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This BL Bracket is showing me that it's never been about the kiss for me.

It's about the fact that even if they didn't kiss, nothing would be the same after that moment, and both men are fully aware of it.

The kiss just cements it.

It seals their fate on their lips.

One day you will kiss a man you can't breathe without, and find that breath is of little consequence.

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men in Japanese bl leaning on their hands admiringly is my new thing

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Hey i won a award at my school for something today! if anyone cares

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learning about dantes inferno. am at francescas story. hozier i get u

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Was crashing out. ate a caramel ice cream. am okay

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Today's edition of "Merthur interactions that drive me crazy"

Merlin & Arthur - 2.12 "The Fires of Idirsholas"

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James Wilson super empathetic and incapable of making rational decisions when someone is in pain and he decided to specialize in treating terminally ill patients. No wonder House wants to study him like a bug

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Theyre so real because the "How would you do it?" "With my hands." has to be one of my favorite exchanges exactly because of this.

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James Wilson super empathetic and incapable of making rational decisions when someone is in pain and he decided to specialize in treating terminally ill patients. No wonder House wants to study him like a bug

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I think with all the self-awareness Hannibal has, he doesn't actually know himself very well. That is a big reason why he is so obsessed with Will's view of him because he's never had someone who could give him an accurate reading of himself. There are things we all are unaware of that we do, and most of us can rely on others around us to point it out. But Hannibal has never had that. Even with Bedelia, she responds to what he tells her and what she guesses, but she is not able to truly read Hannibal either. Will is the only one who can. Hannibal is curious about himself, and Will is the only one who can tell him the things he does that he doesn't realize. He is the only one who can give him a genuine perspective. When the average person is discovering/questioning themselves and their identity, they can go to therapy, they could talk to their friends, Hell, they can go get drunk at a bar and talk to the bartender. Hannibal has no one who knows him and nobody who could give him any kind of self insight. Except Will Graham.

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Anyone else ever think about the fact that in this scene…

…Will is basically telling a real woman to fuck off after she (gently and reasonably) invites him to reconsider the wisdom of his continuing affection for Hannibal?

And then when she’s gone, he goes back to hanging out with his imaginary projection of Abigail Hobbs.

And his projection of Abigail very conveniently understands and endorses Will’s continued attraction to Hannibal.

Which is a little bit weird, given that the real Abigail Hobbs was terrorized, held captive, and murdered by Hannibal.

“She just gets me.” BITCH THAT’S BECAUSE YOU MADE HER UP.

Honestly, I think it’s one of Will’s ugliest moments as a character.

It’s also extremely illustrative of how much Will is willing to lie to himself, even when those lies are unconscionably self-serving, and how easily he deprioritizes other people when he really, really wants something for himself.

On the surface, it’s a weird failing for a character so defined by his empathy.

[ How does Will’s empathy just turn off? ]

But it makes sense to me when I think of Will’s relationship to empathy as being analogous to my own relationship to risk-avoidance.

I have OCD. I exist in a constant state of low-level terror that if I am not careful enough, I will die prematurely, and it will be My Fault.

But sometimes, I do things like stand on a rickety cat tree in front of a second floor picture window to put up Christmas lights. Which, objectively, is a risk most people probably wouldn’t take.

And I think it’s just that I’m so used to ignoring false-alarms of the “THIS WILL SURELY LEAD TO YOUR DEATH!” variety that I just sometimes, subconsciously, decide ‘Fuck it’, and do whatever the fuck will get me to my goal the fastest. Because I am just so tired and frustrated and overwhelmed.

If we see Will’s empathy as a burdensome and intrusive thing - a distracting and often distressing mental process which he usually can’t turn off, and which makes his life much more painful - it kind of makes sense that under the right amount of stress (e.g. the kind he gets from thinking about Hannibal Lecter), he would be liable to just flip into emergency-override ‘Fuck it’ mode.

[ Abigail, Molly, and Will’s resentment of the perceived expectation of masculinity ]

I also think it’s really interesting to compare the lie he tells himself about Abigail (“the girl Hannibal literally murdered would want him and I to be happy together”) to Will’s other big lie (“She knows enough”).

Both Abigail and Molly are women who Will feels a sense of duty to, and who make him feel like he has to perform a stereotypically cis-het neurotypical masculine role - Abigail, as a father, and Molly, as a husband and step-father.

I think it’s possible to read Will as resenting both the duty, and the (perceived) pressure to perform cis-het neurotypical masculinity. And if we read him this way, I think it’s possible to extrapolate that his resentment of the “burdens” associated to these women for Will also made it easier for him to subconsciously justify lying about / to them.

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Tell me why i twisted my ankle falling off the bed, my brother comes in here asks if im okay, andthen says " its your fault for running around your room" while im still crying in pain?????? Like wtf????

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Ren: Doc says “you know Ren what helps not being single, never mention you are in love with Minecraft only” (laughs) I mean. It’s—it’s a great game, Doc. Like, is this not the greatest game ever made? Like, the greatest experience ever made? It’s not just about the game, right? Like, dude, like—being a Hermit? Being on the Hermitcraft server is there anything, like, more awesome than this? I ask you. Listen, ladies, I love ya, you guys are (does a chef’s kiss) /mwah/. But is there anything better than being a Hermit? I say nay. I say nay. (five seconds of silence, his eyes flick to the camera knowingly) I mean there’s maybe /one/ thing better than being a Hermit. (Seconds of silence) But. Family friendly channel.

Ren: Being a Hermit’s the best thing there is, okay? (thirteen seconds of silence, then he laughs) Doc had to deal with grieving ladies? I’m sorry DocM, I’m sorry brother.

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2 more months of being 17. can feel the existentialism creeping in

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why are they the silliest trio ever. everything about this video is perfect from the way joe jumps in right as rick astley starts to the way cub only jumps when it starts playing a second time. scar dancing irl. joes little dance moves while cub does move or make eye contact with anyone the entire time. these horns are like baby sensory videos to them. literally just some bugs i found outside and put in a jar with some leaves and sticks