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having a crush is so interesting bc wdym i met this person earlier in june and have met them only once yet every dm we have makes me want to scream🤨🤨 and i look forward to getting a reply from then and replying to them??? (texting is usually very anxiety inducing for me😀)

im yearning bad :(((

i wish we had a picnic date scheduled :c

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just ordered a tee that says girl kisser...

era for unapologetically queer is getting entered

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i live for zoya

Morning Doodle: “Though he and Zoya took pains to hide the urgency of their mission, they rode hard each day and never spent more than a single night in any location.”(Leigh Bardugo's King of Scars CH 11)

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listening to wlw songs makes me feel so single but also feel so full of yearning at the same time

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HAPPY PRIDE MONTH BTW CUTIES

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153/365 Kell

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silly kellila texting. hc that kell likes to send a lot of photos to lila in order to distract her before their training in tftop (she feels self-conscious when he takes photos of her). he likes to send reaction photos too (courtesy of rhy who sends a lot when they text)

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this thing arrived today.

i couldnt have been more excited for something to arrive ‼️‼️‼️

it became a joke between some friends and me, as i hand delivered a letter to someone and i got nicknamed mailman. so fitting for me to stumble in love with kell😃

anyways, it felt super fitting getting this letter opener now that ive got a few pen pals.

thank you to my friend in the us for getting this and mailing it to me youre a godsend <3

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someone look at me the way jakob looks at kevin in the new sauna tour photos

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everyday i get to look at lila and kell.

and i love them so i love looking at them

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Can I just say, uh, I’m pretty sure noticing you’re asexual is harder than noticing you’re gay, straight, pan or otherwise. Like, I just read someone’s desciption of hitting puberty and, like, there’s nothing like that. There’s no sudden ‘boob’ moment, no sudden ‘fuck, I’d fuck that’ moment, not sudden anything. You just, like, plod on through life as usual going ‘oooh, that’s pretty, I’d like that hair’ or ‘oooooh, they’re nice, I’d like to be close to them’ but there’s no like, ‘oh, someone would want to fuck that but I don’t’, you know? You just- you don’t notice, you don’t realise everyone else has ‘had a moment’ but you haven’t, you just- keep going as you always have.

And then, much much later, you start to wonder why people are getting so caught up in drama for romance or sex, like, why bother? It’s not worth it, they’re not worth it, why are you doing stupid things for something that’s so- and then you wonder if there’s something wrong with you, start mentally over compensating. Like ‘uh, okay, um, who should I date? Who can I stand to date? Who could I stand to fuck?’ like- it’s not, it’s not something you want, but you want to fit in, to be normal.

Sometimes you don’t even know that you’re doing it.

Sometimes you don’t even know asexual’s a thing.

I dunno, I guess, I just feel like, uh, people should understand more?

idk sorry thank you for listening to me

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tom odells presale tomorrow goes live when im taking a math test😭😭😭

i NEED two tickets

its not a want its a fucking need i NEED to see him live i missed him a month ago as opener for billie eilish :( (and his exclusive concert in the city)

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im reading the dragons promise and i already miss seryu :((

(shiori basically just returned to land)

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Kell and holland are upset because it’s taken me two years to read the first two books and they hate that they love each other. (Remember to not spoil anything in the tags please)

Tag list: @aspenaspenaspenaspenaspen @thatrandomlemononyourcounter1 @stars-and-stuff @myfairkatiecat @wow-youre-so-pretty @nowjumpinthewater

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i got a test back yesterday, and i got a 5+ out of 6.

i hate how my self worth is so closely tied to school, because yesterday i was almost celebrating but today i cannot help but feel anything other than stupid for not understanding numbers

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Same, Nick. Same.

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“No, I don't ‘ship’ them, I think they should be quarantined together to protect the rest of humanity”

(Alucard Emery on being asked about the antari trio, probably)