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My life is so messed up. One day I’ll be in love with the universe and laughing at everything and so excited to be alive, and the next day I’m curled up on the floor crying because I’m exhausted and tired of existing and I can’t see any way of life ever improving.

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There are people you haven't met yet who'll someday love you.

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Having Depression and OCD is wild. I’ll be lying in bed with no motivation or will power to get up or do anything or live, but if I don’t get up and turn the light on and off four times RIGHT NOW my entire family is going to die and it’ll be all my fault.

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Happy Thanksgiving!

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I have made 84 pumpkin pies in the last two days.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

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People always say that one of the best things is when someone says “This made me think of you!” But once, the guy I liked was like “Oh, this made me think of you!” and I got all flattered and excited that he had been thinking about me. Then he proceeded to tell me about an article he had read about how they had made the orcs look so ugly in The Lord of the Rings movies. o_0

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Does anyone like poetry? My life has been consumed recently by trying to write 50,000 words of a novel for NaNoWriMo, so here’s a poem about writing....

This Ends Tonight

Black as night, the sky cloaks itself in shadow Blank stars, pure white – an empty void. Mere mortals sleep, safe within the silver cape of dreams Yet I, awake, watch my life swallowed by the beast. Glowing coals flaming beneath his gray-worn ribs Searing flame, red as blood-lost lives. Each shaking word which pours forth from his mouth Pieces me, changes me – yet I created him. Scaled the mountain this far, too far Too late to leave the battle now. I must complete what must be done. Turn the page. The tides change here. Falling now, soon my dénouement will come The beast’s name; my name; both on the cover We’ve done this together I cannot abandon it now. No return. No going back. Leave was lost too long ago. I brandish my ink-smeared, fire-blaze blade Point it at the monster. This ends tonight.

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the feeling when your mom calls you to ask what you want from starbucks because she drove by and thought youd like some then she buys you a cookie too? thats love. your friend knowing your drink order from tims (”a frozen lemonade right?”)? that’s love. your friend asking in the middle of something if you’re okay because you zoned out and got lost in your head and they just know that? that’s love

love is being known, love is someone taking the time to know the little things about you. your drink order from your favourite coffee place. the book you’re reading. the classes you love and the classes you hate. your favourite chocolate. things they picked up on from spending time with you because they like you and want to know you.

love is connecting songs to a person in your life. each person has A Song, and when you fight you either cannot listen to it or thats all you listen to. love is seeing things everywhere that remind you of different people in your life and sending them pictures or telling them about it. sending your friend the meme that reminded you of them.

love is in the little things, the small everday gestures that remind you someone cares, someone is there for you.

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Parts of the Body Asks!

Head: How do you like to wear your hair? What hairstyles do you find attractive? Have you ever wanted to do something drastic to your face/hair? What's your favorite part of your face?

Ears: What's your favorite music genre? Do you have any piercings? Favorite non musical sound?

Eyes: What's your favorite color? Time of day, aesthetically? Animal you find the prettiest? What do you find attractive in a person?

Nose: What's your favorite smell? Least favorite? What scent do you find comforting? Is there an outdoorsy smell that appeals to you? (beaches, pine trees, sand, ect.) Boop? Y/N

Mouth: Do you have a favorite taste? Least? Do you like kisses? How do you feel about teeth? Do wear lipstick? What's your favorite shade?

Neck: Where are you most sensitive? How deep is your voice? Do you like your voice? Can you sing?

Shoulders: Do you consider yourself to be easily stressed out?

Arms: Are you strong, physically? Do you think you give good hugs?

Wrists: Do you wear a lot of jewelry? What kind? Is there a certain type of jewelry that you just can't stop getting?

Hands: Are you artsy? Do you play any sort of instrument? Do you draw? Do you write? Do you have soft hands? Do your hands ever idle or do you always have to be doing something with them?

Fingers: Do you paint your nails? Are they painted now? What color?

Chest: Where do you feel safest? What comforts you the most? How do you usually calm down?

Stomach: What's your favorite thing to eat? What gives you butterflies? Have you ever been on a roller coaster? Do you have any food allergies?

Hips: Do you put your hands on your hips a lot? Do you close doors and things with your hips? Can you dance? Have you tried?

Back: What position do you sleep in? Got any tattoos?

