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“Could she somehow run far enough that she outran herself? Could she escape her mind without lobotomizing it?”

— excerpt from a short story, stories I’ll never publish

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Every time I go back to the criminal minds fandom, within three minutes I see Will/Willifer hate and remember why I started slowly removing myself. Y’all would rather have your favorite character be a full-blown cheater (and in Spencer/Emily’s case an intentional homewrecker) than accept that willifer is like the epitome of a healthy relationship. Y’all would rather make JJ and Emily/Spencer actual terrible people than admit that Will is actually one of the most genuine, respectful and caring men on television. Y’all are actually insane. Seek clinical help x

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Honestly put respect on Will LaMontagne Jr’s name. My man took a single look at Jennifer Jareau and said ‘she’s it for me’ and flirted his ASS off at every possible opportunity. Treated her like a goddamn queen on that very first case and then did long distance for her. He literally flew back and forth from New Orleans to DC in his free time just to see her and he KNEW she was the one even when she almost ended it. He quit his job, which he loved, and left the city he adored and called home, to move to DC and be with her and their son. She rejected his marriage proposal and he just continued to treat her like a goddess among men. He literally didn’t care about anything as long as he got to be with her. Will LaMontagne Jr. would do anything and everything for Jennifer Jareau and some of y’all need to open your eyes i stg

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“Do you love your sister? Are you disappointed? Can you stomach the sight of her?”

— excerpt from my notes app, stories I’ll never publish

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Resisting the urge to shit-post on Nextdoor to irritate my neighbors and cause drama is so hard.

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This. That’s also I gotta say.

Alex I can’t stop thinking about Shiv feeling like she has to straighten her hair and wear tight revealing clothes she’s not comfortable in to be noticed and looked at and respected 😭

god i have sooo many thoughts about her relationship with femininity and being a woman.

growing up with logan and caroline as your parents, she could never win. caroline wanting her to be a proper Lady so she doesn’t embarrass her and that obviously involved a lot of comments about her figure and weight that she internalized. logan wanting her to look Pretty and Feminine so he can show her off to his business buddies (makes me nauseous just to think about). everyone around her telling her what she should be and no one bothering to ask her what she actually wants. that would drive her crazy and make her like she doesn’t feel in control in her own skin. i headcanon her having a ‘rebel’ phase in her teens when she dressed more like a tomboy and didn’t put on make up and dressed however she liked. but that wouldn’t last, not really. in that family.

when she’s in college she had her Party Girl phase (which is canon) where she turned to alcohol and sex as a coping mechanism (which is very similar to kendall but that’s for another post jkfldfkjg) and i’m assuming let herself wear tight revealing clothes because she doesn’t feel real in her own body and doesn’t know who she is outside of being a Roy and all that entails. and she’d have even less of an idea what being a woman means to her because all the women around her growing up were either women who were exploited by logan and his buddies or women he worked with who tried to be respected but were shunned at every turn.

and then fast forward to s1 where she feels comfortable in her comfy clothes, her hair is curly, she’s spent enough time away from logan to be able to oppose and disagree with him. but obviously that doesn’t last as she’s pulled in by him into his orbit and starts dressing like what she feels a professional should dress like but, again, i feel like that’s just her playing at being a person. that’s not her. but then again she doesn’t know who she /is/.

and lastly -- backend of season 3. god she felt so lost then, being jerked around by logan all season and then with the added humiliation of him choosing roman over her, even after SHE saved the company in 3.05. and on the other end tom tracking her cycles and essentially wanting to babytrap her. she tried playing at being a business person but all she’s met with is misogyny and dismissal so i guess in her mind she felt she had to swing the other way. but no matter how much she changes herself into something she’s not it won’t ever matter to logan because she’ll always be a Woman first. and that’s a black mark.

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I want to put these two in a room just to see what they talk about

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I really don’t love how Shiv was mostly referred to as “Tom’s wife” by everyone and their mothers.

It’s so gross that her father literally doesn’t even say her name, but instead demeans her to “wife” as if she isn’t her own person and all she stands for in life, and her role in society is to be Tom’s wife.

Furthermore, ignoring her name dehumanizes her completely. At this point, there’s not even acknowledging that she is a person beyond being a wife. Her only value is as a wife, other than that, she means and is nothing.

Alas, another rant about Shiv and her relationship with femininity and the dehumanizing of her gender that she is subjected to and forced to endure, furthering her internalized misogyny and overall outlook and being a woman. Since she’s been constantly seen as less than because she’s a woman, she struggles to conceptualize that she has value as a woman.

