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Someone see me. Someone see my pain. Someone listen. I'm crying out so loud and I'm muted by the world around me.

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being suicidal is such a weird feeling, i don’t really wanna die, I just don’t want to exist anymore!

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lowkey wanna disappear for a little

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No one sees my pain. I'm always just fine. My moments are just moments to them that I get over. They don't even know how many times I fake a smile or laugh or joke just to make sure they don't have to feel odd. But then they recognize everyone else's pain but mine. They make accommodations for it. But I'm still forgotten. Unseen. Alone.

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Please please let tonight be the night. I can't fucking do this. Everyone is home. I can't just commit in front of them. They're bigger and stronger than me. I pray to every fucking god out there. Take me. Make me stop breathing. Make my heart explode. Please. Kill me. Please.

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i don't wanna be here anymore.

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it’s sad that some people think that suicide is selfish

yet i have to stay alive and suffer bc i don’t want to make my family/friends sad and miserable

it’s so difficult not to attempt when you’re just so done with your life

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I can physically feel the sadness in my body and i just want to be happy for once

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i wish i killed myself when i had the chance

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chronic feelings of emptiness and unworthiness

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thinking about all the times i wasn’t good enough

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I wish I could just disappear and become nothing else ever again

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I was a fucking idiot to think things would get better!!!

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i feel like the longer you have depression n r suicidal, the less people care

bc its like~ hes depressed rn?? he always is

he hasnt eaten?? he will at some point

hes sh again?? they're never deep anyway

he's gone missing again?? its fine he'll come home

he overdosed again?? he never takes enough tho

he tried to kill himself?? thats okay the attempts have never worked~ so it wont this time