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and theres something blissful about being the most geeked on the bus

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man I would hate to be a seal in a killer whales world

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a manipulators worst enemy is someone with integrity

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short conclusion: tired of being triggered

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the last thing any motherfucker is getting out of me is my autonomy go to fucking hell I’d much rather die than let you have this you think you fucking have control over me? for real? go fuck yourself. wave whatever you think will hold me under your rule and you will be left with nothing. I’d rip out my throat before I’d verbally submit to you. who the fuck do you think you are to assume you can influence me to such an extent, to these ends? you are much less than you think you are to me. much less. keep that toxic shit to yourself.

[machineiam]

DARK AUTISM

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“are you an artist?” idk, am I human?

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i don’t mean this in an unhealthy or an unwholesome way; I’m glad I’m going to die someday

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christianity and all the parent-child relationships it has ruined

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why do you have to be so incompetent? why do you have to be such an asshole? why do you have to be so evil? I just want to love you.

[machineiam]

existing in this current world can feel like hell sometimes with how it rids your autonomy. I want to live past 30, I want to become a therapist, I want to have a room big enough where i dont feel suffocated, I want to own a motorcycle, I want to be with loved ones more often than not, I want to own and foster cats, I want to travel the world, ad nauseam. but no, so much makes one feel like it’s pointless to even try to pursue and THEN im baned with inhumane obligations.

[machineiam]

I still think that a key function of the way we think of the concepts "adult" and "child" is to separate the human population into "people who deserve autonomy but no protection" and "people who deserve protection but no autonomy" and in the process dehumanize both groups of people. We ignore the fact that all people need both autonomy and protection, and that our society could easily be set up to provide everyone a healthy mix of both.

[machineiam]

how the fuck am i supposed to act like a normal functional human being when The Character exists

[machineiam]

If tumblr was an rpg some of the stats would be like; weirdness (WRD), creativity (ART), jest (JST), ennui (WOE), lust (LST), neurodivergence (NDV), and furriness (FUR).

[machineiam]

character who is doomed by the narrative but essentially responds to it by going "nuh uh"

[machineiam]

being autistic is like using google translate for emotions. like, yeah, its right sometimes, but a lot of the time its a little bit off and sometimes its completely fucking wrong