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You forget how far down the rabbit hole you are stuck until you post art in a marvel fan group. Pride specific art. Art which I labelled as being ‘our gay witches.’ Art in which I mentioned their son’s hard birth. Art which named their son as Nicky.

And the first comment was… are they marvel characters…?

Are we that delusional… crap. I think we’re that delusional.

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Finally finished this piece. It involved a lot of tracing and references but I did it for me and I’m glad I got it finished within the month. (struggling a lot with Autistic burnout at the moment and it really sucks!)

Happy pride month witches!!

Also wanted to add there’s a good chance if Nicky ‘died’ at birth that he was starved of oxygen - his birth seems to have been very fast if you note the lack of cuts and the fact we go from Agatha being able to run to giving birth very quickly- and so in my modern version he was able to be resuscitated and has cerebral palsy as a result of his birth.

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Thought you all might appreciate this tarot deck I came across on holiday.

Santa Muerte as a mother, just not in the way it happened lol.

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"Kathryn is a master of using her eyes and mouth in a way I've never seen anyone else do it." — Joe Locke (Actors on Actors)

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On Being Sad

Lilia handles hers with public dignity and a surprising amount of private cursing.

Jen’s rule is never cry in front of other people.

Alice barely remembers how to cry at all.

Nicky just wants his mother to hold him.

Billy listens to melodramatic emo music and bawls like a baby.

Tommy closes his eyes and listens to a memory of someone else breathing.

Natasha can fake it, if you ask nicely?

It’s the one piece of reality Wanda can’t change.

Rio tries to tell herself that it’s anger, but she’s a terrible liar.

What does Agatha have to feel sad about? She traded her son for the Book of the Damned.

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On Missing People

Lilia missed them for decades before they were gone.

Jen tries hard not to get that attached, thank you very much.

Alice listens to a tape of studio recordings just to hear her mother laugh one more time.

Nicky misses his mother, but Rio keeps promising he’ll see her very soon.

Billy misses a brother he doesn’t remember.

Tommy misses a brother he doesn’t know he has.

Wanda won’t waste time on missing them when she can bring them back.

Of course Natasha has people she misses, but those names aren’t for you to know.

Rio really, really, really, really, really misses Agatha.

Agatha can’t wait to tell Rio how much she doesn’t miss her, preferably directly to her face.

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On Anger

Lilia’s is quick and hot, sharp-tongued but easily released.

Jen doesn’t get angry. She gets even.

Alice holds it in for as long as she can, broods over it, then explodes.

Nicky throws things with a child’s rage, then calms down and helps clean up.

Billy’s is more dangerous than anyone expects.

Tommy’s builds up in his chest, resentment he can’t run away from.

Wanda‘s fury at how much the world has taken from her is impossible to contain.

Anger is a loss of control Natasha can’t afford.

Agatha has kept her anger burning for centuries, she’s not letting go of it now.

Rio’s is a simple question—why don’t you want me?!

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Absolutely! I always think of Agatha as the child mostly abused through neglect. She’s been fighting to live since her conception, she just wants to be loved but she never had that from her mother and rarely had the other parts of the hierarchy of needs in place steadily enough to search for it therefore became who she is solely at the hand of Evanora.

well smack the privilege out of me and call me ignorant, because i made a dumb little post about agatha harkness going feral over a corn dog—

and @interstellarnomadoumuamua’s tags hit me right in the chest, actually:

#okay but we all saw how she fucking inhaled the donut in her detective hex and nearly choked #so this women very much eats feral #and probably not enough #just forgets until it hits her

#also she didn't grow up with a mother - she was probably never taught any manners

#also the grip on the drink #reminds me of my cousin in law who grew up with five other brothers and not enough money to feed them so they all eat like this was the last #time they'd eat for the foreseeable future #and would also hunch over their food to protect it from being taken #and so they ate the entire meal in a minute

and now i can’t stop thinking about that.

like.

what if Agatha eats that way because she had to?

because she didn’t know when the next meal would come.

because survival is a hard habit to break.

and then you remember Nicky saying, “can’t you just make me some food?”

and it just—

wowie.

her hunger isn’t just for magic. it’s older than that. deeper. born from never having enough—of anything. food. love. safety. power just happens to be what she could reach.

that line hits so different for me now. thank you for that perspective.

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Finally!!! Woohoo! It’s done! It is a long chapter though so that makes sense lol.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64277857/chapters/171136327

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For all the Agathario writers out there: I am surprised no one has written this as a full piece yet actually but it would be cool to see it done well.

There are so many fics which give Rio a penis, whether that’s through magic strap ons, just magic, or Rio just happening to have a penis.

My feelings on this are two-fold, on one hand I think it sadly says a lot about what people are taught about sex. It’s as though a lot of people don’t know how to write a sex scene with two female characters without a penis-esque part (pun not intended but valid).

I know this could also be reasonably true since there are a lot of babies (aka those who are younger than Millenials and/or never had video tapes as a part of their childhood) in this fandom and we should welcome the babies! The babies were (I imagine at least for those similar in age to me -32-25ish) once us, who found a safe space in fanfic in order to explore and discover our own sexualities and gender identities.

The other side is the one I want to ask for help with. There is more trans representation now in safe spaces, and here is my request which I think would be a great read for both baby queers and the older, less-inaugurated queers too. I will admit I didn’t realise how much societally- spoon fed transphobia I had until my partner came out as non-binary and it’s changed a lot of my thought process but it was also pretty tough at points too.

