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Wolfstar Fic Recs Part 3:

Fanfiction: Of Memories and Milk Thievery

Author: moonymoment

This fanfiction owns the second chance romance trop! The perfect mix of angst, longing, pining, and bittersweet memory flashbacks. A modern muggle AU featuring Remus and Sirius as a divorced couple who are struggling in their post-divorce journey to co-parent their son Teddy, but eventually find their way back together. James, Lily, and Harry are in this story too and the author really focuses on the friendships and the familial bonds between the four adults as well as the adolescent friendship between Teddy and Harry, who are around the same age. The interactions and characterizations really show how deep their relationship is as one big happy family. This fanfiction owns my heart and literally had me kicking and giggling at some moments but it also made me tear up at others. This is a prime example of why I love the second chance romance trope so much because there's just something so wonderful and soul healing about two lovers who have drifted apart but ultimately find their way back together.

Rate: 10/10

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she has the best unreleased songs

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obsessed with this recently

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Wolfstar Fic Recs Part 2:

Fanfiction: Stealing Harry

Author: copperbadge

In a turn of events where Sirius Black never goes to Azkaban Prison, he makes the decision to ‘steal’ Harry from the Dursleys and raises him as a dogfather should with help from his ‘best friend,’ the friendly neighborhood werewolf.

This is such a brilliant read! I recommend this fanfiction 100%! We get wolfstar and everything that comes along with it. Domestic tropes, co-parenting Harry, angsting over their ex-best friend, Peter Pettigrew, who turned traitor. Snape even makes an appearance here, except his personality is not half bad, I actually like his characterization here; like a grumpy old troll who is forced to socialize with two people who canonically almost *unalived* him when they were 16. One of the many things that I really liked about this fic was that Sirius and Remus took no shit from Dumbledore. Yes, they still saw Dumbledore as a venerable and prominent wizarding authority figure but they put their foot down when it came to Harry’s safety. Sirius and Remus trusted in their own instincts instead of being blindly loyal to Dumbledore and I absolutely live for that.

This should be physically published and on the shelves of every single bookstore.

Rate: 10/10!!

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what the actual

It’s a 2am surprise: The Tortured Poets Department is a secret DOUBLE album. ✌️ I’d written so much tortured poetry in the past 2 years and wanted to share it all with you, so here’s the second installment of TTPD: The Anthology. 15 extra songs. And now the story isn’t mine anymore… it’s all yours. 🤍 https://taylor.lnk.to/ttpd-theanthology

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Happy Mishapocalypse! Also feel free to

boop me!

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i am absolutely on my knees begging for someone to send me good fanfiction recommendations for "Blue Eye Samurai" it has consumed me

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Mizu, femininity, and fallen sparrows

In my last post about Mizu and Akemi, I feel like I came across as overly critical of Mizu given that Mizu is a woman who - in her own words - has to live as a man in order to go down the path of revenge.

If she is ever discovered to be female by the wrong person, she will not only be unable to complete her quest, but there's a good chance that she'll be arrested or killed.

So it makes complete sense for Mizu to distance herself as much as possible from any behavior that she feels like would make someone question her sex.

I felt so indignant toward Mizu on my first couple watchthroughs for this moment. Why couldn't Mizu bribe the woman and her child's way into the city too? If Mizu is presenting as a man, couldn't she claim to be the woman's escort?

However, this moment makes things pretty clear. Mizu knows all too well the plight of women in her society. She knows it so well that she cannot risk ever finding herself back in their position again. She helps in what little way she can - without drawing attention to herself.

Mizu is not a hero and she is not one to make of herself a martyr - she will not set herself on fire to keep others warm. There's room to argue that Mizu shouldn't prioritize her quest over people's lives, but given the collateral damage Mizu can live with in almost every episode of season 1, Mizu is simply not operating under that kind of morality at this point. ("You don't know what I've done to reach you," Mizu tells Fowler.)

And while I still feel like Mizu has an obvious and established blind spot when it comes to Akemi because of their differences in station, such that Mizu's judgment of Akemi and actions in episode 5 are the result of prejudice rather than the result of Mizu's caution, I also want to establish that Mizu is just as caged as Akemi is, despite her technically having more freedom while living as a man.

Mizu can hide her mixed race identity some of the time, and she can hide her sex almost all of the time, but being able to operate outside of her society's strict rules for women does not mean she cannot see their plight.

It does not mean she doesn't hurt for them.

Back to Mizu and collateral damage, remember that sparrow?

While Mizu is breaking into Boss Hamata's manse, she gets startled by a bird and kills it on reflex. She then cradles it in her hands - much more tenderly than we've seen Mizu treat almost anything up to this point in the season:

She then puts it in its nest, with its unhatched eggs. Almost like she's trying to make the death look natural. Or like an accident.

You see where I'm going with this.

When Mizu kills Kinuyo, Mizu lingers in the moment, holding the body tenderly:

And btw a lot of stuff about this show hit me hard, but this remains the biggest gut punch of them all for me, Mizu holding that poor girl's body close, GOD

When Mizu arranges the "scene of the crime," Kinuyo's body is delicate, birdlike. And Mizu is so shaken afterward that she gets sloppy. She's horrified at this kill to the point that she can't bring herself to take another innocent life - the boy who rats her out.

