lethantigo

[lethantigo]

hesitant to call and wake you

you have work in the

morning,

a long day ahead.

we are over 600 miles

apart

and I decide to wait patiently

before being close to you again.

if I could, I would send

paper airplanes through

the night, each describing

how stitched you are to my

heart, my mind, and my soul.

they would say:

I miss you

I truly adore you

I admire your character and

I am constantly inspired by you.

As I am in veritable adoration of

how you choose life,

I hope I don’t lose my grip

on my own aspirations, big or small.

you make achieving goals look

easy,

rewarding and

meaningful.

I am fulfilled at

your joy,

the gesture of your smile

replays in my thoughts

daily;

yet I don’t want to wake you

from your dreams

just like I

don’t want to lose you.

I don’t want to rush us neither.

I do not hold on to you for

dependency, rather

I hold on to your

light. in your heart,

you really are golden.

let’s

see where our plane

takes us. we can travel the

sky’s garden. we’ll explore

places we’ve never

imagined - we can grow

together and

make endless memories

from now until

forevermore.

I once heard

it costs nothing

to love.

my fervor

intensifies

with reflection.

realization humbles

the deepest

part of me

knowing I have

the responsibility of

treasuring our

intimacy.

I’d love you

anyday,

no price

required.

lethantigo | may.14.2024 |

[lethantigo]

though I’m

saddened by our temporary

departure,

I look forward to relying more upon

my self. my creativity craves the

solitude. perhaps this time

I can look for a larger

battle ground where I can

replant my garden, being sure

to remember all that I know

how to grow

and sow the seeds of what I

have been working on this

spring season.

this will give you

time to do your

adventures in the world -

I know you’re good for it.

You live for the freedom of

choice and exploration.

I’ve always admired this about you.

I’ll be waiting for those stories

of memories you’ll hang on your wall

and cherish always.

sincerely,

summer is coming.

lethantigo | may 5th, 2025 |

[lethantigo]

“People think being alone makes you lonely, but I don’t think that’s true. Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.”

— Kim Culbertson

[lethantigo]

I know what you mean

to my heart

so I will wake up for you.

I know what my passion

means to me,

so I cherish what it means

to be focused.

I am working toward

my eternal sunshine

daily, so I choose

good over evil.

Love made me,

Love kept me,

Love continues to

light my pathways.

I will follow Love

forever.

Lethantigo

[lethantigo]

hey

I’m pretty burnt out.

[lethantigo]

he removes

my glasses from my face

as I sink asleep

and kisses the soft of my lips

in the final moments of my wake

his voice sending vibrations through

my mind as

he wishes his

love to me, sealed with an

until tomorrow

shipped to the address of

my dreams

where he is waiting

patiently for me.

lethantigo | january 31, 2025

[lethantigo]

I’ve disconnected from my past, now leaving open doors behind me and more

empty space. My shadows have shadows here, leaving no dark corner untouched.

my sadness is not big enough to fill these empty rooms, yet continues to kiss the corners with its sweet sorrow.

I am hurting.

I don’t know who to tell.

lethantigo | march 29, 2023 | 1:08am

[lethantigo]

I read you poetry

under that tree as the moon coursed the starlit sky deep into the night.

you took that part of me away with you

until I spoke poetry no longer to myself or in my mind

leaving me mute

I lost myself when i decided to break away.

best and worst case scenario

when you went away

my heart forgot to keep beating

my pulse misplaced the rhythm of my passion

numbness is too generous of a word to describe what I

became when I decided to stand tall

I won the fight for my life back

but what did I really gain?

I lost all of what I thought I possessed.

I didn’t have my purity or innocence any longer.

what had I become?

stronger

but fearful

nothing

but free to be everything,

to be anything

better

but alone

paranoid that I couldn’t

stop the next person

from breaking me down to dust

when I was already so

disintegrated.

lethantigo | 12/28/24 | Saturday, 12:33 am

[lethantigo]

last night, I dreamt a

sweet thing.

my Lover gave me a

promise ring.

as our eyes met

upon wake,

I knew my soul would be

kept safe.

[lethantigo]

this love feels

genuine,

untouched,

real, and

safe

i've never felt a

warmth like this one

[lethantigo]

to her children, she spoke

"never get lost in the melody alone, listen

for each other's harmony"

and hanging on to these words,

their hearing intensified

and they became stronger

as one.

...

05/17/2024 _ 3:32 am

[lethantigo]

I was in the head of

a track runner

in the 60s

as he encouraged himself to push

through the curves

and further past the finish line.

as he crossed, a cameraman appeared to

his right shoulder and capture

the big white smile sprawled across his face

as his perseverance was evident in

his accomplishment.

from his mind, I stood beside him

and people everywhere gave him

high fives and praises

congratulating his efforts, some of which

he'd seen and didn't know their names

and others who had racially

denounced him prior to winning this sprint

event. he's off laughing with his friends in

his team and people are looking at him,

watching how he moves and the way he

smiles - wondering how he could be cut out

the way he is, wondering how he came to

be so fast so effortlessly.

...

07/11/2024

[lethantigo]

I finally put my glasses on in my dream to see better

[lethantigo]

what's to see

behind those eyes

I don't talk enough about

how I am

checking in on my mental is

deeper than vanity

it's deeper than

the surface

it's me

looking for

me

I've gone off so far

but here I am

I'm not too far gone

I'm able to see

I am not where I

belong

[lethantigo]

i want to share too much with you

and in the same breath

i want you to see me

for who i

think i should be

i want you to

accept me for who i am

but

i'm fabricating the

worst parts of me

who would really

love something so

challenged?

[lethantigo]

Exposed,

inflamed.

towards you i feel

sadness in the

bare part of

my heart.

im knocked over

and held down by

your pride,

and I can’t get

back up because

your ego has

your hands tied.

I’m looking to you

to get off of me.

and you don’t.

you want your pain

straight from the

source.

I am

defeated, but

at what cost?

[lethantigo]

the truth

will prevail us

intending to rid our discord. we’re in

lost decisions, wondering if what we could be has been

lost forever. I desperately want to

say I feel better after our fall out

even though everyone knows about us. I know

time can heal our troubles, but

you

feel deeply, and I

remember my pain. not

easily dancing around the truth,

eventually declaring enough is enough.