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I wasn’t able to reply due to restrictions but I had thoughts on this. What if his blood is not as pure as we think? Right? What if there is human somewhere in his lineage. Great great grandma or grandpa had an affair but the baby came out more elf than other so it was covered up and kept quiet. And those genes that make some of us seem to age faster than our counterparts were active in him. Or, if he was such a fan of the sun in life as he is in death, it could be skin damage from being outside so much though the living part of his life. Not sure how that works for elves. Oooo what if Larian Studios is purposefully lying about his age. Because if you rely on your beauty, which is tied to youth in most societies, you wouldn’t want to admit your real age. And revealing someone’s age, who wouldn’t want to, is rude. They were just being respectful. lol! None of that is cannon but it was fun to sip on.

I think Astarion might be alot older than we think. Shadowheart is between 40 and 50 and she looks like THAT. And she's a half elf. There is absolutely no fucking way Astarion died in his 30s as a high elf having wrinkles like that. Even if the years as a spawn were brutal, that's not how vampirism works. He stays how he looked when he died.

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🤣

Having a normal one with the gang

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Ooooo. This pets the darker side of me like a happy cat.

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Happy looks good on him.

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I don’t know what to say other than this is perfection. Thank you so much for this. I’m going to cry in my cup now.

For @morallygreychaoticneutral ❤️For their fic - A Light In The Dark: archiveofourown.org/works/63803341 Bg ripped by @bhaalbaaby 🩷

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A snack from my newest chapter.

Memories Trapped in Time Chapter 4 Unclean

“I meant no offense sweetness. It was just something I came to expect from...lovers that I chose. An automatic notion, nothing more. Though I was concerned at first that you might be one of those anti bath freaks when you never went with the others to bathe in those first few weeks. It wasn’t until I saw you haul a bucket of water into your tent one night that I knew otherwise. It was unexpected to find you were body shy given your personality. Spectacularly brave against insurmountable odds, able to hold your own in an inappropriate conversation but completely unnerved by your own nakedness. It's adorable really.”

He had prepared himself for anything. But he found her to be quite clean. Her skin smelled of some sort of flower essence and her mouth was sweetened with mint. He had to eventually admit to himself that as tedious as it was to seduce her, the experience itself had been different. Pleasant even. But for all this ability to talk anyone into anything, he couldn’t convince her to take the damned shirt off. She had been eager, skilled even, but her shyness spoke louder than her lust. The memory of twisting it in his hand and using it to pull her back against him while he fucked her made his cock twitch.

“I wouldn’t say brave. I was scared out of my mind half the time. Pissed off the other half. Most of those fights were won only because of the horse killing amounts of adrenaline in my blood. Bravery is just chemically induced stupidity in my opinion.”

“Oh? I stand corrected. You were spectacularly stupid.” 

Aloria groaned for having walked into that verbal trap as Astarion mentally pinned his victory with a satisfied smile.

“Well, glad we have established that I wash.”

“It was quite a show, you know. You are very thorough in your bathing routines.”

“A show? What do you mean?”

“Candles cast shadows at night darling. Your form was beautiful against the fabric of your tent the first time I saw you take a sponge to that soft skin of yours.”

Aloria’s eyes squeezed shut against her mental chastisement that she didn’t think to put the candle out.

“You’re kidding me.”

“Don’t fret darling. Nobody was awake but me. And the dog. Who was more interested in gagging himself with a stick than watching you bathe. Dumb mutt.”

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Media Envy

I wish I could draw.

I wish I could paint the stories in my mind rather then render them to paper.

Instant, colorful explanations of situations that elicit awe, desire, despair, hope and rage.

Inspirations to be obtained and adorn walls of strangers who draw emotion from them.

But writing is all I can do.

Putting pen to paper and inscribing hallucination inducing spells that I can only hope are found by those who want to explore the depts of them within their own minds.

But it feels like it will be gone soon.

Lost to idea generating programs with no soul. Just mimicking abilities so well done they come across a human.

Almost.

What will I do then?

I wish I could draw.