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Oh no, I’m shitposting 3am thoughts I had a week ago about miss shiv roy

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This is something I think about daily, and is a trope that I continually use in my stories.

there are few things that delight me as much as the dynamic between jason mantzoukas and jessica st. clair

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i love when ethel cain posts wincest and everyone in the tags freak out like girl what are YOU doing at the backwoods family horror sacrament

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I HATE gnomes with a passion… mostly garden gnomes

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My coworkers say the darndest things (names redacted bc this is the internet):

CW: brief mentions of sewerslide, EDs, mental health, kidnapping, implied past abuse

M: I hate how water resistant cinnamon is. I’m like “I’m mixing you” and it’s like “no you’re not”.

L: We don’t have apple juice? Ooooo, they’re gonna fucking kiiiiiiill you.

F: I come in [to work] when my body tells me to.

L: if you’re gonna die, do it when M’s on duty.

L: But I don’t want to make fish tonight, M, goddamnit!

M: Wanna see my meat?

J: I’m not gonna burn myself, I’m a professional.

J: *proceeds to burn herself*

F: I volunteer to be sacrificed.

L: H, do you want me to paint your shed now or later?

I: you’re late.

H: *flips him off*

I: you’re not even sick are you?

H: *lowers mask and coughs on him* I’m not sick?

I: you’re so gross.

H: Fuck you.

Me: if you could have any superpower in the world what would it be?

H: the ability to like assess the pros and cons of every decision so I don’t make the wrong ones

Me: I think that’s just called impulse control and it’s not a power, you just don’t have it.

H: being out at night by yourself, like… someone could try to grab you or hurt you-

Me: and this is why we don’t go to strangers houses or give random people our address.

H:

F: what?

Me: that was directed at her

F: H… I’m mildly concerned

H: but I-

Me: you want it, I know.

H: … I want it (something off of Craigslist)

M: *incessantly hisses at me*

H: *lists her traumatic experiences*

Me: H, it’s 11am.

H: I have no self-preservation skills. I’ve gotten into random strangers cars.

Me: the fact that you’re alive might actually make me believe in God.

*Love the Way You Lie plays on the alexa*

Me: my toxic trait is a thought this was a love song growing up

H: it is a love song

Me: H-

H: sorry, I was kidding… mostly

Me: *sighs exasperatedly*

H: *laughs*

H: normal people love both of their kids, you wouldn’t know that but-

Me: is that bc my dad doesn’t love me?

H; yeah. I mean do you think your dad loves you?

Me: well- no…

Me: would your want for something ever surpass logical safety thinking?

Me: *makes eye contact with H*

Me: no, I know your fucking answer, I was asking I.

H: *laughs*

I: I mean I wouldn’t give someone my address or go to a man’s house alone…

H: don’t kill yourself if you have kids.

Me:

H:

Me:

H: oh shut up rchl that was a long time ago!

L: wHAT ON GODS GREEN EARTH IS HAPPENING!?!?!?!?!?

T: I’ll fix your schedule after breakfast.

Me, after checking my schedule at lunch and seeing that it’s not changed: I guess I’ll just go fuck myself then.

H: 🤨🤨🤨

L: why haven’t y’all eaten today?

Me: I have depression.

H: same, also I’m sick and have an ED.

L:

L: I don’t know how to talk to you guys sometimes.

*two very irritating residents sit in H’s section*

Me: Do you want me to get them?

H: Hm?

H: *sees them* yes.

Me: I’ll do it if you say please.

H: yes, please :)

H: Do you have a boyfriend?

Me: Ew.

H: Okay, a girlfriend?

Me: Also ew.

H: Are you asexual?

Me: … yes.

H: Cool.

H: I’m a Scorpio.

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Okay, but Shiv in the teaser thingy highkey reminds me of her scene in the car with Tom in Too Much Birthday. Just like- her whole vibe and positioning is very similar idk

Maybe I’m just actually insane, but even the way she’s sitting is a very similar stance in both scenes; she just looks so fucking tired, like “could sleep for 72 uninterrupted hours” tired yk. The lighting is different which is interesting to me and ONLY me. I’ll shut the fuck up now.

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I have so many opinions on everything but for some reason I’m scared to post them lmaoo

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shiv roy (repressed) anger + drunk walk home by mitski

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Derek: where is Emily?

Spencer: She’s in jail.

JJ: Jail!?

Hotch: Spencer, what did I say?

Spencer: that it was only a matter of time.

Hotch, covering Spencer’s mouth: okay, nope didn’t say that.