Butt: Ever really hurt yourself slipping on something? Ever accidentally sit on something you really wish you hadn't?

Legs: Are you a strong runner? How flexible are you? Do you consider yourself to be a clumsy person? Have you ever broken a bone?

Ankles: Do you feel like you have enough support? What would you consider a weak spot, physical or mental? Have you ever broken something on purpose? (Smashed a window, knocked over a lamp, ect.)

Feet: Do you ever go outside barefoot? Do you like slippers? Have you ever stepped on a lego or something similarly bad?

Toes: Are you a risk taker? How tall are you? What's the worst thing you've ever stubbed your toe on? Can you pick things up with your feet?

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Haha, of course I finally start drawing again and then tumblr starts moving really slow on me. It’s probably just my laptop though - it’s been having issues recently.

ALSO NaNoWriMo started yesterday, so I’ll probably be channeling what’s left of my creativity towards that. 

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I’m back! Finally drew something again! And it’s a phoenix! (Kind of fitting, isn’t it? Rising from the ashes of my long absence...) I love phoenixes. Even if they are mythological, they’re almost inspiring, and a great encouragement to get back up on your feet after a tough day. Or week. Or year. 

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Shoutout to the People

Who make me smile on the hardest days, just because they exist. 

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To anyone who cares: I’m sorry that I haven’t drawn or posted in FOREVER. Apparently depression also impacts your creativity. 0_o

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Does anyone else out there have a really weird mix of hobbies and interests and ambitions? I realized today that I’m a student who works part time at a bakery, but all I really want to do is move to another country and spend my life writing, but that’s not realistic so I guess I’ll go through ten years of graduate school and become a neuroscientist because I’m pretty smart and brains are cool.

What is my life.

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Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well

PLEASE DON’T LET THIS FLOP AHHHH

1. What is you middle name? 2. How old are you? 3. When is your birthday? 4. What is your zodiac sign? 5. What is your favorite color? 6. What’s your lucky number? 7. Do you have any pets? 8. Where are you from? 9. How tall are you? 10. What shoe size are you? 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 12. What was your last dream about? 13. What talents do you have? 14. Are you psychic in any way? 15. Favorite song? 16. Favorite movie? 17. Who would be your ideal partner? 18. Do you want children? 19. Do you want a church wedding? 20. Are you religious? 21. Have you ever been to the hospital? 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? 23. Have you ever met any celebrities? 24. Baths or showers? 25. What color socks are you wearing? 26. Have you ever been famous? 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? 28. What type of music do you like? 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 31. What position do you usually sleep in? 32. How big is your house? 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? 34. Have you ever fired a gun? 35. Have you ever tried archery? 36. Favorite clean word? 37. Favorite swear word? 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 39. Do you have any scars? 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? 41. Are you a good liar? 42. Are you a good judge of character? 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? 44. Do you have a strong accent? 45. What is your favorite accent? 46. What is your personality type? 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? 48. Can you curl your tongue? 49. Are you an innie or an outie? 50. Left or right handed? 51. Are you scared of spiders? 52. Favorite food? 53. Favorite foreign food? 54. Are you a clean or messy person? 55. Most used phrased? 56. Most used word? 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 58. Do you have much of an ego? 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? 60. Do you talk to yourself? 61. Do you sing to yourself? 62. Are you a good singer? 63. Biggest Fear? 64. Are you a gossip? 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? 66. Do you like long or short hair? 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? 68. Favorite school subject? 69. Extrovert or Introvert? 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? 71. What makes you nervous? 72. Are you scared of the dark? 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? 74. Are you ticklish? 75. Have you ever started a rumor? 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? 77. Have you ever drank underage? 78. Have you ever done drugs? 79. Who was your first real crush? 80. How many piercings do you have? 81. Can you roll your Rs?“ 82. How fast can you type? 83. How fast can you run? 84. What color is your hair? 85. What color is your eyes? 86. What are you allergic to? 87. Do you keep a journal? 88. What do your parents do? 89. Do you like your age? 90. What makes you angry? 91. Do you like your own name? 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? 94. What are you strengths? 95. What are your weaknesses? 96. How did you get your name? 97. Were your ancestors royalty? 98. Do you have any scars? 99. Color of your bedspread? 100. Color of your room?

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Just a simple Autumn sketch...