I’d love someone to write a Trans or intersex Rio. It would most likely have to be a modern au, but that doesn’t have to mean taking magic out of it. It would be a really cool thing to have Rio and Agatha enter into a relationship to begin with where Agatha doesn’t know that the contents of Rio’s pants aren’t what she expected them to be. It would be cool to see Rio trying to edge information out of Agatha, try and see if the woman she is falling for very fast would be accepting of her genitalia. I’d love to see an Agatha who isn’t sure.

I’ve always written Agatha a bit like myself (lesbian who as a teen planned to marry a guy who I liked as a friend, tolerate sex so I could have kids, but the idea of putting that in my mouth, or even really touching it… nope!) but she doesn’t have to be averse to the idea, or maybe she is but she works slowly to overcome that fear and feeling as Rio is working to show that (or those) part(s) of her body to Agatha. It would be really beautiful and sweet to see them build a relationship and see Agatha become the fierce ally that she is (similar to what I’ve become I guess)

Could even go with an intersex Rio managing to get Agatha pregnant, creating the miracle that is Nicky in another way.

I have a lot of thoughts about this and I have some knowledge - my partner was encouraging me to try it, saying I do have some of the insight - but I don’t feel like I have enough insight into the male anatomy side of it. So I’m putting the beacons up! Anyone who wants to use this idea please,please do, and please tell me!! I want to read it.

I’d also happily help with some of my personal experience if wanted for someone to write this but the biggest thing is I’d love to see it be done!

Signal boost this to all the AAA fanfic writers out there!

Tl;dr:

Wanted: Agathario fanfic written with a pretty gay Agatha meeting and falling in love with a trans/intersex Rio, learning about their body differences and learning to work with them. A story about their relationship which also encompasses trans/intersex storylines and deals with learning to love a partner’s body because it’s theirs.

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Went on a little tangent today, working on an art piece (I currently actually have 6 pieces in progress…) for pride with my witchy idiots.

I ended up looking for pride tshirts for Agathario. Rio had a lot of options, Agatha I hadn’t found any until I did and it was so perfect I couldn’t consider looking for anything else.

So here: take them!

Rio:

I’m certain that Rio loves a pun, I also think that ‘was probably not a phase’ is great for the immortal entity that has likely only had these feelings once.

I also loved the somewhat ‘can’t tell if she’s serious’ aspect of Rio in terms of the eating related one.

Like I said Agatha was harder (PLEASE tag me in any posts about this sort of thing because I absolutely want to see all the suggestions people have!) but then I saw this.

The more I looked at it, the funnier it became.

Happy Pride Witches! Be kind to everyone!!!

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So I’ve been very MIA for a bit, been going through a bit of a mini autism burnout I think, I’m still trying to crawl back from it but I am finding myself back in fandom spaces a bit more again and I PROMISE I’m close to finishing the next Breaking the Impossible chapter. I am sooooo sorry that it’s taking sooo long and I really had wanted to have it done at the weekend but my brain wasn’t doing it. I really like this chapter and it will hopefully have accompanying art. Just wanted to say hi guys and I’ve not forgotten about this story - not at all - I’ve read a whole book for writing it lol. It will be in your hands soon!

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Agh! I love this! It’s so cute! Made me really happy to open tumblr and read it.

And yes, The Very First Time, I wrote it a while back so some of my thoughts might have changed but it’s something I really wanted to touch on.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/62831587

Rio: I have feelings for you. Agatha: Why? What's wrong with you? Are you sure you're okay?

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Not insane… or maybe we all are… 🤔

Surely this was deliberate, surely! The language of flowers is used in AAA and I really want to deep dive it fully…

I might be reaching here but the wallpaper in Agnes house in AAA called Pimpernel Garden has, as mentioned in the name, pimpernel flowers on it. SCARLET pimpernels to be exact and one of the meanings behind the pimpernel flower is to hide or disguise one’s identity, which is what the SCARLET witch, did to Agatha. She disguised/hid Agatha’s identity from herself and others through the use of Agnes.

I just found it interesting that the main wallpaper we see is the scarlet pimpernel and that it has this meaning of hiding one’s identity and that the pimpernel is scarlet referring to the scarlet witch who was the cause of the hidden identity. I just wonder if John Collin’s, the set designer, chose the wallpaper because of this or if it’s just a coincidence. I haven’t seen anyone else mention it but if someone did catch it then that’s cool.

Idk if they actually meant for that or if I am just reaching, but it’s interesting either way.

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Thank you! 🤣

Totally agree but I also headcanon Agatha as still very much a baby in this area too. ( one of my favourite bits of my own writing being their first time and they don’t actually know what to do…🤣)

Not only is she very emotionally stunted (thanks Evanora) but she’s never actually done this relationship thing before and so keeps advancing and then running in response.

Eventually getting to a conversation of, ‘where exactly do you feel things?’ And - touching her arm - ‘is it worse if I do this?’ - touching her knee - ‘and this?’

To a pure confused nodding Rio, feeling very vulnerable at the fact Agatha smiles. Then her cheeks go red too when she sees that Rio sees her smiling - ‘are we toxic to one another?’

Rio: I have feelings for you. Agatha: Why? What's wrong with you? Are you sure you're okay?

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The fact this is 100% them is so sweet and so sad! But less sad when you realise Rio’s response. (She had probably never felt romantic love or attraction before)

Rio: I don’t know! It’s so weird, I feel warm - and I feel warm in …strange places… sometimes-and then I can’t stop smiling! And I think you’ve infected my mind somehow. Help!

Rio: I have feelings for you. Agatha: Why? What's wrong with you? Are you sure you're okay?

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Day 7: Breeding,

So here’s day seven for you all, hope you enjoy it :)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65843245