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Such a shame that both your eyes and heart are blind to love. The heavens rain and you run for cover like my heart pouring love and you run and hide. The ocean still as ever but you don’t go near it like me waiting patiently and quietly here for you, but you don’t ever come close enough. Does your soul ever get tired from wanting love, but running from it like a disease? How far will you run before you realize that love is here with me?

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Hey grey eyes, turn around for the last time. Don’t go yet, just wait. Let me kiss your chest as it’s the closest I can get to kissing your heart. Always remember that I love you, I’ll love you all my life and I’ll wait in Jannah for you where sadness is not known.

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Him: You are mine, you been mine and you are mine no matter what you say.

I am yours the way all the stars claim the night sky - quietly, without apology, as if it was always this way.

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No matter who has your heart, may she understand she has the heart that mine would die for. May she hold firmly the hands I had to let go and may she always keep you happy. Know that you are precious to me. Remember that I love you most. I’ll love you where I am and I’ll love you silently until it kills me - even if it already has.

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I gifted you a notebook with all the poems I wrote for you and my hearts raw truths, poured into every page. But it didn’t reach your heart because it’s impossible to pierce even with pure love. What do you have for a heart? Could it feel like mine and does it beat like mine? Or is it empty like your promises?

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With every heartbeat, I love you - even in the silence between heartbeats, I love you. And when my heart stops beating, I’ll still be loving you.

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I love you without reason. Isn’t that the purest form of love? Loving someone completely even if they can’t do anything for you and even if they teach you to walk away?

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You tainted your body with names of people who could never love you more than me, but my name is in your heart and it’ll echo in every lifetime. The crown inked on your chest with her name could never compare to the imprint of me in your soul. The whole world sees the imperfect details written on your skin, but to me it’s just a tombstone of names - grave mistakes.

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In this story, I will always be the writer and there’s a million pages left for me to write about you and when it all runs out, I’ll write in the sky. And if the sky isn’t enough - I’ll learn the language of stars. A love this devoted and deep, do you think Allah will rewrite history for me because I can’t imagine loving anyone else the way I love you.

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Your biggest mistake was thinking that I am replaceable. Having options doesn’t mean that everyone is disposable. You had someone who loved you softly, steadily and consistently. Yet that wasn’t enough. I could bring heaven down to your feet, but you’d still choose to walk away. And although I love you more than I love myself, I will never chase you or sell myself to you. Just know that no matter how far you go and wherever you may be, I am always here loving you quietly but ferociously.

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Fate. Conversations. Music. Intense eyes. Whispers in the dark. Silence. Dreams. Prayers. Come back. Hello again. 3am conversations. Secrets. Truths. Arguments. Walk away. Sujood. Tears. Missing you. Months pass by. One day. Hello once more. Goodbye again. Never ending cycles. Let go. Waiting. Confused. One more try. Hi. Honesty. Fight. Leave. Last time. Farewell, love.

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Time is never on our side. We come together and again, destiny separates us. Let eternity try to stop me. I’ll wait forever, I’ll wait every lifetime until the universe surrenders.

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I’ll forget my name before I forget you and I’ll forget how to breathe before I forget you.

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I create a safe space for you so you can tell me the things you don’t tell others, the dark thoughts in your head, the things you don’t get to say openly and maybe the secrets in your heart. Even though I already know what’s in your heart, I just want to hear it from you. Let your heart speak- I already know its language. You are safe with me for I will build 100 great walls of China around us, I will black out this whole world and we’ll sit in complete darkness until you feel safe to whisper a single word. Even if it’s just to say “Hi”, I’ll whisper back “Wanna play hide and seek?”. My heart already knows where you’re at, it’ll always guide me to you.

There is nothing you can hide from me even if it’s buried at the bottom of the ocean or even if it’s buried in your heart. I understand how scary it is to have someone truly see you, but isn’t it scarier when no one sees you at all? Would you rather feel like a ghost in this world or be seen by someone so completely that she knows your heart as if it was made for her?

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I love and hate with the same heart and I do both extremely well. Choose your poison.

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Allah,

Are you counting my tears? Compensate me and make a new ocean with these tears. I’ll name it after him and remind myself to never love this deep again.

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I’ve run out of words to say. Maybe when they invent more words or another language, maybe then, I’ll better explain how I killed my own heart from loving you.

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