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good news i'm the most fuckable person at this vehicular manslaughter

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Spite can be a incredible motivator

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OH DAMON ALBARN THE MAN YOU ARE GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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huge shout out to this little kid for writing my favorite poem

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“I’m 14, do you mind?”

“I mind the gap, not the age.”

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I think i finally found out what my type is (kinda):

- Brown/ Sunkissed/ Tanned

- Muscles

- Big eyes with that *spark*

- Thick, a lot, wavy/curly hair (esp. red/dark brown)

- Good dancer

- Genuine big smile

- Looks like flowers bloom wherever they walk

- Whimsy, a bit weird like me, glittery

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His birthday was amazing, i met so many great people, i love their friendgroup, and then i indirecly got invited (she didn’t plan it yet but said id be invited) to my childhood besties bday party, and then theres the abiball of cours

Life is good

ao btw i was plannig only towards my 18th bday and it was what kept me alive

now it's 3am, my "situationship" mainly ignored me, i drank 6+ klopfer and a hugo, at the beginning i had a lil secret breakdown, but 𝜗𝜚 its good

the ppl were si sweet, even if i we weren't that clise befire, i got sweet letters, we danced a lil, talked a lil, ate a lil, and everyone said they loved my party

i basically got invited to 2 bdays alr (3.4. + 6.9. trm i think?) by my bbf / brother (feels older but is a lil younger) and a club bday of my vacay bestie from 5 years ago

then there is the alvaro soler concert too

there are still things living for, and at least 3 to look forward to

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Heute war so ein Tag, an dem ich gemerkt hab, wie viel sich verändert hat. Ich fühl mich nicht mehr so taub wie früher. Irgendwie lebendiger. Aber mit dem Leben kam auch Angst zurück.

Ich hab mehr gute Menschen in meinem Leben – richtig gute. Und genau das macht’s so schwer. Ich hab auf einmal was zu verlieren.

Früher war ich traurig, taub, weil ich nichts hatte. Jetzt bin ich manchmal traurig, weil ich etwas habe, das mir wichtig ist. Das fühlt sich komisch an. So, als wär ich glücklicher… aber es tut mehr weh. Vielleicht, weil mein Herz wieder funktioniert.

Und weißt du was? Ich bin dankbar dafür. Auch wenn’s manchmal zieht.

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Ugh… headache. Head splitting migraine, even.

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I WANNA BECOME TUMBLR FAMOUS SO BAD BC WDYM I OPEN TUMBLR AND HAVE NO NOTIFS AFTER I HAD A MEDIUM BAD DAY

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oh no , the dog is drinking the wave equation

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Okay so basically a lot happened the last few days.

Remember the guy i wanted to do the husband experiment on? Yeah, totally forgot about him.

Why? This carnival i met a rlly cute guy who was doing the first move too, over mutual friends.

We danced together, and then walked together, and our legs were touching while sitting next to each other. He made excuses to walk with me, and adjusted to my pace even when we were in a group with all his friends, yet he chose to walk and talk with me.

We went to the Sunday carnival with a similar group too, he hugged me as a greeting, the same as Saturday, and then he and my gbf made sure i was gonna go to the party they were going to. W talked a little but a lot just in the group, and then he asked me to walk a bit in order to get his bike and we talked alone for like 40 minutes and i felt rlly safe around him. I had told my gbf i was gonna walk with him a lil and he approved. He gave me a rose when he catched one (the second one tho, the first one he kept) and I didn’t.

Monday, he texted me whether i would come to carnival with him, so i went, but i had to leave early, I didn’t know anyone but him, but his friends were rlly cool. Then i invited him to my bday party.

On friday, he rode pass my house, but i was out with my dog and looked rather hideous, it was warm and i was wearing a coat and was carrying my dogs poop bags…

On sunday, i had asked him a day before if he would meet up w me, we went to eat pizza buns in my hometown (we split the bill, it was rather a friends meet up) it was rlly nice but afterwards i felt like i might friendzone him.

On friday, he went to my party and group gifted me a teddy, some chocolate, etc.

On monday/tuesday, he texted me that he was sorry but he didnt rlly have time for a relationship (implied) and wanted to take things slower, so i friendzoned him and we were both much more at ease after.

Weve been texting daily ever since we‘ve met until now and i am so happy to have made a new friend :)))

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ao btw i was plannig only towards my 18th bday and it was what kept me alive

now it's 3am, my "situationship" mainly ignored me, i drank 6+ klopfer and a hugo, at the beginning i had a lil secret breakdown, but 𝜗𝜚 its good

the ppl were si sweet, even if i we weren't that clise befire, i got sweet letters, we danced a lil, talked a lil, ate a lil, and everyone said they loved my party

i basically got invited to 2 bdays alr (3.4. + 6.9. trm i think?) by my bbf / brother (feels older but is a lil younger) and a club bday of my vacay bestie from 5 years ago

then there is the alvaro soler concert too

there are still things living for, and at least 3 to look forward to

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I AM DEEPLY PERTURBED

WTF

i thought my sifu was a feminist but on his WA status he posted 2 videos making fun of feminists

LIKE

one could be a simple joke but TWO????

I THOUGHT HE WAS A FEMINIST WTF