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GOD SPITE ME DOWN

SKK needs to be made cannon, at this point the creators are just edging us on like.. THE SCENE IN THE BSD MANGA WHERE DAZAI LITERALLY TELLS CHUUYA HE LOVES HIM??! CHUUYA LITERALLY BEING DAZAI'S REASON TO LIVE?? this is not brotherly love, this is gay. It's pride month.. the perfect time to make them gay, come on!! we need a damn petition, like.. we aren't getting Fyozai bc that's just deadass toxic, we aren't getting sigzai cause idk sigma is probably dead, we aren't getting kunizai because Kunikida and Margaret are literally made for eachother (change my mind) so why not just make skk cannon?? like.. you know you want Dazai to be gay with someone... why not Chuuya? like, just a kiss is okay guys... just a little kiss.. maybe say gex if we're thinking extreme..

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Sigh..

who voted no..? come on, come on guys admit it.. I know one of you bitches thinks Dazai is straight.. come on, tell me who it was..

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Dazai- Bungo stray dogs <3

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SCENE!!!!! First Drawing with a more realistic looking body :3 I used a sitting pose and adjusted the arms and legs cause I didn't like it :P Their name is Ashlyn Btw !!!

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I'M DRAWING FEM DAZAI!!!! I'm giving in :3

I'll post it when I'm done :D

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SAHDFLKA

HONEY WHAT YOU TAKE WHAT YOU TAKE HONEY LOOK AT ME TELL ME WHAT YOU TOOK WHAT'D YOU TAKE

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IS THIS WEIRD

I hate loosing joy for something I was invested in, It makes me feel like shit when I stop loving something I used to love, it makes me feel bad about the things I bought or made, all the effort or money put in to something that I don't even like anymore, I hate the feeling that I get when I watch A video I would have loved and suddenly I feel empty, and bored, and like It's going nowhere. I miss being so invested in it, getting so much rare joy from it, watching everything with just a scene, even if it's low quality.

and I hate losing love for people! people who used to make you so so happy, make you laugh even when you thought you couldn't, rant to you about things they love and let you talk when you want to. a person that cares for you so much, would do anything for you, and you would do the same! but suddenly time passes, or something happens and it's just not the same, you don't get that fun rush when you're around them, you don't cling to them when you're anxious, or sad, you just feel bad. like you're leading them on, like you're selfish, they still love you so much, talk to you every day and go out of their way to do things for you, be nice to you but you don't deserve it! you really don't! you lost your love for them so easily, what makes you a good friend? or partner? or kid?! you try so so hard to feel how you used to, spend as much time with them as you can but it's not the same, it will never be the same, and it's your fault.

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YAHOO

GUY S GUYS GUYS I GOT PUT ON ANTIDEPRESSENTS A MONTH AGO AND I ACTUALLY FEEL REALLY GOOD NOW?? LIKE... YAHOOO

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Medicinee

I recently got put on medicine for anxiety and depression.

I have to wait a while to see if anything will happen and I think it will?

I don't know if it will work but I hope it does, I wanna know what being 'normal' feels like, if it even makes that big of a difference.

I think I might have ADHD though so I have to go back again to get ANOTHER diagnosis

this is the most I've ever left the house 😔

anywayss bye.

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whatt

My mom wants to put me on anti-depressants soo.. yahoo

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songs>>

some of my favorite alex g songsss <3

(this was friggin' hard to order because i like all of them. order is least-most)

Rocket

16 mirrors

I wait for you

Tripper

Skipper

Harvey

TV

pretend

Hollow

Sorry

Race

Gnaw

Nintendo 64

Bug

Candy

know now

things to do

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ah

IT IS ILLEGAL FOR THIS MAN TO ACTUALLY BE KINDA CUTE (NOT CAUSE HE'S JACKED, HE'S NOT HOT HE'S LIKE.. SO BABY WTF) https://www.tiktok.com/@retrobrx/video/727513894324117837

(silly little tiktok link)

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Vent part 3

do you ever feel like everyone hates you? or like people are always so.. bipolar when it comes to you? like they're nice to you one day and then the next day they're screaming at you and saying you ruined their life? and then all of a sudden it's back to normal, the next day they just act like nothing happened so you have to forgive them or you'll be a jerk. cause that's what happens ALL THE TIME in my life, not just with my friends but with my parents, my siblings, even my grandparents. you know it's toxic but if you call someone out for it your being 'overdramatic' and you should just chill out. you're constantly sick of people, of yourself, of everything in general, and the best part of your day is the time you spend laying in bed, maybe you're awake, maybe you're not, but it doesn't matter for a short time you can finally Breathe, it feels so good, you've waited so long for this day to be over. and then all of a sudden, boom, a ton of stupid ass thoughts bombard their way into your brain, sometimes you can make them out, other times you can't but when you can it's always the same thing, if you left they would be happier, you're a burden, you're going to disappear one day, and nobody will miss you, then all you can do is ignore them, and sometimes it makes you fall asleep, or cry, or spend hours at a time on your PC/Phone or doing anything to block them out, even though it's only temporary because nothing can make it go away, because it's been here so long.. and it's who you are at this point.

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AHHGH

literally me. anyways so.. super energetic cause the adhd is kicking in in like all ways possible sooo.. anyways how are you :D

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"watch your profanity.."

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drew lil' bal from Nimona, I really wish there was more on his backstory cause he's so precious

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Right, considering the current state of corporate politics on this site, and that it seems that only those affected seem to be actively speaking on the matter, it is up to I, the only fucking cishet on tumblr, to drag this out to a wider audience.

REBLOG IF YOUR ACCOUNT IS A TRANSFEM SAFE SPACE.

We need to show these higher ups how much we truly value them.