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Hii :)

Just had to say it back :)

Hi :]

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So I am looking for a new party to play D&D with because mine might stop playing. So, if you are looking for people to play D&D with, I am here. Btw I am new to playing. I just had a few sessions.

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I thought I was better or getting better. Maybe I never get better. Maybe I am meant to be broken forever.

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I probably wouldn't approach you because I would be too scared to do that. But if what wants the case, I would approach you

It was fun to do this.

I don't know how to tag so you can join in if you want :)

I WISH THIS TREND WAS MORE COMMON HERE SO IM STARTING ONE OKAY??!

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I am so lucky that I didn't grow up in a church where they are transfobic and homefobic. I did grow up with going to church, and I have learned that you shouldn't judge someone on how they look and what they like. I have learned that if you do believe that being gay or trans or something like that shouldn't matter. And that transfobic and homefobic people are not right. That is not what I learned from my church. Btw I don't believe in God and Jezus, but I just want to let people know.

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I am starting to listen to Queen more. And it is good. I love it :)

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I am scared of my friends' parents. They are very abusive, that what I think. Like mine friend is sick for a month and sometimes she was coughing up blood, and here parents are like you're faking it you're not sick. BTW, HOW DO YOU FAKE THAT. I don't understand why she is not going to the hospital. Here, parents are transfobic and stuff. What is not nice as a transgender boy. I am worried about here. Like that shit is not normaal.

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Uhhm, I think I kinda asked someone out. Idk if which way it will go, but I see. But he works at the store next to mine school. He told me that he would stop working there. Idk why or how, but I turned around to go back and ask if he wanted to hang out. Now I have his phone number, and I texted him. He probably will not answer until after 8 pm. But that is okay.

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When someone aks my : are you okay? I always answer yhea just tired. But that just feels like a new i am fine. Besides that lately am I always tired enough mine I sleep 8 hours a day. It quite sucks.

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I am rereading radio silence, and I forgot how good it is. I love the friendship between Frances and Aled. I get the whole school Frances thing. And I forgot how much Aled makes me think of a friend I have. They have the same vibe, but they are different. And there mom's are completely different.

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I am very lucky. I am lucky that I have parents who accept me for who i am. I am lucky that I grew up in a good church. They didn't tell you what you can't be. And they accept everyone for who they are. I am lucky I know that, but it makes me feel like I can't complain about the other bad stuff.

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Why the fuck can't I be normal. When I am stressed, I cry. I always fucking cry. I can't be normal. I cry, I shake, and then every see it. I don't know what to do. God, I hate it so much. I don't have any reason to do it. It is stupid and useless. And I fucking hate it.

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Wel, I feel like shit. And very uncomfortable.

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I can't wait till night. I am going to surprise my friends from acting class. I went to an athere group for the class but they didn't. Now, I am going to surprise them by showing up. And I missed them too.

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I love that i get happy birthday text in the last hour from me bday. I think it is very funny.

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The whole day is nice weather outside. Expected the moment when i have to be outside.

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Today, i am going to come out to my grandparents. In the beginning, i didn't want to become they, and they wouldn't remember it. It is a bit more complicated than, and it is hard to explain for me.