping away from ur bones, ur bloodstream is twisting into a sick tango and itching for release, and this indescribable feeling is permeating ur cells and sinking into soft tissue begging- no, screeching- for the razor sharps, so all you can do is curl up on the floor and sit there, not even crying, just patiently waiting for the roaring in your ears to end

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1.8.2025: Tell all of your friends that I'm crazy

-Conan Gray, Maniac

*ignore this weird ahh collage idk how to take proper fit checks ok 💔

☆~Today's Accomplishments~☆

Put on a funky ahh outfit bc it tickled my fancy and made me feel cute

Put on hair tinsel bc it made me feel cool (though looking back it was pretty ridiculous)

Cleaned my desk

Subsequently messed it up when I journalled

Journalled a bit (I NEED TO COLLECT MORE WRAPPERS)

Took a shower (sounds pathetic but I am me and literally every small thing is a win)

Did 2 pages of maths questions (see above)

Continued decorating my mirror and watching that documentary

Was less of a bitch than usual! (I didn't speak to anyone today)

♡~Today's Reflections~♡

First of all idk if ppl notice or care but I learnt how to edit my pictures on my phone and now it's all pink hehe >:3 (my favorite colour is purple but pink is easier to do LMAO)

Secondly yes there's no title I'm too mentally drained to come up with one- not that anyone will notice or care

Third of all I AM SO FUCKING TIREDDD OH MY DAYS

Each day feels like some dense, tedious ocean that I must wade through just so I can hear the sound of my own feelings and touch my own thoughts and I am so close to idk what but something bad!!! It feels like there's this bone-deep, rotting fatigue that's eating me up from the inside out as my thoughts melt into static and fall out of my eyeballs. It no feel bueno, muchacho. Estoy sad. :(

Anyway at least I felt cute today

~Lena ☆

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I lie in an unmade bed of glitter and nightmares

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Like a pixie on acid...

~Lena ☆

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EEEEEEEEEEEK I'M GIGGLING AND TWIRLING MY HAIR RN

I <3 being a girl rn

Hi this is so so random and I'm sorry if this is cringe or weird but I have this thing where I like spying on random blogs that come on my feed and OH MY GOD WE HAVE THE SAME BDAY!!! AND I LOVE UR VIBE!!! UR BLOG IS SO CUTEEEE AND I HOPE WE CAN BE MOOTIES ONE DAY <3

Stay safe byeee <333

-Lena ☆

HAHAHA I DO THE SAME THING!!! u seem so sweet!!! let’s be moots 💓 love ya birthday twin!!!

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Romanticising- Can life slow down a bit pls

31.7.2025: Now I don’t wanna be anyone. Anymore.

-Fleshwater, kiss the ladder

☆~Today's Accomplishments~☆

Wandered outside like a lost pixie in desperate need of a purpose to be rooted to

Went to the gym for a bit and pretended i was a strong warrior princess (i can't do a singular push up)

Baked some brownies with PINK!!! sprinkles

Ate too much of said brownies and felt disgustingly full

Decorated the mirror i bought from the charity shop (IT'S SO CUTE)

Watched a bit of a documentary

That's it 💀

♡~Today's Reflections~♡

I'm in this weird limbo and my brain is too tired to formulate thoughts so have some bit of writing from when my braincells were alive a few days ago

Actually I think my brain was tired when I wrote that too. Idk what I was on about

Anyway

Someone pls slap me in the face and tell me to get a life xo

~Lena ☆

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This but with listening to ur old playlists

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Is it bad that I love Cassie Ainsworth so fucking much like please let me inject your soul into my bloodstream you hurting little angel

(The answer is yes btw)

(I am quite mentally fucked)

-Lena ☆