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Had so much fun with this one ✨ ignore the usual mid-project agony

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Happy Birthday, my favorite dreamer <3

I should have been working on my thesis but Kim Dokja

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Sketch of Curse Satoru from @charmspoint's fic Cannibalization of the Apex :)

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Managed to squeeze in a commission for @mistystarshine :D -- Please please PLEASE go check out their series that this PFP is based on because it has damaged me so much I adore it; Aki 47 body horror got me FERAL

https://archiveofourown.org/series/3227790

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In a YHK mood for the first time 😳

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Just realized I never posted the depressed pre-ORV KDJ comic I made—perfect timing—happy birthday, our mentally ill demon king 💕

Himb

Wish Kim Dokja was real, solely so I could make him uncomfortable by cherishing him dearly with a birthday celebration

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Wish Kim Dokja was real, solely so I could make him uncomfortable by cherishing him dearly with a birthday celebration

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HEHEHEHHE HAIIIIIIIII :DDDDD

Hello~ 👀

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Mind consumed by the fact that today is the day An Zhe and Lu Feng met for the first time. Valentine’s Day has new importance to me and it’s ✨them✨

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I don’t think you fools can conceptualize how much I love Gun Devil Aki by @mistystarshine from The Intersection of Memory and Identity fic series

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Haveth a a one-page mdzs comic I did for class~ Did I start at 7pm (like a fool)? Yes. Did I only just finish at 5am? Yes. Is my class at 9am? Yes. But the suffering was minimal, because I was drawing Wei <3<3<3

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Ok, so about Kim Dokja.

I could never really parse out why he was blurry/censored to others. I didn’t see a reason for it, you know? Why hide his face? Sangah saw him before the apocalypse started too, like why make it a big secret? It’s not like anyone had seen OD before to recognize current KDJ through.

But then I thought:

When it comes to our own mental image of ourself, we often picture ourself as unclear, more of a vague representation rather than looking in a mirror. What if that was the same for Kim Dokja? He can think of the features he has if he focuses, trying to picture them, but the whole picture isn’t really there without looking in a mirror/camera. Which is very similar to how the others described being able to see KDJ’s features if they tried, but how he was impossible to picture otherwise.

So, my new head canon for Dokja being blurry/indistinct is that it’s not actually because he’s censored but because the information isn’t actually, fully available. The whole world of ORV is built out of KDJ’s dream, his imagination. So then, if his own mental image of himself isn’t clear, his subconscious could not create himself properly in the now-crafted world. 

I ALSO think it could potentially be attributed to him no longer remembering/knowing what he looked like, after being OD for so long. He could have an idea of what he looked like as an adult but not clear enough to make him look normal, and the memories of what he looked like might have just been gone by that point. He wouldn’t be able to find out on accident either, since the face he would see in the windows would be that of child.

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They consume my mind — why pay attention to the classes I paid thousands of dollars for when I could think about my idiots

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Have a Kim Dokja

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Thank you! :D AND YES, go leave muse reviews, send love, and read their fics!!! They’re so good, every 👏🏻 time 👏🏻

I commissioned the fantastic @mavzell to draw a scene from my Unchanging Destinations series!

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Happy news!! I’ve opened a store on TeePublic! All products from stickers to tote bags to shirts and more are available with these designs! I’d really appreciate it if you supported me :D

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First post 😳 Coming to you live with obscure Undetale fanart of Blueberror (by @loverofpiggies). He barely exists as a character but I love him anyway 💕