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Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: Baldur's Gate (Video Games) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Astarion & Tav (Baldur's Gate) Characters: Aloria/ Tav, Astarion (Baldur's Gate), Gale (Baldur's Gate), Karlach (Baldur's Gate), Lae'zel (Baldur's Gate), Scratch (Baldur's Gate), Wyll (Baldur's Gate), Withers (Baldur's Gate), Shadowheart (Baldur's Gate) Additional Tags: mention of rough sex, Memory of sex, Discussion of Abuse/Trauma, Masturbation, Shame, Past Child Abuse, Religious Guilt, Hope, Connection though understanding, Murder Summary:

Chapter 4 is now up. 

The adventures of Aloria (Tav) and company. A series of emotional side quests between the main events. Conversations, confrontations, revelations, reconnection and more between party members. But mainly from Aloria's and Astarion's point of view.

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Exactly.

writing is 10% storytelling and 90% rearranging three sentences for an hour like you're trying to solve an ancient curse

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I my brain did a hard reset and I couldn’t decide if I was scandalized or impressed. So, I just laughed harder than I should have. Well done. Very nice presentation *claps loudly and giggles uncontrollably.

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Chapter three is now up and ready for consumption. This was a hard chapter to release. Please be mindful of the warnings. But trust that the sun comes out later on. I don’t like to linger in puddles. :) 

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"These eyes are not red. They are rusted from decades of steel resolve soaked in pain filled tears. Waiting to be scrubbed clean of the horrors that infect them. Polished by a revering love so that that may shine with blinding clarity. Forever stained but forever beautiful in their creation." Morallygreychaoticneutral

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So very pleased to see you, Darling.

Radiant Hopeful

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I imagine this being a conversation between Karlach, who’s telling the story. Shadowheart responding and Astarion just laughing his ass off.

Karlach: "I once slept with a guy and he was, this how not clued up I was to sexual positions."

Astarion: Giggles because he knows this is going to be rich.

Karlach: He said "Do you want to do it bare back?"

Shadowheart: Acts repulsed as Astarion continues to giggle.

Karlach: "And I was like, yeah can do."

Shadowheart: No! no no no! Do you know what that means?

Karlach: Shadowheart I got down on all fours.

Astarion: Ahhahahahahah!

Karlach: I was on the bed on all fours. I thought he meant like a bear.

Astarion: Ahhhaha Ahh hahahahahahhahaha!

"Karlach: "I thought he wanted to ride me like a bear."

Astarion: Hahahahahah!

Karlach: "Listen I'm not even lying. This happened."

Shadowheart: "You got on all fours? Coz you thought bare back meant that you needed to imitate a bear?"

Karlach: Yeah.

Astarion: Ahhahahahahah!

Karlach: As in, like, how a bear walks with his legs and two back legs so i got into the bear position, And he went.."what you doing?" And I went "Bare back, init?"

Shadowheart chokes on her wine as Astarion continues to fall apart.

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Fix this! Please. The second one at least. The first one seems more Ascended Astarion. I wonder if they scrapped it for Karlach and Astarions kiss instead.

there's a bugged spawn kiss?

Yes! It's unfinished and I guess the devs just kinda gave up on it. But people datamined the game files and found that spawn Astarion has a third kiss that never plays. Then they found the animations and realised why, it's really unpolished and only kinda works with BT2 or masc body type gnomes. But it's being worked on! Best part about it, is it has a neck kiss too >:3

I tried to find the Reddit post that showed the animations but I can't seem to track it down.

*edit* FOUND IT (link to original post, as this is clearly not my video). As you can see, it's very unfinished. Just needs some tweaking and then we can all enjoy Astarion neck kissies :3 Also there's possibly two here??? One's just a kiss and the other seems to be a bite since he comes back with blood on his mouth. Either way I NEED THEM.

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Seems to be a lot of drama going on in the fandom. Is Mercury in the microwave again? I’m telling you those celestial bodies are worse than squirrels.

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They remastered Oblivion?! The game that got me addicted to RPGs!? Well… guess I’ll just have to play it to make sure they didn’t break anything. Quality control of course. You understand.

Now where did I lay that sweet roll.