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adj. entranced and unsettled by the vastness of the universe, experienced in a jolt of recognition that the night sky is not just a wallpaper but a deeply foreign ocean whose currents are steadily carrying off all other castaways, who share our predicament but are already well out of...
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Hey No One
I've been writing more. But that's not what this post is about. I've had some adult beverages this evening, and so this may not be my most eloquently written piece to date.
I broke up with a girl today. And I didn't tell her the truth about why I was breaking up with her. I told her some shit story about how I couldn't be myself around her, and so I felt like I was creating a false relationship with her. She thought she was with someone who didn't actually exist. While this was true to a certain extent, the real reason was that I just didn't like her any more. My brilliant mind decided that in that moment it was best to lie to her and tell her that there was something wrong with me, and avoid telling her that I didn't like her. In hindsight, that would have been easier, because she won't stop trying to contact me.
Anyway, I feel like shit. Mostly for having said goodbye to her, but mostly because after I sleep with any girl I feel like shit. I don't know what it is, but something about sex makes me want to never see them again. I really wish I reacted differently, but my brain thinks it's funny to fuck me over. So, I'm gonna stop going out with girls for a while. I don't want to cause pain to anyone, and I'm sick and tired of the bullshit sick feeling I get at the end of every 2 day fling I have with a girl.
I hate being alone, but I think it's best for everyone that I remain that way. I feel like I'm leaving behind me a trail of girls who I've hurt, and I just completely cut ties to them when I'm done with them. I hate the person I've become in respect to this. It's probably best to just not deal with any kind of relationship. I wish I were back in high school when I could just be content with making out with a girl on a couch somewhere. Oh the things I would change if I could go back to high school with the knowledge I have now. That's actually my greatest wish. To relive my final year of high school with the knowledge I currently possess would be absolutely amazing.
I'm almost done this beer, and about to open another. Aaaaand it's open. Good night tumblr. I hope to post here more regularly.
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This Wonderful Life
I may have finally found proper inspiration to write. Despite how much I hate the feeling of utter misery, I do also enjoy that feeling of deep pain. If that makes any sense. In any case, I have found a way to write what I want to write, and abandon the horrendous abomination that was my most recent writing project. I tried to take something on that was far too large. It was an immense project, and it just fell apart very early on.
I will prevail! This next attempt should be good. :D
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Helpful Tip #2
Saying "I really need to start working out" is really not helpful. It's the truth, but doesn't actually motivate you to start working out. "I'm gonna start working out" is a little better. Actually getting away from your computer is even more beneficial. :)
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Blind
I could reach out
And take your hand
And yet they shout
And there they stand
With hand o’er eye
I’m left to cry
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Progress This Time
Since I last posted here, I went through some very interesting things in my life, from depression to utterly phenomenal happiness. Following my emotional fun ride was my writing. I took some breaks, and I did some rewriting, as well as complete destruction of shitty, shitty manipulations of this beautiful language that I accomplished possibly while drunk. I eventually reached a point in my set goals for writing where I had ideas for 3 books going, along with other small subplots thrown in. I knew I couldn't ever manage to get them all down before I lost the inspiration to finish, so I came up with a wonderful plan. A coupe weeks ago, I took my best ideas, and simplified them until they were very raw, incredibly basic themes for a single book. Using only one set of characters and one wonderful world, I hope to get my ideas down into a single story. This makes things easier for me, and will save me a little bit of time. I'm also going to try my hand at poetry one of these days. I'm sure they'll be crap, but with practice, I'm sure I'll get better. And I'll feel better about it. I'm writing this at 2 in the morning, so forgive me for improper sentence structure and spelling mistakes. I don't wanna edit this right now. Good night, and have good times.
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Problem
Minecraft is far too addicting. No writing has occurred. I did read some of a book though.
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Let's Start Again
I'm totally going to continue writing tomorrow. Today was busy and I also just got some new books delivered that I have to read. To add to all the madness, I came up with an idea for another book. I need to stop coming up with ideas, or I'll be writing forever. Even if nothing gets published, I still have the need to keep writing. I'm not sure why this is, but it just adds complication to life.
I'm going back to school in January. There's something else to distract me from writing. Hooray.
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Ok, Sorry
I'm saying sorry mostly to myself. I have done no work in the past week. I may have been watching Dragon Ball from the beginning. I may start writing again next week. Hopefully.
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Weird Stuff
My carpet smells good. I've gotten a lot weaker in the past few months. I can't do one handed push-ups anymore. Writing is progressing slowly. I also need to find a job.
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Laziness is Limitless
I have now become so incredibly lazy that I now go out to purchase clothes with money I don't have, just so I don't have to do laundry.
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Further Pondering
Despite the fact that I am nowhere near the end of my book, nor even begun to finish the beginning, I have fallen into a terrible place, where my decisions begin to take control of me. I make it sound worse than it actually is, but what I feel is what matters right now. Anyhow, I've been trying to figure out how to finish the book. I shouldn't even be thinking out this right now, but it's driving me crazy.
Should it have a sad ending, or a slightly sadder ending? I'm leaning toward the latter right now, but I continue to fly back and forth between them, as if my ideas have started to play a game of tennis, and are using me as the ball.
I also got some Krav Maga instructional videos. I'm not expecting much from them, but perhaps it will give me a good idea as to what to expect from actual classes.
Good day.
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Ha. Haaaaaaaaaaahahahahaha!
I did work today. I started developing more of my storyline. I wrote a bunch today. It was all ideas written down in my notebook. Feeling better now that I've done something. My god this is great. Now I'm going to eat a cake, and maybe watch 12 hours of lord of the rings. Yay.
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Late Night
Hesher is a phenomenal movie. Watch it. Watch it now.
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