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Minnesota sports fan are the worst. Fuck them

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Why? Why are all the cisgender hetero- and bi-sexual men i date addicted to p*rn????

Can they seriously not tell the difference between something on a screen and their real life partner in the bedroom upstairs? I don't understand.

Individuals who identify as male, can you help a cis-lady out, and try and explain this please?

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My world is crashing down around me. I've spent 9 years fighting my demons, but now, they're winning.....and I'm.....losing......my strength is fading...and I just can't......

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I should have followed my uncle's path and just done drugs my whole life.......it would have been an easier end

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My Boyfriend's Mom

Dear void,

Tonight, I got hurt. We were driving home on icy roads and my boyfriend's mom texted my boyfriend to see if we were home safe. My boyfriend handed me the phone since he was driving, and I saw in a previous conversation that they were talking about me.

About my financial struggles since I moved here, and her remark of "well, it might be time for some tough love. Her mom and dad probably bailed her out one too many times."

I'm sorry, what? I am so tired of people assuming that just because I'm biologically an only child, that my parents have always spoiled me and never made me face the consequences of my mistakes.

My initial reaction was anger, that this woman doesn't know me, she doesn't know what I've been through or what my parents have been through. Then, I felt hurt. That this woman I want to like me, and I want her to know that I am worthy of her son may think that I'm taking advantage of her son's finance.

Before I started dating my boyfriend, I would have simply cut her out of my life, thinking "fine, if she wants to assume this about me, then she doesn't deserve to know me." But, with the addition of my boyfriend, my feelings aren't the only ones that matter any more, and this is his mom and I REALLY want her to like me.

So, here's hoping her and I can work things out.....after I can get over the hurt of someone I like assuming things about me

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Actual conversation between me and my boyfriend last night:

Boyfriend: you're exhausted, I'll cook dinner

Me:

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My coworkers and I with each other:

My coworkers and I when someone threatens one of us:

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Dear void,

The drama with the dog continues. Every single Monday when I physically cannot take him for a walk, he pisses all over the house and on my furniture. I hate this four legged beast. Today he went too far by peeing on my favorite couch. I've had it. I told my boyfriend that the dog is now an outside dog. Food, water, everything.....either that, or we go to the humane society. Today.

I told him I wasn't a dog person, he still wanted me to move in. I've tried over the past almost 3 months to cope with the animal, but with peak season knocking on the door, I will be too mentally, physically, and emotionally drained to deal with an animal that I don't love (or like in any way), nor did I want.

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An update: this fucking useless piece of shit animal has chewed up a $200 bra. I'm seriously debating of sitting my boyfriend down with an ultimatum....I didn't want it to come to this, but I feel like I don't have a choice anymore

The Dog

I hate my boyfriend's dog. It's a German Shorthaired Pointer and my God, this dog is a LOT. His energy levels are off the charts, like I take him for an hour or longer walk and after we come home, he is STILL active. The second my boyfriend comes home, the dog is all over him, my boyfriend barely has any time to say hi to me and the dog is demanding his attention (which to my irritation, he gives him).

I've always had cats in my life, so this energizer puppy is completely opposite from everything I'm comfortable with. Luckily, my boyfriend is decently understanding and has agreed to certain.....boundaries. The dog now sleeps in his kennel at night and is at doggie day care two days a week (thank fucking Christ almighty).

Part of me wants my relationship with the dog to improve for the sake of my relationship during the (God help me) 9 long remaining years of the dog's life.....the other part.....I don't want to think about.

Yes I'm selfish, yes I'm a bitch. Believe me, I know, and believe me, I'm aware I'm incredibly lucky to have my boyfriend who I don't deserve, but goddammit I love him......his dog......I want to....but don't think I can.

Thank you void.....I'm done ranting now

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The Dog

I hate my boyfriend's dog. It's a German Shorthaired Pointer and my God, this dog is a LOT. His energy levels are off the charts, like I take him for an hour or longer walk and after we come home, he is STILL active. The second my boyfriend comes home, the dog is all over him, my boyfriend barely has any time to say hi to me and the dog is demanding his attention (which to my irritation, he gives him).

I've always had cats in my life, so this energizer puppy is completely opposite from everything I'm comfortable with. Luckily, my boyfriend is decently understanding and has agreed to certain.....boundaries. The dog now sleeps in his kennel at night and is at doggie day care two days a week (thank fucking Christ almighty).

Part of me wants my relationship with the dog to improve for the sake of my relationship during the (God help me) 9 long remaining years of the dog's life.....the other part.....I don't want to think about.

Yes I'm selfish, yes I'm a bitch. Believe me, I know, and believe me, I'm aware I'm incredibly lucky to have my boyfriend who I don't deserve, but goddammit I love him......his dog......I want to....but don't think I can.

Thank you void.....I'm done ranting now

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Upheaval

I'm supposed to be asleep right now, but I can't.

In two and a half weeks, I am leaving behind everything I know and love, the community I've been blessed to call my home for the past 30 years, my hopes, my dreams, everything.

I had a plan for my future, I was going to graduate college next year, and work towards a career at the Smithsonian. But now, I can't. While I'm still graduating, moving to DC or New York is completely out of the question. Why you (the void I write to about all my bullshit) might ask?

The love of my life. I'm leaving everything behind for him. Transferring to a facility in my current company (that I don't want to be at, but, no choice). So, why am I moving? 3 simple little answers: he (currently) has the better job, he already had a house, and he has an overly dramatic dog.

I love him, but I know he doesn't understand the soul-crushing weight of having to abandon my goals that I've worked so hard for over the past 8 years for.

I just wish he understood.

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So the once-teachers, now-friends that my sister and I went out to visit a few weeks ago got me right in the feels. Let me explain:

Our one teacher had a....unique form of discipline in his class, instead of just handing out detentions left and right, he'd give you a form of mathematical purgatory. I'm not going to try to explain it, since my explanation won't do it justice.

While I was in his class, I never got one of these punishments. So, while we were out visiting them (15 years later), I asked for one. He gave me the numbers and the directions, and I began to work on it when I got back home......I solved it in two days.

So I mailed it off to him, and his wife sent me a picture of him going over it.....with a look of absolute pride on his face. His wife texted me that he was so impressed that he's keeping it and has added it to his stack of favorite papers, and that they think it's amazing how fast I solved it.

You guys, my teachers are proud of me....somebody's actually proud of me🥺❤🥺

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So...my sister and I just got back from an awesome vacation visiting two of our old middle school teachers who live over 1,000 miles away. We got back on Thursday, and I still miss the crap out of our once-teachers now-friends. Especially this time of year with my PTSD flare-ups starting up again....I wish I could be out there in the mountains having a cup of coffee with them and talking to people who actually care about my well-being....

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So Pokémon Go wants me to make a new friend, anyone who still plays my Trainer Code is:

7151 1851 5239

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Another Christmas and another year alone, all the movies this time of year suck, reminding single people that we have no worth in society except as comic relief and charity projects.

On top of the bitter and crushing loneliness I always feel this time of year, 2021 took my favorite uncle and my oldest kitty, so here I sit in my room alone. Again. As I always have been, and as I always will be.

Bah. Humbug

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Same Nadia, same

Mood.

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With it being Mental Health Awareness Month, and another month during a global pandemic, please remember to take care of yourselves friends. You are valid, and you matter. If you have positive people in your life to reach out to, please do. Also, please remember the National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255

Stay safe friends, you are loved and this world needs you in it. ❤