mlm-jasper

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i want to be held tightly so bad right now

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love love love

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soft Guangshi bc man I needed it

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Haven't posted here in a while. I should start posting here more. It's my birthday today. Wish I had a boyfriend

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I wanna be held so bad rn PLEASE

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Yearning for a boyfriend, but also yearning for friends. To play video games with, to text to about my interests and also learn about their interests, to send memes and videos to, all the other stuff friends do.

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I can't stop thinking about Ash and Eiji :( I want to love and be loved in the way they love each other

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I wanna kiss a boy so bad right now agh. Want to kiss a boy all over his face and then just touch his face and stare at him

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Yearning to be laying in a big comfy bed cuddled up against a boy, a soft blanket covering us both as we listen to the rain and the sound of each others breathing

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Spotify playlist and stuff like that would be cool and make me fall for whoever he is more, but a music playlist on a CD would make me fall so hard. I love having physical media

Want a boy that makes me playlists of music he listens to that makes him think of me

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Intro

Hello My name is Jasper. I'm a 19 year old disabled(autism being one of them, so I have issues with communication) intersex and trans gay guy. This blog is where I post to yearn for a boyfriend and ramble about being gay, sometimes I'll post about sexual stuff so I'd rather no one under 18 follow me. I like videos games, horses, dogs, drawing, photography, anime and manga(though I'm just now getting back into them both), reading, stuffed animals.

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I think it's funny that when I was younger and someone told me what being gay was that my reaction was I either said out loud that I was gay or I thought it. If only I continued to be so confident in my sexuality and gender. Would have made accepting things a hell of a lot easier. I guess people weren't so kind to me back then about my confidence in that I was a boy and that I was gay, probably why I had such a hard time accepting myself. I do wonder what my life could have been like if I accepted and came out sooner instead of last year. I've known for a very long time my gender and sexuality but accepting it was the hard part and worrying what reactions would be. So far Ive been accepted still get alot of misgendering by my family but not intentionally I think.

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My weighted blanket isn’t enough I need a guys full bodyweight on top of me and his arms around me

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I wish you all the best, brother. 🫡

You'll find a boyfriend and have the life you want. Just gotta keep trying

Thank you I wish you all the best as well. I hope that I will find a boyfriend I'm going to keep trying or more so actually start trying as I've been in the mindset of why even try. But if I stay in that mindset then I definitely wouldn't be likely to find a boyfriend. Happy pride month to you anon

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Want a man to degrade and fuck me until I'm sweaty and exhausted. Then after I want him to hold me tightly against him and just sit in silence or for him to act like none of it happened and just turn on a show or something

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I'm so close to just downloading Grindr and some other dating apps but also i am very very bad with social cues and all of that because autism and I can't speak or walk or take care of myself at all and also im trans and what guy is going to want someone like me? Who can't even dress and undress himself or shower himself or drive or work or speak or cook or use the fucking bathroom without help

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I love being attracted to men