MIZU'S ONE MOMENT OF SOFTNESS AND MERCY, COMING ON THE HEELS OF HER NEEDING TO KILL A GIRL TO SPARE HER THE WORST FATE THAT THIS RIGID SOCIETY HAS TO OFFER WOMEN, AND TO SPARE A BROTHEL FULL OF INNOCENT WOMEN WHO ARE THE CASTOFFS OF SOCIETY, NEARLY RESULTS IN ALL OF THEIR DEATHS

No wonder Mizu is as stoic and cold as she is.

And no wonder Mizu has no patience for Akemi whatsoever right before the terrible reveal and the fight breaks out:

Speaking of Akemi - guess who else is compared to a bird!

The plumage is more colorful, a bit flashier. But a bird is a bird.

And, uh

Yeah.

I like to think that Mizu killing the sparrow is not only foreshadowing for what she must do to Kinuyo, but is also a representation of the choice she makes on Akemi's behalf. She decides to cage the bird because she believes the bird is "better off." Better off caged than... dead.

But because Mizu doesn't know Akemi or her situation, she of course doesn't realize that the bird is fated to die if it is caged and sent back home.

Mizu is clearly not happy, or pleased, or satisfied by allowing Akemi to be dragged back to her father:

But softness and mercy haven't gotten Mizu anywhere good, recently.

There is so much tragedy layered into Mizu's character, and it includes the things she has to witness and the choices she makes - or believes she has to make - involving women, when she herself can skirt around a lot of what her society throws at women. Although, I do believe that it comes at the cost of a part of Mizu's soul.

After all, I'm gonna be haunted for the rest of this show by Mizu's very first prayer in episode 1:

"LET" her die. Because as Ringo points out, she doesn't "know how" to die.

Kind of like another bird in this show:

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Me Reviewing Lily and James Fanfiction Part 24:

Fanfiction: The Wedding Ring

Author: mppmaraudergirl

I am an absolute sucker for second-chance romance and if you are too, then this is the Jily Fic for you. I read this in about two afternoons because it was just so good and I could not put it down. The quintessential Jily factors are there in which they both like each other but neither of them know it yet. This is also a fake-dating fic! Another one of the reasons why it’s so good. It’s a muggle AU where Lily asks James to be her fake date for her sister’s wedding and the story spirals from there. There’s jealous!James and jealous!Lily and a whole lot of pining. I just wish there were more interactions between Lily and the rest of the marauders.

Rate: 8.75/10

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Sirius falls into a rabbit hole when he discovers Brittany Spears and her early life. Feels a kinship with her as being constantly under their parents thumbs, and he gets sad to see she is still legally under that thumb as an adult.

heLLO YES AND THANK YOU

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I’m right here, uncle. The object of your ire, the reason you were disinherited. If you wish to be restored as an heir, you need to kill me. So do it. And be done with all this bother.

HOUSE OF THE DRAGON

1x02 ‘The Rogue Prince’

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Wolfstar Fic Recs Part 1:

Fanfiction: A Store of Happiness

Author: coyotesuspect

As my very first Wolfstar centered fanfiction that I have read, I can, without a doubt, say that this piece of literature was absolutely amazing! This takes place over the summer before Harry’s fourth year and it’s an AU where he adjusts to living with Remus and Sirius as Sirius’s name was cleared after the arrest of Pete Pettigrew. This fic is very much heart-healing. I choose to believe that this story is canon. I believe it to be a quintessential fic of the Wolfstar fandom.

Rate: 9.7/10 I just wish it was a teeny tiny tad bit longer.

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Midnights, the stories of 13 sleepless nights scattered throughout my life, will be out October 21. Meet me at midnight.

Pre-order now: https://taylor.lnk.to/taylorswiftmidnights

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Hi...I am new at tumblr and saw your Jily ratings of different stories. You were suggesting new stories. I recently read a new jily , The Laat Enemy by CH_Darling. It is available on fanfiction (1st part) and on ao3 (2 parts). I think it is one of the best stories I have read including TLAT , Turning Tables etc. TLE is fully canon story

Hello thank you so much for your message!! And thank you as well for this suggestion, The Last Enemy will definitely be on my list to read. I'm very excited to get into it.

Thank you again, I appreciate you! :)

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Me Reviewing Lily and James Fanfiction Part 23:

Fanfiction: Blind Dating

Author: mppmaraudergirl

Muggle AU that’s a quick read of only about 16,000 words. The story goes is that Sirius and Marlene set up James and Lily on a blind date, and in order to get back at their friends for their meddlesome behavior, the pair decides to fake-date for a while and then have a spectacularly messy break-up. Only instead of having their staged break-up, these two admit their feelings for one another and start dating for real. I really liked this fic, I thought it was a joy to read and it was toothrottingly fluffy, I only wish that it had more angst in the sense that I think that James and Lily should have done their messy break-up but then gotten together afterwards.

Rate: 8/10

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Fav Peeta moment or quote in each books or movies?

(psa : everyone is welcomed to answer this question) thank you :)

@curiouspeetamellark

Thank you for asking me a question, I really appreciate it!! For me, Peeta is actually one of the most underrated characters in the whole series. I love all of his little one-liners that he uses to shock the media during his interviews. Who could forget the iconic lines of, "She came here with me," and "If it weren't for the baby"?

However, my all-time favorite Peeta moment is towards the end of Mockingjay (the movie) where Katniss is in District 12 after everything has happened and she sees Peeta gardening. He comes up to her, he gives her a flower, and he says they're primroses. I thought that was just the sweetest thing and the epitome of coming home.

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I wanted to share a picture of my closet since I spend so much time in it, because of the aesthetic and I wanted to congratulate myself on my impressive interior design skills haha